So uh, this is just something I uh had, and I wanted to type it for however wanted to read it… I guess if you like comment… if not flame… I guess. Uh, if any have read my other story, and are now reading this one, I plan to have a new chapter out in a couple days(2-3)… Thanks…
This can be considered Naruto's or Sai's thoughts. In a way it reflects both of them, or how many have perceived them to be in so stories. So take it and interpret however you want. It could fit others.
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I don't cry because it makes me feel weak. I don't show my real emotions or what I think are my real emotions, because I do not know if they are really real.
If they are just something I have seen, heard, or imagine, that's what they are like, because I just don't know.
What I do sometimes makes me wonder if I am loosing it. Slowly becoming what so many are afraid of.
I don't see what so wrong though. Could it just be that I don't really understand why it would be wrong to be what people fear, or am I experiencing fear that I won't be excepted. That can't be can it?
If I compared myself to one thing it would be a doll. Emotions are not quite clear unless they are distinctly shown on the face or through the actions the puppeteer makes. Right and wrong are one and the same. But at the same time "we" take in what "we" are made to do, so "we" come to wonder if it is "us" who are acting, or the one controlling "us". "We" wonder if "we" are a doll or a human.
I know my words make no sense; I myself don't even understand them.
My words emit my emotions on to paper so they are easier to understand, but as I sit here writing them, they confuse me just like my emotions do when I feel them.
I am like a doll with no puppeteer to change the face or move my arms.
I sit here and wait, wait for someone who will come along and make me feel human, even if they are doing it because they think it will be funny to watch me flounder.
After all it is better to hope someone will come along, than to sit here hollow. Even if it is fake.
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Its short I know, but it was something while waiting for my comp to load. Um, thanks for reading and I hope you liked it?