Story: I can be happy
Chapter 1: ONE year later
I woke up and found my self in a dark room. There was no light coming from anywhere; but somehow I could tell that I was in a small empty room and there was a door a few steps in front of me. I opened the door hoping to see some thing, anything, and anyone to get me out of where ever the hell I was. But when I opened the door I saw nothing. I was again in a room slightly darker and larger than the room I was just in. This time I couldn't even tell if I was in a room, let alone see any sign of a door.
"Is anyone here?" I yelled out. "Can anyone hear me?" I only heard the echo's of my own voice reverberating back to me. Slowly I started walking in front of me with my hands stretched out in front me hoping to touch something, like a door handle if I was lucky. I couldn't even reach a wall. How do I get out of here? Drops of panic started creeping through my body, and that's when I heard it. There was a tiny click sound off in my left direction. I ran towards the sound as if it could save my life, and only stopped when I hit a wall. I felt around rapidly hoping I could some how catch a handle. But there wasn't one. Out of desperateness I ran in another direction and hit a wall but there wasn't any door. How could this happen to me? I've killed so many strigoi and survived but now I was going to die in a room all alone because I couldn't find a way to get out. I couldn't breathe anymore and I was taking long gasps, when I heard someone screaming. It took me a second to realize that I was screaming. I was screaming at the top of my lungs and I couldn't stop.
Finally my eyes opened and I woke up in a cold sweat. I looked up rubbing sleep from my eyes, and everything was as it was supposed to be. "I dreamt about it again" I said to myself. I've been having the same dream for the past two months; since the day the person I loved most died.
I turned to my right and saw that it was four in morning. It's been a long time since I got used to sleeping at night, the same hours as humans. It's been a year since I left the academy alone and two months since I killed Dimitri with my own hands. I try not to think about it. It was something I had to do… and I did. I know that I have to keep going everyday but at the same time I will never ever forget the love that me Dimitri shared. But thinking about Dimitri makes me go into a dark hole. The first month after I staked him was the hardest month of my whole life. I thought I was going to go crazy sometimes, because somehow I felt and still do sometimes feel responsible. Dimitri turned strigoi because I convinced everyone to go into the cave. If we never went in to the cave, Dimitri would be alive and I would never have left the academy. I would never have left Lisa or all my other friends. I would not have had to kill Dimitri, the one person that I loved as much as Lisa. They were the two people I loved most in the world. That's one part of me. The other part of me tells me to stop torturing myself and move on. Dimitri became a guardian knowing that he might lose his life on the job. It was something he was willing to risk if it meant saving the lives of the moroi. I don't feel depressed any more, but at the same time I can't help but feel that something is missing. I feel empty and kind of lost, just like how I was in my dreams. I'm still Rose, but I don't think I'll ever be the same Rose as I used to be.
I closed my eyes in silent comfort trying not to think about anything; just listening to the quiet around me, sort of like a meditation. I didn't know when I fell back asleep but I must have because I suddenly saw someone I haven't seen in a long time. …..I suddenly saw Adrian.