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Summary: As the months of summer approach, the gang was forced to yet again spilt up. But as the summer feels unbearable to Harry, he soon finds himself in a whorehouse. Working nightly shifts and crying in bed during the day as thoughts of what is to come, and the past fills his mind, soon he feels horrible. The School year comes, and appearances change, drunken fun, re-sorting, and nude males become known to Harry in Hogwarts. But soon he feels that same empty void, the pressure of wanting a family, and people wanting to know where the hell he's been all summer...
A/N As you should guess this is MAJOR sex, lots and lots in fact tons... well considering Harry's in a whorehouse you know... Nothing pornographic (I think...) you know, but it's not just a few words either...
Warning! maleXmale This is slash people!
WATCH OUT NUDES AHEAD! Lol had to put that in there...
NC-17 WARNING (I think I edited all the nc-17 parts out, but this is still a strong R)
Insomnia
Crying
(Please if you haven't done so already read the warnings, and all the author notes, I know that everyone just skips 'em anyway hell I skip them when I read, but this is important to know!) Harry was running, he didn't care, he just wanted to get away from it all, to get away from him. To get away from his old shitty life. Harry suddenly collapsed on the floor, he was sobbing, he had no where to go, and he was terrified. Harry sat sobbing for many minutes, and he didn't notice when footsteps behind him as they echoed in the wind. "Boy? Are you ok?" Harry turned puffy red eyes to a man; he was wearing tight leather pants and a red button down shirt that went right above his arse. Harry felt another wave of tears rush over his body, the man picked up the sobbing boy. "You want me to call your parents?"
"Don't have any..." Harry replied he looked up at the man's startled face, "Well do you want me to take you home?" Harry shook his head, "I'm never going back." The man nodded he seemed to understand, "That bad?" Harry nodded, "Okay, I'm gonna take you to my place, is that ok?" Harry nodded and smiled into the man's chest, he felt better knowing he wasn't going back. He was leaving the Dursleys, but it didn't dawn on him that he didn't know this man, or that he had no idea where he was heading.
And he should've asked.
"Zak! Zak, I have someone... bring Ben too." The man cradled Harry in his arms until his friends came, "Zak, Ben I found him in the street, he was all by himself and he was crying... he told me he didn't want to go home..."
"Ivan, do you have any idea where you've taken him! Where is he going to sleep? He can't be of age, and I wouldn't want him to work here! He's probably still a virgin, Ivan what were you thinking-"
"Zak, I had no choice! He was in the street, in OUR street! He could've been raped!" Harry looked up, "I'm not that young... I'm 16..." Ivan looked amazed, "Really?" Harry nodded. Ivan put him down, and Harry felt bad now all the warmth from Ivan's body gone. Harry gripped himself, he was cold, "You ok kid?" Ivan asked, Harry nodded and soon his knees gave out, causing him to fall to the floor. "I don't think you are kid."
"I... I..." Flashes of Sirius' death met his eyes, "No... no..." Harry pulled at his hair, "Kid, calm down." Ivan brought him to his feet holding him close to his body. "What's your name?"
"H-Harry..." Harry felt tears meet his eyes, Ivan brought him closer to his body, "Shh... Don't worry, just calm down." Ivan began gently stroking his hair. "Bring the boss, I think it's best if he gets his mind off things, I think I should stay with him tonight."
The only man that hadn't spoke yet, suddenly spoke up, Harry was sure that was Ben, "He could work, that would get his mind off things." Ivan looked doubtful, "Of course we would ask him."
Harry piped up, "What is it? Tell me." Zak looked over and nodded, "We're whores..." Harry sat and then he said "Ooh... Well... err... Sure." Harry knew that if he didn't then he would have to go back to the old life. His shitty life, "I'll be leaving for boarding school on September 1 though..." Harry looked away and then he saw Ben with a grin, "We have a new member of our group." Ivan sighed and placed his head in his hands, "I don't want him to do this... He's only a kid! Guys!"
Harry placed a comforting hand on his shoulder, "But I... I want to." Ivan finally agreed and soon they were headed to the boss. "Ryan we have one for you."
"Ooh another one, hmm... ooh this one looks like a keeper..." He tipped Harry's face to him, "Has he been crying?" He asked as he saw the green orbs look intently at him and then widen at his question. Harry nodded his head and looked away, he didn't need to be reminded. "It's nothing to be ashamed of son." Harry nodded, and stared at the floor, "What's wrong?"
"I...I'd rather not talk about it..." Harry felt unshed tears resurface, he wanted to sob that he had lost everything, that his life was ruined, that he had nothing left. The man looked at Harry as if he knew what happened, "Ivan show him a room, and make sure he tells you what's wrong. You always were the sensitive one, you're excused from your duties tonight, don't worry." Ivan carried the boy up to his room.
"Harry, never, and I mean never talk back to the boss, tell him what he asks no matter how painful it might be for you, I know how you feel."
