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A/N: I wrote this right after episode 2, then somehow managed to lose it in my computer. Finally found it and decided to post it, let me know what you think
Not Anxious, Scared
A blonde sits alone in a room. Her hands are tangled in semi curly hair. Her expression is pained and frustrated before she shoves herself up off of her bed. Her eyes catch on almost invisible stars and her insides twist before she walks out of her room, slamming her door. In the hallway she comes face to face with another shorter blonde. They stare at one another for a few minutes before the taller blonde moves past the shorter blonde Lauren. Lauren watches her step-sister Amy go before walking to the stairs and listening. Her teeth bite into her lip nervously.
Amy continues down the stairs and heads for the front door. "Where are you going?" Amy's face turn terrified and anxious before she calms her features and turns around to face her mother.
"Out. I need some air." Her voice is tart. Short as her fingers tremble on her thighs. Her blue eyes won't met her mothers. Ever since that night her mother seemed to have no idea what to do with her. The night she came out on live television, to her mother the newscaster. Thankfully the news station had understood her predicaments and given her mother a second chance to prove herself.
"Where are you going? You're not very dressed up." Eye flicker over Amy's clothing with curiosity. The eyes are guarded and scared. She had no idea how to handle her daughter being gay. Her own mother would have prayed and sent her daughter to church and had them pray the gay out of her. Teach her what was right but everything was so messed up. People were coming out and nothing was the same. She loved her daughter but her religion ate at her. Some people at church frowned upon gays but she didn't, as long as they didn't mess or affect her family she was fine. But now her daughter was gay and she was so lost.
"I just need to get out of here. The air is suffocating. I'm going to run. Is that a problem?" Amy's voice was unusually short as she fidgeted from foot to foot. Lauren listened to them from above the stairs. She knew how their relationship was. Amy loved her mom even if her mom was a bit to take in. And Farrah loved Amy even though she didn't agree with her clothing choices. They loved one another yet this was tearing them apart. Lauren bites at her lips as her memories flash back to how there was a drift between her and her own mother when her mom had cheated on her dad. Her dad was different now, happier even if Amy's mom was a bit crazy. Though Lauren seemed to be the daughter Amy's mom had always dreamed of. Yet it didn't make Amy's mom love Amy any-less. Though Amy coming out had made a rift. Lauren had tried to stop it, she wasn't actually going to tell Amy's mom. She knew how people could be. She just never expected Amy to go through with it. Especially since she did hear that they were faking it. And she had seen Karma kissing Liam which confused and pissed her off. Liam thought they were both gay and in a relationship. Even if Lauren hated not fitting in. Not being at the top of the ladder like at her old school she hated people who tried to break apart relationships. She hated the cheater and the cheatee. Even if they were faking it Karma and Liam still shouldn't be doing thing. Making out.
Lauren shakes her head as she listens to the two blondes downstairs. Amy backs away from her mother and grips the doorknob, not meeting her mother's eyes. "I'm going to be at Shane's. He invited me over for dinner after I run."
Her mom runs a hand through her hair. Curls drifting over her fingers. "Amy I like him but he is a boy. I wouldn't feel comfortable with you be-"
"He's gay mom! He's not going to get me pregnant or anything. I am not going over there to have sex okay. I need somebody who understands me. You don't want me here so I am going to go for the night. I hate this awkwardness." Tears fill Amy's eyes as she yells at first before her voice softens and crumbles. " I love you but I need air." With that Amy turns and rips open the door before running down the street. Her feet pound on the cement as she runs to Shane's house. She couldn't wait until she was 16. One more month then freedom. No more riding the bus or walking everywhere. The girl pauses as she thinks about it. She didn't have a car and who would buy it for her? She came out to her mom why would her mom get her anything? Why would her mom love her anymore?
