Author's Note: Hi! this is my first fanfic, so go easy. I've had this idea floating around in my head for a while and figured it was time to put pen to paper. Emily is still on the team in this. Hope you enjoy :)
Disclaimer: I don't own Criminal Minds or any of the characters in it.
I've been here for a while. Hours, maybe days have gone by. I already lost track. I know this isn't going to help or make things better, but I can't bring myself to leave. I just keep staring and staring. Alone. I am more alone now than I ever have been. Nobody knows, nobody could understand. There is no one left.
The wind picks up, and the empty bottle of whiskey falls to the floor. It was the only one I drank. Instead of making me forget, it reminded me of how disappointed in myself I was last time. The team might be looking for me, but then again, I did request vacation. I've been pulling away the last few months. No more movies with Derek, no more girl's nights with JJ and Emily, no more dinner with everyone after a rough case. I isolated myself from the only family I have left.
The worst part is that they tried. They called constantly to check up on me, and tried to include me in almost everything they did together. I always refused to go and said that everything was okay. They shouldn't have to deal with this, they have enough burden to carry. I don't realize I'm crying until I feel the tears splash on my folded hands. It isn't their fault I never told anyone what really happened, it's mine. I have to live with it. They are better without me now anyway.
The sun slowly came up and illuminated my surroundings. It was the end of May and the soft, warm breeze rustled the papers in my lap. I haven't slept or eaten since I walked here, and my eyes are only now starting to close. I bunch up my sweater and used it as a pillow as I shift to lay on the grass. The last thing I see before sleep overcomes me were the words that would haunt me forever.
Jesse Garcia - beloved daughter
Died June 15, 2003
7 years old