Disclaimer:No...any possible OCs that might pop up I do own though...

*For those of you who haven't guessed...Leo is my favorite turtle, soooo unfortunately he has to deal with whatever my brain conjures up..."Sorry Leo"...."Whatever"*

Chapter 1: Enough

Leo's POV...

I close the door to my room and slowly slide to the floor, sobs tear lose from my chest. I stuff my fist into my mouth to quiet my sobs...Over the last week I've been struggling to hold myself together, I got up Monday like normal, but Master Splinter never came to join me for morning Meditation...I-I went to check on him....found him still in bed...cold...I-I screamed...my brothers were there in an instant. I never got a chance to mourn him other than that scream...it was my duty to take care of my brothers...

I stumble to my feet and walk to to my bed, I pull the quilt that's there over me. Master Splinter made us all quilts last year...each a reflection of ourselves. My is multiple shades of Blue with patches of black, with the acctuall quilting stiches resembling waves or water. I don't know for sure how but the black patches all contain japanese caligraphy. Master Splinter put that in the black patches...letters of love and encouragement for all of us. I run my hands across the symbols taking comfort in the words there. Fighting the pain from the fight I was just in...its normal for Raph and I to fight but...they all...they....they attacked me...Raph...he accused me of doing something to Master Splinter's tea the night before he died....at first I just shrugged it off...he had just lost his father, he was upset...but when Mikey and Donnie started avoiding me...I would go in at night to comfort Mikey from his nightmares...he would push me away and go to Raph....I would come into Don's lab...trying to get him to eat something...he wouldn't touch the food I brought him...I-I began to wonder if I had...if I had put the wrong herb in his tea...did I kill my own father? The words from the fight today left me sobbing again as the rang through my head...

Traitor! Go away! Just die! and more....worse words...

I stumble to my feet and grab a bag...I can't stay here...I can't be in this house...I begin putting things in the bag, my journal, some candles, insense...I roll the quilt up carefully and tie it to the bottom of the bag and put one of my pillows with it. I stumble down stairs after making sure my brothers are asleep and head for the kitchen...I pull out bags of my tea and a few of Master Splinter's favorite mixes, they smell like him...fresh tears stream down my cheeks as I try to focus...I put the tea bags in a plastic bag and put them in my bag, I open the cubard and sob...I reach forward and touch Master Splinter's favorite tea cup...sobs rack me...did I kill my father? I sob and grab my favorite cup and wrap it in newspaper and put it in my bag. I turn to go and stop looking at my brothers' rooms...it doesn't feel right to just leave....I pick up a piece of paper and scrible a note and leave it on the counter...they'll find it...as I pass the fridge and spot the last family picture we all took...April and Casey are there too...I take it and press my fingers to it lightly...tears roll down my cheeks and I choke-down a sob...I put it into my belt...I want it...its all I have left of that happy time...I stumble toward the door and walk out giving the lair one last pain filled look.

I think back to Master Splinter's funeral:

FLASHBACK**

We are standing together. I place Master Splinter's walking stick into the place where a headstone would be. I reach forward and pull Mikey's shaking frame close, needing the comfort as much as he does, he pulls away and clings to Don...I struggle to hold back confused tears as I kneel by the grave of my father.

"Won't even cry for him," I hear Raph mutter...

END FLASHBACK**

I don't know how long I wander the sewers...but I find myself staring down into the pipes and water below, tears rolling down my cheeks, sobs wracking my frame. I grip the railing.

"Leo!" I hear and turn. Raph is standing at the edge of the catwalk, Mikey and Donnie behind him.

"Leo!" cried Mikey. I turn, grip the rail and jump over it, I'm not going back there...

"LEOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!" I hear them scream before I hit a pipe and darkness claims me.

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