Her feet carry her to Karma's house and she see's a car sitting on the street. Watches as Karma gets into it. Her heart clenches as she catches sight of Liam's hair. It was eight at night. They were going on a romantic date. Tears prickled at her eyes before she walked to Shane's house. Her feet shuffled and teeth dug into her lip as she tried to hold back the tear. She makes it to Shane's house and knocks on the door. He opens it and catches sight of Amy. "Ohh no. Get in here, I know that look anywhere." His arm circles around Amy's shoulder as he leads her to his room. "You have both the panicked and then heartbroken look. What happened?"
Her mind rushes around everything. "I kissed a boy and felt nothing! Why didn't I feel anything?" Karma had spoke of Liam so she decided to try. She managed to kiss one boy but everything felt wrong. That's why she went home and why she needed air. Everything was tumbling down. "I. We're faking being lesbians. Karma is. I'm not sure. I. I don't know what to do anymore."
Shane stares at Amy for a second. "Well that was shocking. Have you ever kissed another girl?"
Amy stares at him for a minute. "No and don't tell anyone were faking it. Karma is my best friend and I don't want to see her hurt. Shane please."
The boy sighs. "Okay, I won't tell anyone. But you are in a bundle of rainbows girl. Karma is going to hurt you one way or another."
Amy sighs. "I have to go. I, thanks for talking to me. I needed someone to help make my thoughts make sense. I'm not good at this. I have to go." She turns and leaves as suddenly as she had come. Her mind wouldn't settle on one thing.
She had come out to her mother, both for Karma and her own benefit. She had stood up to her mother and it had felt amazing at the moment but right now she wanted to cry. She needed her best friend, the same person she was fake dating and surely was off having sex with Liam. She wipes at her eyes and sees the club. It stands out and she remembers Shane mentioning it at lunch. She walks to the bouncer who looks her over. A boy looks her over before slapping a twenty into the man's chest and shoving her through. "You look like you need it sweetheart. Have fun." The boy leaves her with a wave of his hand and she looks around at the bar. Couples dance together, nonalcoholic drinks passed out and she stumbles across the floor.
She sees girls with hair like Karma's before she sees a blonde looking her way. She watches as the blonde girl walks towards her. She wears short shorts and a flowing soft green shirt that matches her eyes. "Hello." Her voice carries to Amy's ears and before Amy can think she pulls the girl into a quick kiss. She feels the girl smirk against her own lips before they begin to kiss with a fever. Amy tangles her fingers into the girls soft straight blonde hair. If Karma was losing her virginity tonight then she might as well too. Something stirred within her and she pushed against the slightly taller girl. She was everything Karma wasn't. She was blonde. Tall and extremely confident. The girl pulls back. "I'm Dinah. Are we taking this somewhere else or do you like kissing strangers?"
"Amy and somewhere else. Now." Amy's voice is strangled yet firm. Her mind is racing and Dinah looks at her for a minute before dragging Amy's face back to hers. Her lips ghost along Amy's as her fingers trail. One on Amy's cheek and the other on her hipbone. Dinah takes Amy by her hand and leads her through the crowd before pulling her upstairs. "Where?"
"My parents own the club. I have a room upstairs." Dinah's green eyes spark as she looks back at Amy. Amy can't tell if the flip flop is because she is going upstairs with a girl, she just kissed a girl that wasn't Karma or the fact that she was getting ready to lose her virginity. Amy watches as Dinah unlocks the door and locks it back after pulling Amy through. Dinah brings Amy's mouth back to her and kisses her with a deep passion.
Somehow they end up on the bed and Amy is confused before she is kissing Dinah again. It felt so good but so wrong. Guilt swam in her body. Karma was her best friend and hey were fake dating. Amy might even be in love with her. But Karma was with Liam right now. Jealously pooled deep inside Amy and she angrily ground against Dinah. "You sure you want to do this Amy?"
"Yes." She brings Dinah's lips to meet her own forcefully. "Do you worst."
Dinah begins to strip Amy of her cloths. At first Amy blushes until Dinah begins to place soft kisses along her stomach. Suddenly teeth dig into her hip bone and a groan pulls itself from her chest as heat flood her body and moves to where she can feel liquid pooling. Her body was responding in kind to Dinah and slowly her mind was leaving Karma behind as Dinah did things to her body she had never thought of. Dinah is kissing her. Dragging her tongue in her mouth before latching onto Amy's neck. SHe goran before pushing Dinah's head away. "No marks on my neck."
