Hello My Lovelies. I know I've been gone a while but college has been kicking my ass. Anyway, I am rewriting Life & Death, but slightly different so please stay tuned! Thank you and enjoy!

-ThatDorkyFangirl

Juvia laid in her bed, staring at the ceiling, absently listening to the drip drip drop of the rain on her window. She couldn't tell if the rain was her doing or natural, but what she did know was that she had some big decisions to make.

She looked out the window and took a deep breath. SHe had a feeling that the rain wasn't her doing. Despite the less than ideal circumstances, she was kind of happy. She was now 21, had her own apartment she shared with the love of her life, Gray Fullbuster. Thanks to them both achieving S class status, they had more than enough money to spare.

For the first time in hours, she cracked a smile. She was starting to like this idea. Her and Gray, living the life of her dreams. They could buy a house, decorate rooms, get married. It would be wonderful.

Juvia giggled to herself and hopped out of the bed. Why was she so sad before? Everything would be fine, even with this being unplanned, it would still be fine. She quickly put on her shoes and practically ran out of their apartment, not bothering to bring her umbrella as she skipped through the rain to the guild.

Gray sighed into his pitcher before downing the last of its contents. The bitter liquid burned its throat as he felt it slide down to join the other 3 pitchers in his stomach. The ice mage was frustrated. He didn't like how his life was at the moment and more importantly, didn't know how to fix it.

Sure, he had a nice apartment, he was making more than he knew what to do with, he had his best friend and a smoking hot girlfriend. The problem was, that that smoking hot girlfriend was the cause of his frustration. He felt like she was constantly around him. In their apartment she always sat right by him, talking or hugging him. Even in the shower she would sit on the sink and talk to him. Plus, he never thought he'd say this, but her libido was off the charts! Even he couldn't keep up. It seemed to be like a greeting to her.

He sighed once again as he signaled for Mirajane to bring another pitcher. He knew she meant well, but he couldn't help but feel smothered. She was nice, thoughtful, loving and loyal. But he still couldn't get over her obsession with him. In all honesty, it still sometimes freaked him out after 2 years of dating.

Mirajane slid the pitcher of alcohol over to the now mostly naked, ice mage.

"Hey Gray, what's wrong? You've been sighing since you got here? Is something going on with your family again?" Mirajane bent forward and rested her elbows on the counter before her, staring at Gray intently and waiting for his answer.

"No, it's not that… It's just... " He took a deep breath then continued. "I'm having some problems with Juvia." He looked up at Mirajane, not knowing how she would react. She is the guild matchmaker after all.

"Gray, it's normal to have ups and downs in relationships. You guys have been so happy since you started dating its about time a challenge forged your relationship further". The takeover mage lightly smacked Gray's arm and he looked down at his lap.

"Mira, it's more than that. It's not something either of us has done. It's about our personalities. I'm more independent...and she's...not. I feel smothered. She's always clinging to me and never leaves me alone. She's in my business and honestly, I'd like some peace every once in a while." He drew in a quick breath as Mira stared at him. He wasn't the type to get emotional like that so she must have been caught off guard.

"Mira… I don't know how much longer I can be with Juvia…" He sighed as he turned in his seat, downing his drink before slamming the pitcher on the counter and standing up. He took one step and ran right into his girlfriend, who simply stumbled back.

He looked up at her and immediately, his face fell even more. The look on her face was beyond sadness and being heartbroken, it was full of sorrow. The type of sorrow one feels only a few times in their life.

"Gray….sama…" Juvia whispered. She looked down at her feet as he saw a few tears hit her shoes. "Can… C-Can we t-talk…" She whispered again, to the point that he could barely hear.

"Yeah, let's talk, Juvia." He looked back at his longtime friend as she looked at the two lovers.

"You can use the guild room in the back" she pointed to the doors on the back wall. Gray grabbed Juvia's hand and began walking. He felt a twinge in his heart as she simply allowed her hand to lay limply in his, never looking up or making a sound.

Gray opened the door to the guild room and ushered Juvia in. She quietly walked in and Gray closed the door before flicking on the lights. He pulled up a chair and guided Juvia into it, sitting beside her after ensuring she was comfortable, well as comfortable as can be in this situation.

"Juvia. I-" Before Gray could finish his sentence, Juvia held up a hand, her eyes still refusing to look up.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Gray's eyes widened. Juvia, in the entire time he had known her, had never spoken using the first-person except for the few times she had drunk too much alcohol. So, hearing her use the first-person worried Gray immensely.