Harry turned to him, feeling anger, hate, and betrayal bubble it's way to the surface of his emotions; "You mean you know what it feels like to have no parents from the day you are born, to go live with your only known relatives who hate you just because your different, and then they try to basically kill you by shoving you into a cupboard for all your life, only to get out to do choirs. Then as your slaving in the hot sun, and sunburn prickles your neck and you fall over because your sweat drenched cloths are to big, because they're just hand-me-downs from your wale of a cousin. And then they try to prevent you from going to the one place you might be happy, which is boarding school. Then as your 3rd year hits, your almost expelled, your beaten by your uncle, and then you meet your Godfather the only person with any connection to your family, but he's being wrongfully accused of killing your family. But it doesn't matter because just as you finally feel like you have a family, it gets taken away. And I had to watch... I watched my own Godfather die; you know how much that plagues my nightmares. I just can't stand my life. And... and... I don't even have any real friends, they probably only like me because I'm rich, or something. But I'll never use that money... never again... for it's basically poison... I know I'm probably foolish, but I just don't want to be living off my mother's and father's deaths." Harry let out a painful sob.
Ivan stood amazed at how much this little boy had gone though already he was just 16, and he had already lost everything. "So you have nothing to lose?" Harry nodded, Ivan pulled the boy to his chest, and he felt the boy's tears soak his shirt. "Harry... Please, stop crying please?" Harry let out another sob, he sobbed until he had run out of tears, and he closed his eyes. He couldn't stop the unconditional sadness that riddled his body. "Harry, you feel better?" Harry gave him a nod, but as the last tear ran out of his eye, he knew he was better.
"I'm... I'm sorry..." Harry put his face in his hands, "No, babe it's ok, don't worry we all have to cry every once in a while. Yours was just today." Ivan hugged him and got up to leave, he heard Harry whimper. "You want me to stay Harry?" Harry gave a faint nod, and felt his cheeks burning. Ivan laughed and beamed at Harry, "It's ok, I'll stay." He went and took off his soaked shirt, Harry took off his shoes and climbed into bed. Ivan sat on the edge and waited for Harry to fall asleep.
"No, Sirius... Sirius... No... Cedric?" Harry felt himself get shaken soon he saw the face of Ivan, "Don't worry no one sleeps during the night, its just sex." Ivan looked at Harry, "Are you going to be ok?" Harry nodded and sighed he fell back into his pillows, he would push everything back during the summer, he had made up his mind. He promised to himself that he wouldn't cry, he wouldn't... but he knew that his promise would be broken in a matter of days.
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"No Harry, don't try to bit the mans dick off! Stop using your teeth! Use tongue, tongue's good! Teeth bad!" Zak screamed at him, Ben started to laugh, "No! God! You have to actually put it IN your mouth, not like that!" Ben let out another muffled giggle, Harry started to laugh, choking on what was in his mouth, "Harry this is NO laughing matter! You're going to depenis someone!" Harry let out a long; muffled by the dildo, laugh. "Harry would you like it if I bit off your penis, now do it right!"
Finally Harry had perfected it, "Ugh, I'm sick of this taste..." Ben laughed, but Zak stop him with a glare, "Well blow jobs aren't certainly your specialty," Harry looked at him in confusion, "We all have specialties, I'm a great blow job giver," He said this with great pride that almost made Harry laugh, "Ivan's the sensitive gentle lover, Ben... I think he should explain what he does..." He said with a more disgusted tone.
Ben grinned uncertainly, then hesitated, "I'm the one that dresses up in leather, and I use... err... objects to peoples pleasures... fetish... It's a kinda sick job, so no one but me does it..." Suddenly it was Zak's turn to laugh, "KINDA sick? How is it just KINDA sick? I mean you fucking put on a mask and whip people!"
Harry visibly grimaced, "ZAK! It's not that bad, I get tons of money! It's just very rough sex with leather cloths on!"
"You know I hate it! Why do you continue to do it when you know how much I hate it!" Ben walked up to Zak, "Don't do this now Zak, I love you to death, but really I just can't stop... I have so many regulars, and god my standards have been raised and you know what would happen if I didn't get enough money by the end of the night! I know you don't want to see my body like that, you know what he does! You know that he gets angry, and Zak I know you love me... like I love you" Tears were filling Zak's eyes and as he walked over to Ben and placed a kiss on his lips he let the tears fall. "Zak... I wish I could get out of this, but I was disowned by my parents, and they... and they don't want to see me again... I dropped out of high school like an idiot, now what am I suppose to do?"
Ben's own tears fell down his face; Harry had long left the room, knowing they wanted to be alone. They embraced each other in their arms, telling each other small secrets, and giving each other kisses.