Dinah looks at her again slowly. Calculating before kissing Amy again, deeper. Dragging her fingers along Amy's bare skin. Amy bucks her hips without thought as long fingers drag over her jeans. A button unsnaps and suddenly fingers are move under her underwear. Finger plunge into her without warning and she feels pain. She screams out and bites into Dinah's shoulder to muffle the sound and have something tangible to hold onto. "Why didn't you tell me you were a virgin?" Worry tint the girl's voice.
Amy winces as she feels Dinah fingers still in her. It hurts yet there is an undertone of pleasure. She shifts her hips and feels both again. "Didn't think you'd have sex with me if you knew. Virgins aren't as experienced." She chuckles self depreciatively.
Dinah shakes her head. "I still would have had sex with you. I love sex. I love pleasuring girls. I would have been far more gentle though." Her fingers twitch slowly in Amy and she can't help but groan in both pain and pleasure before she begins to move against the fingers inside of her. "The pain will be gone soon." Amy moans in response as Dinah grins into Amy's neck before kissing her. Stealing Amy's breath away as she thrusts into Amy. Pleasuring the girl as much as she can. Amy's fingers fumble with Dinah's pants as she remembers Dinah needs to get off also. "It's fine, after your done." Amy groans in response as Dinah slips deeper. Her thigh pressing into her hand.
"Please. Faster." Amy's voice is rough with pleasure as her blue eyes meet green. Dinah nods, remembering her first time. She would bring Amy something amazing. Amy feels her body tightening. Her muscles bunching for something huge. She feels something burning in her abdomen as it travels lower. "I think I'm going to. I dont thin-"
"Shh. Let go, it's normal. Let go and feel." Dinah's voices flutters across Amy's ears as a deep husk before Amy does as she's told. Seconds later her fingers dig into Dinah's shoulder as her hips lift off the bed.
Amy comes down slowly, a soft blush across her chest and cheeks. She blinks slowly before looking to Dinah. Her fingers move to Dinah. Dinah's own long fingers grip hers. "Slow." Amy nods nervously before she slips her own fingers into Dinah. She watches as Dinah's breath stutters in her lung. She blinks and looks over Dinah's shoulder. Finger grip her chin and her finger twitch. She catches the way Dinah's hips bump into hers with the soft twitch. "Don't think, feel. Watch. Learn. Everything is about feeling." Amy swallows and nods as she moves her fingers again. She was having sex with someone. She lost her virginity. A sigh leaves her lips and Dinah pulls her in for a kiss as her hips begin to move faster. Amy curves her fingers and sets her other hand on Dinah's hips. She can feel the stutters of Dinah's breath against her lips. It seems like seconds later and Dinah slips her head down onto Amy's collar bone and pants. Amy feels the tightening around her fingers and widens them, pushing them in deeper. She feels Dinah's muscles bunch in her hip before she stiffens and sighs softly as her abdomen muscles twitch repeatedly. Dinah's green eyes are satisfied and lazy. "Not bad for your first time."
Amy lays down and watches as Dinah stretches out languishly. Amy closes her eyes and fights the guilt that is coming back. "What's with the face and the thinking?"
"I have a girlfriend." Amy's voice is strangled.
"Well fuck." Dinah's voice is annoyed.
"She's my fake girlfriend though." Dinah looks at Amy incredulously. "We are in a fake lesbian relationship because a gay guy mistook our friendship for relationship and outed us. We were popular and she loved it. We won homecoming queens and I came out on national tv with my very conservative mother as the reporter and right now she is having sex with a guy who is a man whore." Amy's words come out, getting more tear filled until tears drip down her face.
Dinah sighs. "Your friend sounds like a selfish bitch." Amy turns blue eyes to green. "She let you out yourself to your mother."