"I… I didn't know… I thought…" Gray stumbled for words as he tried to make sense of what was happening. Juvia stopped him with a hand once again.

"Do you... still want to be with me?" She asked shakily. He could tell her wall was breaking.

"I… I feel smothered. I feel anxious that you'll pop up and smother me with hugs or kisses. Or bring me bento with us having sex in sushi. I'm anxious that I won't have the alone time I want..." He trailed off and looked down. He heard Juvia take a deep sigh and clear her throat. He felt a soft hand reach out and lift his chin. His eyes met her beautiful sea blue orbs.

"Are you happy?" She whispered. He paused before shaking his head and looking down, only to have her hand lift his chin up again. "Would you be happier without me?"

He paused and looked into her eyes. Would he be happier? He wouldn't have to worry about her showing up anywhere he was. He could shower in peace. He could go to the club without her getting jealous, he'd be free.

A small smile played on his lips as he thought about what his single life would be like. Then, the hand under his chin dropped and the eyes that had been staring into his dropped their gaze once again to the young woman's lap.

"Gray, I want you to be happy. To me, that is the most important thing. I never meant to be a burden to you. If you are unhappy, I will go my own way so that you may go yours. Okay?" Then, Juvia looked up at him. He saw the tears begging to fall from her eyes and the red in her cheeks hinting at her sadness. Yet, she still smiled and encouraged him.

"Okay." He said, and she smiled once again. "But, Juvia, can we still be friends?" Gray looked hopefully at Juvia who leaned forward and gently pressed her lips to his.

"This is my last kiss as your lover". She whispered before laying her lips on his forehead tenderly. "And this is my last kiss as your friend…" She smiled at him, an actual sincere smile as the tears finally broke free. "I'm sorry. Goodbye, Gray Fullbster." She stood then and gave a short wave before walking to the door and letting herself out.

Gray watched her silhouette as she shut the door behind her. He couldn't process it, but he just broke up with his girlfriend. The woman he lives with. And she didn't want to be friends? How could that happen if they were in the same guild? Where would he live? Would he have to go on missions with Natsu again?

Gray didn't know what to do or think, so he simply put his head in his hands and sat in silence.

Juvia leaned against the wall as her tears finally fell. She had never felt sadness like this before in her life. Not when she was rejected as a kid, not when her old guild berated her, not even the 1000 times Gray had rejected her previously. But… this time was different.

She wanted to tell him she was pregnant, she really was planning to. But, when she overheard him talking about her, she knew she couldn't do that to him. She couldn't bring this into his life as well.

She wasn't above admitting, however, that she did this partially for her unborn child. Even if it is a bit twisted, she didn't want her child to grow up with parents that are unhappily together. She didn't want them to think that was what love was.

Maybe one day, she would tell him, when things were better and she wasn't heartbroken. But for now, she would carry this secret with her. Her only immediate problem, now, was hiding the pregnancy and finding a way to explain her new child.

She wiped her tears and straightened herself up. For her, and her unborn child, she needed to be strong. She put a fist in the air to hype herself up and smacked her cheeks a couple of times.

She didn't want to cry right now, she could cry later. But, for now, she needed a plan. She put on a smile and walked out into the main hall. Everyone was being rowdy as usual as she slithered across the wall. Even though she was holding together well now, she didn't know what would trigger her to tears.

She continued along until she bumped into the mission board, knocking down a flyer. She bent to pick it up, but the title caught her eye. "Wanted: Defensive mage to ward off slavers at an Espalier orphanage. One year mission". A switch went off in Juvia's mind as she dashed towards Mirajane.

"I want to take this mission, please!" She shouted and slammed the flyer onto the counter. Mirajane blinked and nodded, quickly looking over the flyer before looking at the water mage with a raised eyebrow.

"Juvia, this is a year-long mission. Do you think Gray will be okay with that?" She questioned innocently. Juvia's smile faltered slightly before she perked back up.

"Don't worry. He'll be fine." Mirajane nodded before taking out her stamp and stamping approval on the flyer. Juvia bowed before rushing off to pack her things.

So... do you want to eat ttake this chapter on a nice romantic walk or throw it into a pit of steaming lava? Let me know (politely) in the comments! Be looking for the next chappy soon! Love ya bunches!

-ThatDorkyFangirl