Demi's POV

"Demi I can't do this anymore." she yelled with tears rolling down her face.

I felt like crap knowing I caused her this much pain, I never meant to.

"Sel, please, I'm sorry, I don't know what else to say!" I felt the lump in my throat, my eyes blurred and she just stood there wiping the tears from her face.

It was only about a year ago, that her tears were tears of joy. We were at the park under one of the many trees that we had claimed ours. It was hidden, away from anyone or anything. I was leaning against the trunk of the tree watching her, while she was doing cartwheels back and forth. Her shirt would rest above her belly button each time and the sun hit against her bare skin perfectly. Our friendship was just that, a friendship, but I always knew that I wanted something more. I couldn't help but giggle, seeing her so genuinely happy made everything feel right.

"What?" she said standing up and acknowledging my giggle.

"Nothing." I said with a slight smile.

"Dem, you don't just giggle to giggle. Tell me what's on your mind." she sat down next to me and soon I caught her playing with some loose threads on my shorts.

"Can't we just leave it at nothing?" I winced looking at her.

"No." she said and I swear, in that moment she had read my mind or something because it only took a few seconds before I felt her lips softly against mine. I could tell she was hesitating at first but once I placed my right hand on her cheek, she gained the confidence to continue. The kiss wasn't lustful or sexual. It was loving and sweet.

I was first to pull away. Not because I wasn't enjoying it, but because I was surprised. "Where did that come from?"

"I'm sorry. I thought that was what you wanted." I could tell she was just as confused as I was.

"Well..I mean...was it what you wanted?" I asked in curiosity.

"Dem, why are you so afraid to just be honest with me? And to answer your question, yes."

I don't think I was afraid of her, I think I was just afraid of what everyone else would think. "Sel, you're my best friend. I tell you everything."

"So why not this?" I knew she wasn't just going to let this go. She wanted me to open up and usually I could only do that with a guitar in my hand or while sitting alone behind the black and white keys of my piano.

"It would just make things more complicated." it was vague but at least I wasn't trying to change the subject.

"Tell me this. If we weren't about to make this movie together (Princess Protection Program), and our every move wasn't going to be watched, would it still be complicated?"

"It would definitely make things easier if we weren't being watched by everyone and their mothers."

"Well Dem, we can't Stop The World. We both made the decision to be who we are."

"I know and I don't regret it."

"You know I love you right?" I could see tears building up in her eyes.

"Yeah," I smile, "how could I forget you say it constantly."

She turned away from me and before she could wipe the single tear that had fallen off her face, I grabbed her chin so she was facing me and placed yet another kiss on her lips.

"I love you too."

"Demi, just leave, please I don't want to see you right now." She lowered her voice and I wanted to believe that she was going to calm down so we could just talk about what was going on but she noticed that I wasn't leaving and started yelling again!

"Demi, I said to leave! Just go!"

"Fine i'll leave." I slammed the door behind me in frustration.

I didn't argue with her about leaving because well, I'm sad to say this, but this has been happening way too often lately.

Selena's POV

I heard the door slam and that's when I broke down completely. Why didn't she fight with me like she always does. Had she finally gave up on us? I know that we hadn't exactly said we were together, but she still knows how I feel about her. Instead of keeping everything bottled up inside I decided to log onto my personal blog that I had started not too long ago.

In life you have to cherish the things that matter to you the most. When you look at me I realize that everybody else doesn't matter. I wish you felt the same way whenever you look at others and think that they could give you so much more in one night than I ever could in a lifetime.

I'll get over you eventually.

It might be wonderful, it might be magical, it might be everything I've waited for...

I figured leaving her name out of the post was for the best. She would know that it was her I was talking about but no one else would.

It's kind of funny how she started sleeping around even though when we first started whatever this is she made me a promise that I didn't expect her to break. We were in my room watching Donnie Darko, her favorite, her hand was on my knee and I noticed her start to slowly move higher up on my thigh. It wasn't the first time she did this but it made me really uncomfortable so I grabbed her hand and looked at her.

"What are you doing?" I asked as she had a wicked smile on her face.

"Nothing..." she said still smiling cause obviously she was lying.

"Demetria, stop lying! Its not a good look for you."

"Ugh, don't call me that,"she rolled her eyes,"and fine you want to know what I'm doing."

"Yes, that's what I asked isn't it?"

She didn't answer me. Instead she just pulled me in for a kiss and soon she had me straddled by the waist, both her knees placed on the bed, as we continued to kiss she tugged on my bottom lip asking for my permission to enter my mouth with her tongue. As she entered my mouth I let her be in control only because she has always been the more dominate one. She started moaning into my mouth and slowly made her way down my jawline to my neck. I couldn't help but moan as she sucked, bit and licked my skin, which was something that had never happened before now. She moved her hands to my hips and started unbuttoning my pants which I didn't notice until she forced her right hand down the front of my pants and I could feel her fingers rubbing against my underwear.

"Dem..Demi stop..." she released my neck and looked down at me.

"What's wrong? I thought you were enjoying yourself." she smiled and raised one of her eyebrows which was always so adorable.

"I was..."

"Well then we shall continue." and at that she rubbed harder against my underwear.

"Demi...I...," I released a soft moan. It felt so good, but "Just please stop."

she removed her hand from my pants and got off of me sitting next to me."Really, come on Selena! I know for a fact you were enjoying that." she said with the same smile on her face.

"I just don't think we should be doing that kind of stuff."

"But we're the only ones here and I'm done watching this movie, can't we continue?"

"Why can't we just take it slow?"

"Okay..." I knew she was sick of hiding whatever this was from everyone and she wanted more but I wasn't ready for that.

"Promise?" I asked looking at her in the eyes with my pinky held up.

"I promise. I just wish things were different sometimes." she said while hooking her pinky with mine.

"Different how?"

"I wish that people would just be okay with us being together and that we could be normal,but we aren't."

"None of that matters though. As long as we're happy together, nobody has to know."

"You're right. oh and sorry about..."

"You don't have to apologize." I pecked her lips and then we just continued watching movies.

I logged off, cleaned my face of all the tears and went to bed because tomorrow was a new day.