"No. Karma didn't know I was going to do that. Everyone tried to stop her. Not let me be seen as Karma's girlfriend. My evil stepsister who threatened to out me tried to get my mom to leave before she saw us. Karma didn't mention a thing and my mom said she was fine with Karma being gay because Karma wasn't her daughter and I should dial back on the sleepovers." Tears drip down her face. "I think my mom hates me. I'm in love with my best friend and she loves some guy who won't approve and isn't my dad."
"You can stay here tonight." Amy looks at the girl confused. "You shouldn't have to go home to your mom tonight. You certainly can't go to this Karma's house." Amy nods and sighs as she pulls the blanket up to cover her now cold body.
She can barely feel the pulse of the music through the sheets. It is silent except for their breathing and the soft undertone of music. "Thank you. Sorry for dragging you into this."
"Hey you needed to let of steam. Needed to feel something other than what you were feeling. I totally understand. And you weren't half bad. Better than most first timers." Amy blushes and slowly she migrates until her head is on Dinah's sheet covered chest. She can hear her heartbeat and sighs as she remembers listening to Karma's as a child. How could she not see this coming? She was in love with her best friend. Her eyes drifted shut and slowly both girls fell asleep. Unknown to them a phone buzzed on the floor. Screen lighting up but sound silenced. It buzzed again multiple times.
Morning came and Amy blinks as she looks to blonde hair strewn in her face. She stretches and fells an ache. Memories came flooding back and she sighs before pulling the blanket over her head. Her eyes widen as she saw the very naked body next to hers. She knew she had sex but nudity in the light of day was different. "Don't freak out goodness." Dinah's voice is sleep lidden. "We had sex no big deal. We can be friends, have more sex or never see eachother again." Amy swallows. "Just think about it. I can help you when you need it. I don't go to your school."
"F-friends sounds good." Amy's voice is muffled by the blanket.
Dinah yawns and then stretches. "Wait. How old are you?"
"Umm one month from sixteen. You?" Amy bites her lips nervously.
"Seventeen. and almost sixteen isn't to bad. Thought you might've been older. You look older." The blanket falls from Dinah's chest and Amy turns away with a blush, but not before seeing the deep purple mark on Dinah.
"Sorry for y'know." She motions nervously to Dinah's shoulder.
"For biting me?" Her voice is mirthful as she gets up. "Completely fine, I left some on you." She tosses Amy her clothes before turning around and looking in her dresser for something, completely nude.
Amy stutters and gets dressed. Pulling on underwear and jeans. She shifts uncomfortably and presses on the hickey across her hipbone and then one on her stomach. She moves to the mirror and spots one on her shoulder and then her collar bone. "Oh god, my mom is going to damn me. Karma will kill me."
"Your fine, it's just some bite marks. They'll be gone in three days. Cover them up and breathe. Everything is fine." Dinah's voice is straight forward as she gets dressed.
Amy nods slowly before taking her phone out of her pocket. It glares back at her with twenty missed calls. She winces and begins to look through them. She has twenty voicemails. Dinah steps over curiously and listens when Amy throws her a nervous grin.
Missed call #1 Karma 9:15 p.m "Hey goofy answer your phone! I'm coming over, I need to tell you something. It involves Liam. Call me back or answer my next call."
Missed call #2 Karma 9: 30 p.m "Hey you, I talked to your mom, she was surprised you weren't with me. Guess she thought we were getting it on. Anyway call me back asap you goof. I'm heading over to Shane's to see you so answer the door or call me." Amy sighs before closing that message.
Missed Call #3 Karma 9:59 p.m "Hey Shane said you left earlier around 8:30. Where are you? Place A B or C? Call me back Amy please? I'm getting worried now. Please answer or call. Her voice became more worried and frantic.
Missed call #4 Shane. 10:13 p.m "Hey Karma was just here. I didn't say anything about what you told me but can you please answer one of our calls. Karma is worried and I'm starting to be. This isn't some movie where you can vanish for some time and magically appear. Call me back Sapphic goddess." Dinah gave her an incredulous look but Amy shakes her head and clicks the next button.
