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They don't understand. Not even Leo. They don't think that I have problems dealing with things like Piper.
When Prue died, I stayed strong, because Piper needed me too. It would've been useless if I'd lost it, especially with Paige. Piper resented her because she wasn't Prue. Paige was scared and confused, so I had to learn how to be a big sister, quickly. Too quickly.
If Prue were still here, I probably wouldn't be like this. Sure, we had our fights, and yeah, they got pretty ugly. But at least she cared. When I was in high-school and she got into that accident she was so scared because she'd hurt me. Because she'd hurt her little baby sister.
I don't have a lot of strength like Prue did. Not even as a child. I'd have nightmares that would scare the hell out of me and she'd stay with me all night, telling me it was all right, and sometimes she'd sing me to sleep. Every time I would wake the next morning it would be in her arms.
Her arms... Oh how I miss being wrapped up in her arms. When she held me, it was like nothing could ever hurt. I was safe with her. It's different with Piper, she's my sister and I love her, but she's not Prue.
Prue wouldn't have left me alone like this, she would have seen through my act.
For the life of me, I can't figure out why we're so close. It has to have something to do with Piper being so young when Mom died. Grams was devastated, could hardly even look at me. I don't know why, Prue's the one who's so much like Mom, but Prue never admits it.
I remember she told me something, once. After the water demon and the lake where Mom died. I had a nightmare that night. It scared me so much I was in tears. As usual, Prue came in and held me. When I had stopped crying she ran her fingers through my hair and said I had the same hair Mom did. I just looked at her. Then she told me how much I reminded her of Mom. Not just my hair, but my eyes too. She said that she and Piper had darker hair then Mom, more like Grams. But me, my hair was a lighter brown, like Mom's had been.
She also told me that she'd never leave, no matter what. Because she loved me.
But she did leave and it hurts.
I'd never dare say this to anyone. Not Leo, not Paige, and certainly not Cole or Piper.
There was one thing Prue knew about me that no one else did. I just don't get Premonitions form touching things. I get them in dreams too. Last night I had one. It was about Prue. I woke up suddenly, so I don't remember much of it. I tried to go back to sleep, but it hurt so much to have a dream and know it would never happen. But there was a warm feeling beside me, when I tried to go back sleep. Like someone holding me, calming my fears. I know who it was.
Prue.
They don't understand. Not even Leo. They don't think that I have problems dealing with things like Piper.
When Prue died, I stayed strong, because Piper needed me too. It would've been useless if I'd lost it, especially with Paige. Piper resented her because she wasn't Prue. Paige was scared and confused, so I had to learn how to be a big sister, quickly. Too quickly.
If Prue were still here, I probably wouldn't be like this. Sure, we had our fights, and yeah, they got pretty ugly. But at least she cared. When I was in high-school and she got into that accident she was so scared because she'd hurt me. Because she'd hurt her little baby sister.
I don't have a lot of strength like Prue did. Not even as a child. I'd have nightmares that would scare the hell out of me and she'd stay with me all night, telling me it was all right, and sometimes she'd sing me to sleep. Every time I would wake the next morning it would be in her arms.
Her arms... Oh how I miss being wrapped up in her arms. When she held me, it was like nothing could ever hurt. I was safe with her. It's different with Piper, she's my sister and I love her, but she's not Prue.
Prue wouldn't have left me alone like this, she would have seen through my act.
For the life of me, I can't figure out why we're so close. It has to have something to do with Piper being so young when Mom died. Grams was devastated, could hardly even look at me. I don't know why, Prue's the one who's so much like Mom, but Prue never admits it.
I remember she told me something, once. After the water demon and the lake where Mom died. I had a nightmare that night. It scared me so much I was in tears. As usual, Prue came in and held me. When I had stopped crying she ran her fingers through my hair and said I had the same hair Mom did. I just looked at her. Then she told me how much I reminded her of Mom. Not just my hair, but my eyes too. She said that she and Piper had darker hair then Mom, more like Grams. But me, my hair was a lighter brown, like Mom's had been.
She also told me that she'd never leave, no matter what. Because she loved me.
But she did leave and it hurts.
I'd never dare say this to anyone. Not Leo, not Paige, and certainly not Cole or Piper.
There was one thing Prue knew about me that no one else did. I just don't get Premonitions form touching things. I get them in dreams too. Last night I had one. It was about Prue. I woke up suddenly, so I don't remember much of it. I tried to go back to sleep, but it hurt so much to have a dream and know it would never happen. But there was a warm feeling beside me, when I tried to go back sleep. Like someone holding me, calming my fears. I know who it was.
Prue.