Title: She Used To
Author: Kayla
Character/Pairing: Dick, Veronica
Word Count: Around 500 (Yeah, it's short, but give it a chance)
Rating: R (for language)
Summary: AU. Dick thinks about Veronica after Lilly's death.
Spoilers/Warnings: This is way AU. First off, it wasn't the fab 4…it was the wicked 6 (haha)…sort of. Dick, Madison, Lilly, Veronica, Logan, and Duncan. Secondly, during Shelly's party, Dick didn't really do anything to Veronica. So no, he didn't take her into the guestroom or get her to make out with Shelly. I know these are big changes…sorry. Takes place shortly after Shelly's party, but still during sophomore year.
Authors Note: I snagged the last line from Fight Club. I have no clue why. I just felt like it. It may seem out of place. Dick may seem OCC, but I tried to tell you why…hopefully that worked. This is unbeta'd so all mistakes are mine.
She used to be innocent. He thinks she still is. Forget what the other people are saying. The shit Logan's saying. The shit he's saying. It's just shit. She doesn't fuck the football team on Fridays after she strips at the Seventh Veil. He knows that, but he says otherwise.
She used to draw his name next to Madison's in her pink sparkly pen. They talked and yeah, Veronica Mars was cool. He'd never say that out loud though, it would seriously fuck with his rep.
She used to smile at him. Now she stares into space. He really wants to see her smile, not grin, or smirk, or be sarcastic. Just smile, like the Veronica Mars he knew did all the time. But he doesn't know Veronica Mars anymore and it's his fault.
She used to date Duncan. Duncan doesn't talk to her anymore and he thinks she's finally accepted that. He hasn't. He wants it back to the way it used to be. Dick and Madison. Logan and Lilly. Veronica and Duncan. But it won't because Lilly's gone and Veronica is too. She died with Lilly. Now, all he sees when he looks at Veronica is a hardass blonde with short hair and biker boots. And he hates it.
She used to tell Lilly they were the wicked six. He liked the sound of that. He wants to tell Logan that this feud that have going with her is lame. That Lilly wouldn't want this. But Lilly's gone. Like, really gone. And it's just him and Logan now. Madison dumped his ass, Duncan is a shell of nothing, and Veronica has been outcasted. Life sucks and he has to act like he's some dumb blonde surfer just to keep friends.
She used to tell him things. Not like deep meaningful secrets, but little things. Like her dog got sick the night before, or her mom was acting really weird. Or how Logan thinks her hair is too long. Shit like that. He liked their talks in fourth period Study hall. Now, he sits on the other side on the room and pretends not to look at her.
She used to have friends. Lots of them, himself included. If someone saw Veronica in the hall, people were always near by. Now, he sees her and she's alone. If he looks closer, past the 'Fuck Off' written on her forehead, he sees she's broken. Probably in the same places he is. But that matters about as much as what class he has to go to next. He may be broken, but no one gives a shit. Because he acts like he doesn't have a care in the world. But he does. He cares about Veronica. He cares about what her dumbass dog did the night before.
This is his life and it's ending one minute at a time.