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Mostly Spencer's point of view unless otherwise noted.
I do not own anything originally from the show.
Don't Ask, Don't Tell
You always think the worst will happen if your parents found out something…not so nice about you. Be it drugs, alcohol, sex, or just some dirty little secret you have locked away.
It's on reality shows all the time, where one really horrible messed up kid would be sent to boot camp or military school to straighten them out. My mother happened to take the option to a new, literal sense.
"THAT'S IT! I'm sending you off to military school and that's final!"
I think I've heard those same exact words in a nightmare I had not so long ago. For some strange reason I came out to my mother in that nightmare…oh wait, I just did in real life.
"Mom you can't be serious?!"
"Paula, I'm warning you, don't do this."
Thank God for my father stepping in, maybe he can take care of all this.
"Arthur can't you see she's sick! She needs help."
I need help?! Oh yeah, because being gay is such a life threatening disease. You would think my mother would know better being a doctor and all. Didn't they take homosexuality out of the illness books all the way in the 1970s?
Maybe right now wouldn't be a good time to ask.
"No she doesn't Paula! She's perfectly fine. You're pushing her away!"
"You keep this up Arthur and I'll divorce you in a second!"
I couldn't let that happen, I couldn't put my father through so much.
Hell, I would never be able to forgive myself for making, not only my life harder, but for my brothers Glen and Clay as well.
"Dad, no it's okay."
"No Spencer, it's not okay! Paula she's our daughter and –"
"I will not support her bad choices Arthur!"
Whoa, okay, back up, did she just imply I chose to be gay?
"Mom you can't be serious! You think I want to be gay? You think I just woke up one morning and decided this? My life would be soo much easier if I were straight. It's not my fault Mom. I can't control my feelings. You want me to live a lie?"
And lemme tell you, it's pretty damn hard to keep up a lie like that. Pretending to be straight, yeah tried that already.
Who would know better than my ex-boyfriend Dan, my first ever boyfriend from freshman year. We went out for 2 years and I finally realized, "Oh hey, I was never really attracted to you, sorry!"
I had a feeling something was up when I felt more comfortable kissing my best friend than my own boyfriend. You would think 2 years is really long to figure something like that out. Well to tell you the truth, denial is a very, very powerful thing.
Dan turned out to be really understanding about it. He wasn't really surprised either. I guess it explains our great friendship even after breaking up, unlike most other teenage break ups.
Speaking of break ups, I can't let this one between my mom and dad happen.
"Dad the last thing I want is for you guys to get a divorce because of me… I'll go."
"Oh no you won't Spencer."
"Dad! Really, it's okay, I'll go."
Ever since my dad lost his job my mom has kept this advantage over him. It's like he's powerless now.
Every time my mom makes a decision he had to go along with it otherwise she'd cut him off completely. I wouldn't be surprised with how cold hearted she was now to actually do that to someone you've been with all these years.
It made me sick. But the thought of my dad having to struggle with divorce was too much to handle.
It's the only reason why I agreed to military school.
I was lucky I would only have to spend my senior year there, since I just completed my junior year at West High School in Ohio.
It's sad that my last year of high school would be spent away like this.
What I didn't realize was that this school would change my life completely.
And I thought I was afraid of my mother finding out I was gay.
Wait until you're in a school surrounded by 800 intimidating military students.
NOW I'm scared.