Missed call #5 Karma. 10:20 p.m "Currently I am at hiding place C. I don't see you yet. MARCO!" There was silence. "Well no Polo. Come on Amy I think I see a raccoon. Where are you? Ohh hey it's a cat. Here kitty kitty." There was a high pitch scream before the sound of feet running. "Not A kitty not a kitty. I was just chased by a raccoon call me back."
Missed Call #6 KArma 10:40 p.m "AMY! Where the hell are you? I looked everywhere. All your hiding spots. Please answer or call me. Your scaring me. Shane is looking for you to after I told him I couldn't find you. Please Amy I need to see you. You need to answer me." Amy felt guilt at her worry.
Missed Call #7 Karma. 10:58 p.m "Dammit Amy answer the damn phone! Where are you? I'm going to your mother next. Please just answer me or text me or tell me something. I am scared Amy. If you're mad at me at least tell me or tell Shane."
Missed call #8 Shane 11:20 p.m "Girl your bf gf is freaking out and I think I might be too. Where are you? If you're mad at her or me just let us know your safe or alive. I'm starting to worry and I think Karma is going to your mom next. I know you think the world hates you. That you mom hates you but hurry back. Call back. Do something."
Missed call #9 Karma 11:22 p.m "I am so sorry for whatever i've done but please Amy you're scaring me. I need to see that you're alright or at least hear your alright. Shane says he isn't having any luck and i'm worried. Amy you need to answer one of us. I know you never turn your phone off so please listen to us."
Missed Call #10 Karma 11:30 p.m "I told your mom I couldn't find you. It's been two hours since I first called you. You need to answer your phone. Everyone is freaking out, please Amy I am so worried. I checked all the highest buildings. The park. I even checked the cemetery because your into that stuff and nothing. Just, just come home okay? Please I am worried."
Missed Call # 11 Mom 11:35 p.m "Amy, I know everything is a mess right now but you need to come home. Shane and Karma both stopped by to ask where you were. You said you were going to Shane's. Where are you? I don't care if you think you aren't welcome in this house, get back here quickly. Your my daughter. I love you."
Missed Call # 12 Shane 11:38 p.m "Karma and I visited your family. Your mom is worried. She keeps talking about acceptance and running away. Even mentioned kidnapping. Please just call back. She said you were a mess when you left and I saw that. Just call, text, do something."
Missed call # 13 Bitch Next Room 11: 40 p.m "I have no idea whats going on through your head but your mom still loves you. Karma is freaking out and their talking about missing persons report. Just get your vagitarian ass home and hurry. Nothing else matters but they want you home."
Missed Call # 14 Karma 11:55 p.m "God Amy please answer. It's been almost three hours since I called you. You always answer my phone. Everyone's worried especially me. You never not answer your phone so please do something. Just let us know your okay. I'm sorry for all of this, if you want i'll break up with you or you can break up with me and tell your mom the truth. Whatever you want. I just want you to feel safe and be safe. You are my best friend please call me."
Missed call # 15 Bitch Next Door 12:10 a.m "Seriously everyone is freaking out. Your curfew was ten minutes ago and now everyone is more worried than before. I over heard Karma mentioning breaking up. I was never going to tell your mom but you need to come home. Or at least call or text. I'm mad you got my crown but that was before you came out to your mom, you're still my sister even if I hate your guts and how you became popular. Just come home."
Missed call # 16 Mom 12: 15 a.m "Please come home Amy, i'm not even mad about you missing curfew. I just want you home. Karma keeps calling to see if you've shown up yet. Shes scouring the town for you and so is your dad. Well step dad but he still cares about you. Come home Amy. I know I upset you but you need to be home. Youre only 15. I'm worried. I love you. Please come home."
Missed call # 17 Karma 12:30 a.m "Amy i've looked everywhere. No one has seen you. I keep calling your mom but she says you aren't in yet. I called Liam, he's driving us around. Please call me back. I love you. Youre scaring me. Shane and Liam dropped me off at the old park we used to go to, so if your here come out please. I've checked everywhere else. Amy just come home. You are always on time. You never miss a call. I'm worried."
