Fleeting Moment

Red. Blue. Yellow. Purple. Red. The colors of the fire are infinite. They're growing and winning. Even with calling upon the powers of my ancestors, I know that something fated is sealed. It cannot be changed. After all, we are only human. Grams taught me that.

And even though I know this, I still keep trying. The flames intensify. When I feel its heat start to peel back my skin, threatening to whip through my flesh, I start to let the idea in.

I am going to die. Dying. Dead. Up in flames.

Up until I felt the first flicker of heat touch my body, I had been able to ignore the sticky thickness in the air, the smoke.

I moved back a few more paces until I hit the wall behind me. Sliding to the ground, I pull my knees into my chest, realizing just how wounded I really am. One broken rib, maybe two? I guess this is my karma, my punishment for lying to Elena and almost killing two …half-dead souls in the process. In a way, I deserved this.

It's said that when you're about to die, when you're on the brink of death, your past flashes before your eyes. That doesn't happen.

My future flashed before me. I saw all the things that I would never get to do—go to college, fall in love, reunitewith Elena—I closed my eyes and shut the images out and hung my head in silent prayer. Now was the time to pray, beg for a swift death and for an eternity of—the thought leaves me.

Just as the sobs started and I could feel my breathing grow fainter and weaker, the scene before me was whisked away and I could see the sky, the grass. I could breathe again. I was… outside?

I am pulled back from the reality of an excruciating death to … a scene that looks mostly familiar. Behind the veil of my uneven bangs, I raise my head to see whose arms were cupping my body.

Vampire.

No, worse.

Damon.

My immediate reaction is to set him afire with my mind, but I am much to spent and … he saved me. I eye Damon curiously, who moves as though I weight no more than a newborn. In a few seconds he looks at me, his eyes implacable, glued to mine.

… And his body flowing along the ground as though he were flying.

It felt like he was carrying me for an eternity before he asked,"Are you okay?"

I looked for a bit of sarcasm, cynicism, sexual undertones … anything that would make me hate him. There is none.

I opened my mouth, and then closed it, knowing that I had lost the ability to make any sort of sound. I was dumbfounded that the vampire that had once tried to kill me, that I had hoped would be staked, was the one who had saved me. It was a little sickening.

I lowered my eyes, ashamed of the thoughts that are bubbling through my mind. Damon places me on my feet and when I stumble, he's there.

When I don't react, he moved in closer to me and starts touching my body, no … searching. He's looking for something.

"You're hurt?" Damon wondered, brushing my hair back to get a good look at my face. He notes the broken rids, the bruises on my back, unaware of the real reason that my knees buckle. I try not to look at Damon and wait for him to say something, anything to stop the niceness.

I needed to hate him again.

"You have a cut…" He continue, placing his hands on either side of my face and then brushing away my bands. It just feels so good. Cool hands, smooth skin.

As I am thinking all kinds of inappropriate things, Damon seems to move even closer. By now his lips are just so close…

Even if I stayed put, if I just moved my tongue out there a little … it would touch his mouth. Even if I just decided to lick my lips…

I'm staring at him wondering if I've given myself away. Does he know what I'm thinking? How I really feel about him?

Is it that I've been hiding all of my feelings for him behind the mask of hate? I don't care.

As if he could predict everything I was going to do, Damon's mouth cupped mine, our tongues meeting instantly. I had never felt anything that powerful in my life. The coolness of his skin against mine, and the feel of his hands grazing the sides of my face.

I hold me closer to me. Please don't go.

If Damon is surprised, he doesn't show it at all. But he does hold me carefully. We embrace so long that I can barely breathe. I curse my humanness. Don't let go.

I am greedy. Regretfully, I pause for a moment and then rub his lips with mine. Softly.

Damon seems to be daring me to do it again, his left hand sliding down the side of my body and stopping where my waist meets my hips.

His hand rests comfortably over my skin, my shirt no longer separating us. Beyond amazing.

All of the repressed feelings that I'd had for him came to her surface and I felt that somehow my life had been renewed. I look down again with a small smile and Damon lifts my chin, forcing me to look at him. Kiss me again.

He does. And it is even more powerful than before. Don't hold back.

"Bonnie!" A distant voice yelled out. It'd been going on for a while … just long enough to tear Damon apart from me, just long enough for him to disappear into the shadows. "Bonnie!" Elena.

"Elena?" I turn slightly, not wanting to leave that memory with Damon behind. But he's gone. "What are you doing here?" I asked, surprised.

"I'm so glad you're okay." She tugged onto me so tightly that I couldn't even move. "Thank God you're not dead."

"Yeah. Thank God." I repeated slowly, wondering if he was still out there … watching. I thought that I could feel him, but I wasn't quite sure. Are you there?

Elena wraps her hand around me and helps me walk back to her car. Stefan is waiting. Damon is still watching. I hope.

As we drive further and further away I know that it's over. It was just a moment of stupidity. It can't last.

I've never felt anything like that before and it runs through my mind. Elena tries to strike up a conversation, but my mind is focused on Damon. I secretly wish that she had never found me. That moment was cut down, make too short. Fleeting.

I didn't get a chance to see … to try … to say … I may love him. Damn.

(A/N: My first and maybe only Bonnie-Damon pairing. Hope you liked it. Review. I'm continuing this in another story Boys with Girlfriends but I've only gotten to the 2nd chapter. Let me know what you think! Luv. -NL)