Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Torchwood characters. Nor do I own the lyrics to the song.
The lyrics are from Endlessly by Muse. They are one of my favourite bands and I think this song is really sweet. This is my first songfic, so I hope it's alright. Don't me too hard on me, if you review. :)
Please enjoy, and try not to sob too much.
Endlessly - A Janto Songfic
There's part of me
You'll never know
The only thing
I'll never show
The Year That Never Was. I could never tell Ianto. The truth would cause so much pain and anguish for him. It caused me so much pain. I could never put him through it. I'd never wish the memories upon anyone. Least of all the man I love.
Hopelessly, I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly, I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up.
I won't let you down
I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes
I've loved so many. All their lives were so fleeting. Moments of love would always go so quickly. Time goes so fast when you are immortal.
Ianto wasn't the first, but the love I felt for him when we first met was so strong. It still is so strong.
It's plain to see,
It's trying to speak
Cherished dreams
Forever asleep.
Ianto was always there when I woke up screaming and crying. The memories of that year haunted me for so long. Only Ianto's love and comfort helped me bury them. I knew they would return when I next close my eyes. Knowing Ianto was there was the only reason I slept for such a long time.
He never asked any questions about it. He'd merely accept it.
Ianto was always there for me.
Hopelessly, I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly, I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes.
I'll never forget the smile and the way he blushed when I asked him to marry me. It was only a quiet ceremony, but was all we wanted. Owen, Gwen, Rhys, Toshiko and even Ianto's sister and Tad made it. They were all so pleased to see Ianto so happy. I remember Gwen had gone around taking as many pictures as possible. I only have a few of them left now.
And so we made our vows, Ianto promising to spend the rest of his life with me.
If only I could have spent the rest of my life with him. I would have pledged my life to him if I could.
Hopelessly, I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly, I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
I won't leave you falling
But the moment never comes.
The moment never did come. Ianto always knew that Torchwood employees died young. He was only 32. We'd only been married 5 years.
It was never enough time. We deserved longer. Ianto deserved longer.
As I look down at my lover's ancient grave, I finger the gold band on my hand and smile. I smile for all the wonderful times we had together.
I smile because Ianto Jones is still in my heart and although I learnt to love again, he will always be in my heart.
I love you, Yan.