BPOV

"NOO!!!" the pain I was felling was unbearable, this just couldn't be happening to me.

"Bella, it wasn't you're fault and you know it" My best friend tried to relaxed me but I just couldn't. I was running from one side of my room to another, thinking in everything that just happened.

It couldn't be true, it just couldn't. I broke down in tears and sobs. I felt so bad, I wouldn't see their face again, I wouldn't hug them or kiss them, or the simplest thing, tell them I love them, that they were everything to me. And to think I was mad at them for the most silly thing. I knew they didn't love each other, but I was too selfish to accept it. Now, everything for me was dead as they were, everything inside me was in pain, my heart ached so much for the lost, and I couldn't stop crying I felt too bad I can't bear it. I hate myself, I always treat them bad and I always forced them to give me everything I wanted. Now I know how much I loved them and didn't have the chance to tell them. It was true; you don't know what you have until you lose it.

"Bella!!" My friend shouted as I felt my body dying as them.

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"She has to go an orphanage." I didn't care what the judge said, or where I was going I just wanted my parents back.

"No, she cants, she has a life, friends, everything. A simple plane crash can't change all that." Why fight? I thought will my attorney tried to defend me.

"Bella has no parents, no family; the orphanage will take care of her. This case has officially concluded."

"Bella I—I am sorry" My attorney, Jake, apologized, but I didn't felt bad for going to the orphanage, actually I didn't feel anything, I was a walking dead, if you liked to call it like that.

Jake hugged me and told me he would miss me, I knew that, I wanted to tell him I would miss him too, but I didn't, I couldn't speak, smile, anything.

"Come Bella" The orphanage director was pressuring me, well actually Jake to go with her and put me in my own personal jail.

"Don't forget me Bella" I knew it was my best friend, but of course I didn't answer I couldn't speak really I couldn't. I thought if I did I would break down as when I got the news that my parents were dead. I would miss her and Jake a lot, I really would.

I was walking with the director; I think her name was Karla, to a car. If I have to go to a orphanage better make it quick so I can get out of public eye as soon as possible, before the break down comes. I hated people seeing me cry, it just shows how vulnerable and weak I am.

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"And this, is your new room" Karla smiled, she really tried hard to make me talk, she will give up someday.

A new room and a new life. But with the same pain and the same agony of lost.

"By the way, you can be adopted, and you will have a new family would you like that?" Karla looked straight into my eyes with caring eyes. I just keep looking at her no answer, no sound, nothing that could encourage her I was going to speak.

Karla sighs and went out of "my room". I liked her, she had deep blue eyes and black hair, but right know I can't show happiness, love, caring, I am dying slowly by sorrow and love is out of my life forever, I just can't feel it and loose someone again.

Remembering my parents was the most painful thing I do every night. But if I don't remember them I would forget totally about them, their smile, their caring, and their love to me. I cry myself to sleep all nights since they died.

I can't love anybody anymore, I can't be broken again, I just can't bare it.

First Fan fiction, totally excited about it. The song that gave ne the idea was "Nobody's Home" by Avril Lavigne. Hope you like it, I know its short and everything(I also hate it when chaters are short, and 704 words isn't that bad, it just not enough) but really I kind of like it, hope you too,, please review and give costructive critism. I will uploud the next chapter when I have 7 reviews.

Karlas picture is in my profile.