Missed call #18 Karma 12: 45 a.m "I'm back at your house. My parents know what's going on. Theyre waiting at my house if you show up. Please come home." Another voice interrupts Karma's. It was her mother. "Amy just come home please. It's getting late you never miss curfew." Karma's voice comes back on. "Just give us a sign Amy, your scaring me. Just, I love you. Your my best friend nothing else matters. Nothing." There was a crash of plates in the background and Amy could picture her mother dropping plates at the sound of Karma saying I love you.
Missed call #19 Karma 1:12 a.m "Shane called, he and Liam haven't found anything and their parents made them go home. They checked everywhere too. Just call me please. My insides are dying and I think I might puke i'm so worried." Amy can hear the forced chuckle of Karma trying to make a joke. "Just call me. Do something Amy. Please. Just please."
Missed call #20 Karma 1:45 a.m "I think your mom drugged me. I drank tea and now i'm woozy. Your step-dad said to quit blowing up your phone." Karma's speech was slurred. "I want to keep calling you but your parents are watching me and I don't think my fingers can dial. I love you, come home." The is the distinct sound of a phone dropping on the floor. She hears a shuffle. "Amy its mom, Karma was working herself into a fit so we gave her something. Just call us back. I know your phone only has so much space but I hope you listen to these messages. I love you, come home."
"You missed curfew?" There is a smirk in Dinah voice.
"Shut up." Amy gets out with a frantic expression. "My mom is crazy sometimes. When I was a kid she was worried everyone would kidnap me. I didn't leave her side until I was seven. And I always answer the phone. Shit. Fuck I need to call them." Her fingers press into her phone before it dies. "Damn it I need to see them."
"Slow down tiger. Let me drive you home before you go running out of here. Take a shower and get dress. You look like you just had sex and i'm sure everyone would freak out if they saw you like this. Breath thirty minutes won't kill them. It's only ten in the morning on a Saturday." Dinah's voice calms Amy somewhat before she does as she's told, forgetting about her phone momentarily. Dinah sighs and five minutes later Amy steps out hair dripping and towel wrapped around her. Dinah smirks and grabs a sweatshirt and tosses it at Amy. "It's clean and doesn't smell like sweat or sex. There are some jeans over there you can borrow." Amy nods and leaves to the bathroom. She steps out minutes later and Dinah grins as she walks Amy down the stairs and to her car. "Just give me directions and I'll get you there reasonable."
"Thank you." Amy looks at Dinah through her lashes. "For everything."
Dinah softens her grin. "No problem. If you ever need someone not involved in your crazy life call my up. I'll do whatever I can to help. Talking. Dinner. Sex. Ranting."
Amy blushes deeply and nods her head before they pull onto her road. Dinah stops in the driveway. She pulls Amy into a kiss. "Remember that, it'll remind you of everything. Don't regret anything. It was amazing. Good luck with your bf gf and parents. Call me anytime, my numbers in the shirt I lent you."
"Thanks again. I'll see you later. I go to Hester if we ever cross paths."
Dinah grins. "Graduated already, few grades ahead." She winks at Amy and pulls out of the driveway. Amy finally sees the curtain move, thankful that no one saw Dinah kiss her. She buries her hands into the jeans pocket's and opens her door. Her mom pulls her into a hug.
"Where were you? you are so grounded! I love you but you are ten hours late." She eyes her daughter. "In different clothing."
"I stayed at a friends house, my phone was on silent and we fell asleep. I spilt my coffee this morning and took a shower." Amy adverts her eyes, not wanting to see her mothers questioning gaze.
"Im glad your home because you are grounded beyond grounded!" Feet trip down the stair and she catches sight of Karma before there is a vice like grip around her middle and a face pressed into her neck. She flashes as she remembers the last person there.
"God Amy I am so pissed at you!" Karma pulls back and her fingers close around Amy's cheeks. "Do you know how many times I called you? Do you know how worried I was?"
