CHAPTER ONE

_I'll never forget that day, Everytime I go to sleep it replays in my head. I was careless, and because of it I lost my love, my life, my more.

* "I'm pregnant"

" Your what"

"I'm pregnant Christian. I'm sorry I know this is soon but..."

His face is covered in a mix of anger and fear I can tell what he's gonna say isn't what I'm gonna want to hear.

"Fuck Ana of course this is too soon. We've known each other five fucking minutes. I WANTED TO SHOW YOU THE WORLD"

My eyes begin to tear up. Damn hormones.

"Christian please don't yell at me" I try to hide my tears but they continue to stream down my face.

"Don't start with the fucking waterworks. FUCK. You know what get out I'm done go. Out. I will have Taylor drive you to your apartment I need to think."

I'm completely in shock. I knew he would be angry but I never expected this.

"Christian please." I plead with him, my legs feel like jello I don't know how I'm standing right now. It feels like my whole world is ending.

"Ana I said LEAVE, Just go."

I don't have the energy to hide my tears anymore I turn and run to the elevator, once inside I fall to the floor sitting there as my sobs rack my body. I can't believe this is happening. I hear the elevator ping telling me I made it to the garage but I don't care I just sit there until I hear a familiar voice bringing me out of my daze.

"Mrs. Grey I have been instructed by Mr. Grey to take you to ms. Kavanaghs apartment."

I stand up wipe the tears from my face and make a decision that changed my life forever.

"Taylor take me to sea tac". I pull my phone out to book a flight to Georgia. Right now I need my mom.

"But Mrs. Grey. Mr. Grey said..." I know he can get in extreme trouble for disobeying christian but right now I could care less.

" Just do it Taylor" I yell as I climb into the back of the SUV.

"Yes ma'am"*

I walk from my bedroom to my son's. If I had only stayed in Seattle maybe Christian would have forgiven me and my sweet boy wouldn't be without his father.

Of course christian sends me money for Teddy and I every month. But he has never met his son. And tomorrow my whole reason for living turns two years old. I can't believe how much has changed, but I wouldn't trade it for anything my baby boy is my life. Do I wish things were different between christian and I of course my son deserves his father. But christian made his choice. Now I make mine.

Grace, Carrick, Mia, Kate, Ethan, and Elliot were all there for me through out my entire pregnancy. When Teddy was one I was offered a job in new York which I took. I now live in Manhattan, I work half the day at Grey publishing's new York office the other half of the day I work from home so I can be with Teddy. Everyone of the Grey's will be here tomorrow accept for Christian. Christian and I still haven't gotten a divorce, I don't want a divorce I don't know if its me being hopeful that maybe we will eventually get back together, or if it's just the pure fact that I don't want to be with Anyone but Christian. I stand in front of Teddy's crib and watch him sleep. He is Christians mini me, he has Christians copper curls and captivating grey eyes. He has my nose but everything else is Christian. I love my baby boy with everything in me. He's such a mommy's boy, every day when I come home from work he runs up to me and clings my me for the rest of the night. We have been attached at the hip since his birth. He has Christians face but my personality completely, he loves books, we sit in his rocking chair in his room every night and read until he falls asleep. Then I lay him in his crib and head to my room where I relive the night I lost the love of my life the minute my head hits the pillow.

I have to pick up the Grey's at the airport tomorrow at 8 am for Teddy's party which is Saturday. Kate and Elliot are staying a little while longer to visit with me and Teddy but everyone else is leaving Sunday to return to Seattle.

Grace tells me christian has returned to the way he was before we met. He's distant and cold, not at all the lively charismatic man i fell in love with. I leave my son's room to walk to my bedroom and get on my laptop and begin to make all of the final arrangements for Teddy's upcoming party.

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