Hey guys. This is just a little drabble area for me to write down the random ideas that pop into my head. Each chapter will have a different rating ranging from K-M so I'll let you know what each one is. This one is from Saiyuki and contains hinted Sanzo x Hakkai, or 38.

Rated-T

Warnings-Implied Yaoi, minor spoilers, language

Disclaimer-I do not own Saiyuki

Sanzo wasn't sure why he hadn't ditched them yet. The group was nothing but pure annoyance. Gojyo constantly pissed him off with his cocky attitude, Goku always whined about food, and Hakkai…well actually…there wasn't anything really wrong with Hakkai.

"I'm hungry," Goku whined, his voice breaking Sanzo's thoughts.

"Shut up you stupid monkey!" Sanzo growled, whapping the smallish boy in the head with his fan.

"You got what you deserved, monkey," Gojyo snickered.

"Shut your trap, cockroach!"

"Now, now you two. If you continue, Sanzo might pop a blood vessel," Hakkai said, tone as light as ever as he drove them through the hot and muggy forest.

"How much longer?" Sanzo asked quietly.

"About another hour. I hope the rain will hold out until then."

"Damn rain."

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"Are you sure you don't want anything to eat?" Hakkai asked softly.

He was bunking with Sanzo that night but ever since the rain had begun, Sanzo had been silent, narrowing the already slim chance of them ever talking to zero. Hakkai shut the door, moving to stand behind Sanzo, gazing out the rain splattered window over his shoulder.

"I'm sure."

Hakkai didn't move, sensing uncertainty in Sanzo's words, though he knew it wasn't food he was unsure about. It was something else.

"What's wrong?" Hakkai asked quietly.

He wasn't expecting an answer. He knew Sanzo hated admitting that he was indeed human and therefore had emotions. So when Sanzo spoke, he was surprised.

"I can't decide if I want you to go or stay."

It was said so softly, Hakkai almost missed it. "I'll stay. If you don't mind."

Sanzo nodded.

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After that, things changed. There was something between the two of them and Sanzo couldn't identify what it was. To be honest, it scared him. He took comfort knowing that he wouldn't have to confront it until the next rain though he was angry that he was so afraid.

Hakkai noticed the turmoil Sanzo was going through due to the simple fact that he never took his fan out to hit Goku or Gojyo. He was too deep in thought. It made him wonder if maybe he was thinking about the other night when he had stayed with Sanzo as it had rained, silent as the rain splattered against the windows.

I'll talk to him at the next inn, Hakkai thought.

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"Damn rain," Sanzo muttered angrily as he stared out the window.

Almost directly after they had reached the inn, a downpour had started, drenching everything in sight. So of course, he retreated to his room to brood in silence. Hopefully he wouldn't have to talk to Hakkai because they all had separate rooms this time.

"Sanzo, can I come in?" Hakkai's muffled voice asked.

"Fine."

Can't fight it, Sanzo thought as the door opened.

Hakkai moved to stand directly behind Sanzo, feeling the undeniable urge to reach out and hold Sanzo. Of course he resisted, not wanting to scare the already on edge man.

"Something is bothering you," Hakkai stated. "It has to do with me, doesn't it?"

Sanzo didn't respond, silently cursing Hakkai's accuracy at guessing his thoughts. "Yes."

"So talk to me about it," Hakkai continued. "I know you don't like admitting you actually have feelings but…it would help."

"I want you around more," Sanzo said, the words escaping before he could stop them. "I was thinking, the other day. Why didn't I just ditch you guys because Gojyo is annoying and Goku whines but there was absolutely no flaw about you."

Hakkai was surprised at the sudden words pouring out of Sanzo's mouth. It was very un-Sanzo.

"Sanzo. There are plenty of flaws about me. I slaughtered millions of youkai and let my lover kill herself before my very eyes. I'm unable to fall in love. I-"

Sanzo turned around, violet eyes locking with green. "Hakkai…I don't trust anyone to touch me. You know that. But…can you hold me?"

Hakkai's eyes widened in shock. Then he held his arms out, letting Sanzo step into them before he enveloped the priest in a warm embrace. Sanzo leaned into him, sighing. Why had he resisted this for so long? Why had he resisted this simple human contact for his entire life? He knew there was a reason, somewhere deep in his mind, but he couldn't bring himself to care about it.

The only sound in the room was the sound of rain lashing against the building and the occasional rumble of thunder. After several minutes, Sanzo's arms moved from his sides to wrap around Hakkai's lower back.

"I trust you," Sanzo said quietly.

"I'm glad. You need this every once in a while," Hakkai said, smiling gently even though Sanzo couldn't see it.

Sanzo moved closer, closing the gap between their bodies and resting his head gratefully on Hakkai's shoulder, breathing against his neck. Hakkai moved his hands up and down Sanzo's back soothingly, offering him as much comfort as he could.

There was something there. Something that was blossoming between them and Hakkai knew very well what it was. But he knew better than to bring it up. He knew Sanzo could feel it too. So for now, he would hold Sanzo. He would hold him and comfort him as the rain continued its steady rhythm around them.