* this Has been spinning in my head for a while,I haven't forgotten about When sparks Fly but I just had to write this down..I hope you enjoy
June 13th 2009
***Flashback ***
"Nicole what is all of this?"
John walked into their bedroom to the sight of Nikki in the middle of what looked like the entire contents of her closest packing it into boxes and suitcases. When she didn't respond he stormed over and stood in front of her.
"Nicole I asked you a question"
She stood up from the box she was packing and looked John in the eye before speaking.
*sigh * " I'm finished John"
I'm breakin' down
Gonna start from scratch
Shake it off like an etch-a-sketch
My lips are saying goodbye
My eyes are finally dry
John's face contorted in confusion wondering what it was that Nicole meant.
"What do you mean finished?"
The sound of a truck horn interrupted the couple's conversation. Instead of answering she headed outside to the awaiting moving truck with a frustrated John hot on her heels. She showed the moving men where to go before turning and acknowledging John once again.
"I Can't do this anymore John, I WANT MARRIAGE AND KIDS and I'm not getting that with you….I think this is for the best"
"Nicole ,please we can make this work, what about everything I've done for you….I love you that should be enough "
"Is that all I am to you. . . some little trophy you can parade around for your little sorry ass meat headed gym monkey friends Huh? you think you can buy my ignorance ,that some fancy cars or vacations can make me give up my dream of marriage a family. . . . Well I'm Done being your toy.
I'm not the way that I used to be
I took the record off repeat
It killed me but I survived
And now I'm coming alive
John Paced the room in anger WHY was she doing this they'd been together for five years. Five wonderful years she'd told him that she didn't need any of that to be happy and now here she was giving him an John started to laugh and it was Nikki's turn to look confused
"I get it I really get it...this is just another one of your little scheme's to get me to marry you. Well guess what ….the last one didn't work, this one won't work and the next one won't work either so just get put all your stuff back and I'll take you shopping."
Nikki's jaw dropped, she couldn't believe the words that she was hearing. This was not the John that she'd known since high school this man was a stranger. She grabbed her purse and quickly left the room needing some distance before she said or did something that she would had made it halfway down the stairs when she felt a tug on her arm before she was suddenly spun around and slammed against the wall. She shoved him away and before she knew it she punched him and continued down the stairs and headed out to her car.
I broke the glass surrounding me (surrounding me)
I ain't the way you remember me (remember me)
I was such a good girl
So fragile but no more
She had just opened her door when she heard his voice again.
"Why can't you just be happy? , why do you need a piece of paper ?THAT'S ALL IT IS A STUPID PIECE OF PAPER!
Nikki turned towards his voice , taking note that he was smart enough to keep a good 'd removed his shirt and was using it to stop his nose from bleeding. She shook her head and chuckled at the sight. He wasn't even aware that with every foolish comment he was helping her get over him. She set her purse on the passenger seat before she spoke.
"Jonathan ,you and I both know you don't want ME happy , I had to practically BEG you to even let me move in just want someone to control , I'm not what you want and you're not what I need …..I've said it a million times I want more John …..and you won't give me that so….I guess this is Goodbye"
I jumped the fence to the other side (the other side)
My whole world was electrified (electrified)
Now I'm no longer afraid
It's Independence Day (Independence Day)
With that Nikki Got in the car and Started the engine. Her relationship with John was destined to fail they wanted two different things .No matter how much she loved him she knew she had to put herself first. Putting the car in reverse she pulled out of the driveway and drove away from that chapter in her life.
I'll never be that girl again
No oh oh
I'll never be that girl again
No oh oh
My innocence is wearin' thin
But my heart is growing strong
So call me, call me, call me
…..Miss movin' on
***Song is 'Miss Moving On' by Fifth Harmony I own Nothing***
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