This is a songfic of the song Already Gone by Kelly Clarckson so all rights of the song go to her. This is set after when Dimitri says those four words "love fades... mine has" and Rose ran out of the Chapel. This is my first fanfic ever so please tell me what you think. I also am thinking about continuing it but i wont if you guys hate it so let me know if you think i should. I might not though with school and all but ill think about it. So please tell me!
Disclaimer: sadly very sadly all right to the characters go to Richelle Mead even the rights to Dimitri. I really wish i owned him. =(
RPOV
I run to my room and grab the video. I walk to his door and slide it under it. Then I walk to my plane with tears running down my face but I know that I can't look back because if I do I will never leave and I need to… for me.
DPOV
I walk back to my room I think of Rose face when I told her four words that broke her heart and mine. I love her but I know she can't really love me, not after what I did to her in Russia. I open my door and find a disk lying on the floor scribbled across the top says TO: COMRADE. I instantly know it's from Rose. I pick up the disk and put it into the computer. The first thing I see is Rose she crying or she was you can tell her face is covered in tears. "Comrade this may explain some things First I'm leaving court I just can't take it anymore its killing me inside just being here. Secondly I need you to tell Lissa I just can't do it that's something I ask of you and lastly I have a song I would like to sing to you and only you." I start to hear the music play, I never knew Rose could sing.
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die…
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop…
I can't believe this I broke her I can just tell she's crying while she's singing her voice is full of so many emotions one is love but it's mostly full of hurt.
I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
She left because she loves me and I can't believe she wants me to move on I could never do that she holds my heart whether she wants it or not.
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go
I feel tears start to build up as she sings this song just breaks my heart. Her words hold feelings I did not want to give her. She loves me enough to let me go I wonder if she loves me too much.
I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
I feel the first tear of many slides down my cheek. I regret telling her those four evil words if I could take them back I would but I need to stick true to my decision.
Ah already gone, already gone, already gone
Ah already gone, already gone, already gone
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye…
I wish we were never meant to say goodbye I didn't use to think we were I might have been wrong.
I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on,
So I'm already gone
The song ends and the music fade more silent tears are running down my face. After hearing that I know she has truly forgiven me and loves me but I was too stupid to see it. Just before I close the window she says something "Comrade I sang that song because I love you and even though your love has faded" that made me wince I can hear the pain clear in her voice "I still love you I always will, but I didn't want to bother you and I need time to be on my own I left court everything. Lissa will need a guardian and I hope she gets a good one but please look over her for me" She left, she truly left. I wish I could tell her I love her. She doesn't say anything for a few seconds then she says more heat breaking words, "Dimitri I want you to know you hold my heart, I just hope you find someone to hold yours" Many tears run down my face she doesn't know that she holds my heart and she always will. Just before the screen goes black I hear her softly say "my love will never fade" that has me break down in to full sobs it was worse hearing her say those things then any nightmare I have ever had. I walk away from the screen I hear the noise of a plane engine flying in the distance I break down crying once more because I know that the love of my life is on one of those planes.