Drew let his eyes fall shut as he sucked in a long, slow breath. His mind was racing, and he could feel the blood rushing to his cheeks as his heart fluttered. God, he was so nervous. He had never done this before, and he couldn't tell why he was so excited. It was scaring him to death.

"I don't know about this," he said, quietly, too afraid to speak any louder. There wasn't much chance of getting caught, but just being there was enough of a risk. He didn't want to push it by making too much noise.

He felt the hair on the back of his neck stand on end as gentle fingers ran along his collarbone. The other hand was resting on his shoulder, its fingers curled firmly around the object that was making Drew's stomach twist with anticipation and fear. The string of faux leather grazing his back was cold and lifeless for now.

"Shh," the voice answering him was barely a whisper. Drew opened his eyes, getting a glimpse of the face before him, then shut his eyes quickly. He couldn't look at that face, even if it was too dark to really see.

"Just relax," the voice continued. Before Drew could say anything, he felt soft, eager lips on his own, and he gave into the kiss.

x

Drew was clutching the phone so hard he thought it would break in his hand. He drummed his fingers on the table, as if doing so would change Alli's mind. No such luck.

"Don't you dare call me," Alli growled on the other end. "Ever again. You're disgusting."

Drew sighed as he heard the line go dead. This wasn't the first time he'd tried to win Alli back after she transferred out of Degrassi, but it would have to be the last. She wouldn't budge.

"Sounds like that went well," Drew looked up from the table to see Adam walking into the kitchen. Drew made a face at his dry comment as Adam looked through the refrigerator.

"Alli won't give me another chance," he said. He ran his fingers through his hair. Adam took a carton of juice out of the fridge, followed by a glass from the cabinet next to it, then made his way over to the table to join Drew.

"Sorry, bro, but you don't deserve one," Adam replied, glancing at Drew, disappointment in his eyes. He poured himself some juice, and Drew sighed once more.

"Guess you're right," he concluded. He didn't just guess, though; he definitely knew Adam was right. He fooled around with another girl when he was dating Alli. He put his sexual desire before Alli's feelings, and that was beyond wrong. He was a shitty boyfriend, taking advantage of his perfect girlfriend. He didn't deserve any kind of second chance. God, this was depressing. He wished there was a way to get his mind off of the whole situation.

Suddenly, he perked up. "Hey, Adam, wanna go see a movie?" he offered, flashing his brother a bright smile. "It'll help keep my mind off of Alli. And maybe we could, you know, find you a girlfriend or something?"

Adam smiled a little.

"As much as I'd love to have girls ask for my number just so they can call you," he replied, getting up to put the juice away. "I'll have to pass. Eli and I are going to the book store today. He's picking me up in a few minutes."

"Ew," Drew said, jokingly. "I was going to ask if I could come along, but there's not much you could do to get me to go to a book store."

Adam laughed, and the doorbell rang.

"Shit," Adam swore, fixing his hair. "I'm not ready! I have to find my shoes." He looked over at Drew, still sitting at the table, looking disheveled. God, his situation with Alli must've been pretty emotionally exhausting.

"Drew, could you get the door?" he asked. Drew shrugged and stood up, making his way out of the kitchen as Adam ran to find his shoes. Drew unlocked the door and swung it open, his eyes met with Eli's black-clad figure.

"Hey, Drew greeted Eli, moving out of the way so he could come in. After he shut the door, Drew found himself faced with an awkward moment alone with his brother's friend. Adam was still finding his shoes, so Drew had no choice but to stand there, hands in his pockets, a few feet away from a guy he barely knew.

"You know, this is the first time I've ever seen you without your hair all styled," Eli said, smirking, totally breaking the silence. That caught Drew off-guard. He remembered how much he'd been running his hands through his hair just a few minutes ago when he was on the phone with Alli. Stress wasn't pretty.

"Yeah, I guess I can't be totally gorgeous all the time," Drew joked back, making conversation. He and Eli had talked a few times before, but Adam was always there with him, whether it was on the way to the movies or carpooling to school. It was sort of weird, just the two of them.

"So what happened? Cat got your hair gel?" Eli still had that smirk on his face. Drew couldn't help but notice how crooked his mouth was. It was interesting.

"To be honest, I've been kinda stressed today, actually." He smiled sadly. "I'm sorta trying to win back a girl I totally screwed up with. I've pretty much been pulling my hair out." He tugged on his messy hair for emphasis. Eli smiled sadly back.

"Sucks," he replied. Both boys turned to face Adam as he approached.

"Ready?" he asked Eli, who nodded in return.

"Bye Drew," Adam said on his way out the door. Eli, looked back at Drew as he followed Adam.

"Hey, if you need to talk, you could get my number from Adam," he said. Drew's eyebrows rose. He wasn't expecting that.

"Oh, um, sure, thanks," he said, and Eli smiled, closing the door behind him.

x

Drew let himself be pushed back, leaning into the pillows behind him. The kiss wasn't broken until he was on his back.

"I know you're nervous," breathed the voice of the shadowy figure hovering over him. He felt those same smooth fingers push his shirt up. He helped out by pulling it off.

"But you shouldn't be," the voice continued. A feather-light kiss was planted on Drew's lips. "You will love this. All of this."

Drew wanted to shut his eyes again, but the pair of eyes staring back at him were almost hypnotic. As scared as he was, he couldn't help but watch as those shining eyes looked him up and down, drinking in the sight of his near-trembling body.