"Yeah you were pretty worried around eight last night." Amy's voice is harsh and her mother looks to the two of them. Her eyes dart between them sensing an argument.
"I didn't see you at eight last night. I was hanging out with Liam. You were with Shane! I don't care what you think, I was worried! I thought you ran away or was dead. Or kidnapped! You scared me half to death and an-." Karma's lips tremble and Amy sighs as she pulls her into a hug.
"My phone was on silent. I'm sorry okay? I'm sorry you were worried. I just needed to get away from everything." Neither girl noticed Amy's mom watching and listening to them. "I thought I was going to explode. I just needed to get out. I needed to breathe."
"I thought something bad had happened Amy. Not knowing if you were okay scared me so much." Karma's hands clench around Amy's borrowed sweater. As if realizing Amy was okay and she was in odd clothes Karma tilted her head. "Whose is this?"
"A friend." Karma raised her eyebrows and Amy rolled her eyes. "Dinah. I went over there last night."
"Who the hell is Dinah?" Karma's voice is confused.
"A friend." Amy moves to the stairs. "I'm going to plug my phone in, it died. Am I still grounded or is Karma staying?"
Farrah looks at the two girls. "She can stay for another thirty minutes but then she goes home. You're grounded for missing curfew and not calling."
The girls walk up the stair and Lauren spots them. "About time you're home."
"Fuck off bottle blonde." Karma's voice is harsh as she pulls Amy to her room. Amy turns and watches as Lauren sighs and nods at her. Amy nods back. They sit on Amy's bed, the door shut. "Where were you?"
"At a friends house. Dinah." She can see the question forming in Karma's eyes. "So what happened with you and Liam?"
Karma sighed. "He made another move on me, said he was happy to be having sex with a lesbian. So before he could get my shirt off I left, told him I couldn't. All he wants is to have sex with a lesbian. It's so annoying. I want him to want me not fake me." Karma sighs and falls into Amy's shoulder. Her eyes furrow and she pulls at the sweater. "What did you do?"
Amy jumps away and pulls the shirt back over her hickey. "Nothing."
"You totally made out with someone. Who? This Dinah person?" Karma's voice was different. It made Amy confused yet happy.
"Nobody okay. Just some random in a club" Amy shrugs and sits back down on the bed.
"Okay okay. But that is so going to show at school on Monday." Karma's grin is teasing. "They'll think we're having amazing sex." Amy laughs but also blushes before shoving on Karma's shoulder. Karma laughs. "Oh god. My parents. If they see that they will go on and on about sexual energy."
Amy laughs weakly. "My mom would most likely drop me off at some gay camp." Amy stops laughing then sighs lowly as she slumps into Karma's shoulders. Outside Amy's door her mom freezes. She had heard Karma mention her parents and energy. Her heart had stopped at Amy's words. Is that what Amy really thought of her? That she would send her daughter there?
"She loves you Amy. She wouldn't send you there." Amy scoffs. "And if she did I'd come and bail you out. We're in this together. We're in everything together."
Amy nods slowly. "Yeah. Karma?" Karma hums as she looks at her. "Do you think everything will be alright?"
Karma claps her hands and the lights shut off. "Everything will work out. And i'll be there like I was with the dark. I'll find another way. Find the stars." Karma hugs Amy tightly.
"I'm not anxious this time Kar. I'm scared." Her lips tremble and Karma pulls her into a tight hug. Rocking Amy slightly, quietly.
Outside the door Farrah could hear her daughter's words. She remembers the dark and Karma finding the solution with stars when no one else could, not even Amy's father. She was the only one to even think of a solution. She remembers watching them grow up and tears fill her eyes at listening to her daughter admit she was scared. Lauren's eyes connected with her tear filled ones. Lauren averts her gaze before walking forward and holding out her hand. The two walked downstairs. "I scare my own daughter."
Lauren looks at her step-mother. "No. She's scared of the world. Scared of the people. Scared of your opinion not of you. She loves you."