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Harry went to find something to do while Ben and Zak made up in their bedroom. "Ivan?" He was about to walk into his room when he saw it was locked, "Ooh..." Harry went to his room, tears were threatening to fall down his face, and he knew why, Sirius. The locked doors, upon entering his room, he saw Ivan, "What are you doing here? Your room is locked-"
"Harry I told you that my room was being inspected for drug use." Then he saw the tears in Harry's eyes, "Come here, don't worry... what's wrong babe?" Harry curled up against the man's chest letting the tears fall from his face, "You can tell me... Harry please?" Harry had already broken his promise, and it hadn't even been 5 days.
"It's just the normal things Ivan, but... but..." Harry let more tears fall from his face, "What if they are all worried about me? They always were a stubborn group and now look at me... they're gonna hate me! I mean it's not just my cloths, it's what I'm doing... I'm fucking people for a bloody living... And... and I've never even thought about having sex before..."
"You're a virgin... Ooh god we have to take care of this... Where's Zak and Ben?" Ivan stood up, and left Harry on his bed, he was curled up and crying "Zak! Ben!" They both came running out of Zak's room naked, "Ooh you were making up? Well we have a problem... Harry's a virgin..."
"You take care of that, he really loves you... We can't have him give his virginity to a complete stranger... and well me and Ben have so catching up to do." Ben was sucking on Zak's neck and when Zak turned and gripped Ben's crouch, "Ooh, Zak not here... lets go to the bedroom..." Ben growled into Zak's ear, Zak took off running into the bedroom with Ben fallowing behind.
Ivan walked into Harry's room 30 minutes later; he had the fresh smell of soap radiating from his body. His hair was dry though, Harry felt his body begin to tremble, "Harry I won't hurt you... Just let this be your night..." Harry took in a deep breath and let tears caress his cheeks, "Don't cry Harry, please don't cry..." Harry couldn't stop crying, "Harry please?" Harry tried. But his tears couldn't stop, "Harry... In two days you start work, you have to understand what we do here. We have sex, that's all! And if you can't have sex with me, without crying you sure as hell won't last a day with this job!" Harry let out a sob, and he showed Ivan what he was crying over... "Harry... babe, ooh I didn't know... I'm sorry... I'm so sorry..." Ivan took hold of Harry and brought him to his chest, Harry was crying because he had slit his wrist.
"Ivan..." Harry choked out, "I... I didn't know what I was doing... I didn't want to..." Ivan gentility rocked back and forth, "Ivan I'm scared..." Harry cried into the man's chest like he had 4 days ago, "Harry... don't worry, just calm down... Harry... please stop crying, please, ooh god Harry... Do you want me to tell the others?" Harry shrugged, "It doesn't matter..." he whispered letting more tears escape his eyes.
"Harry don't worry we will get through this and you will understand why we do what we do... now you don't want to have sex right?" Harry shrugged again. Soon Harry was fast asleep on his bed, still fully clothed and still a virgin. Ivan had the boy in his arms, whispering comforting words not wanting him to feel bad (A/N this is not an Ivan/Harry fic ok? This is Harry/Draco so this is just temporary, bare with me now...)
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"You like that don't you!" Ben smacked Harry's ass again, "You wanna fuck me don't you!" Ben smacked Harry's bare ass a few more times, Harry was on his knees in Ben's bed. No one was there except them two, knowing that Harry didn't want to let anyone see him like this. Harry was learning how to be the submissive one. "Now you tell him how you want to feel his big cock in your ass."
"Ooh I want to feel you big cock come in my ass..." Harry moaned in a seductive tone, Ben laughed "Nice." Ben smacked him again before roughly inserting 2 fingers in Harry, that's when Harry gave a scream of pain, "Holly shit, your as tight as a tube of tooth paste, you mother fucker your still a virgin! Damn it Ivan!" Ben walked out, naked. Harry was now learning that it seemed everyone was comfortable with being naked in front of basically anybody... anybody, but the boss that is. "Ivan you were suppose to fuck him last night, I can't give lessons to a virgin you know that!"
"It was my fault... Ivan came in my room all ready and I freaked out, I'll let him... err... do me now and then we can carry on with the lessons." Harry muttered looking at the floor, Ben looked at him, "You have 2 days to learn everything, then you're on your own kid. No time for freaking out, we have a tight schedule it's almost as tight as your ass is right now." Zak let out a muffled laugh and they all left Ivan and Harry to do what they have to do.
Harry felt at ease with Ivan because he wasn't that much older, he was 18 and he was hot in Harry's opinion. He had brown hair that was hanging loosely in his face; his eyes were a prominent shade of blue that stood out. His make up was done lightly he had a natural look. And unlike Ben he wore no jewelry, he had no spiked bracelets or chokers, and he had no leather bands around his body, and he had no weird looks about him, he was just easy on the eyes.
Edited scene (Go to my bio for the link)
Ivan slid out and put the boy's feet on the bed, he kissed Harry again and soon the boy on the bed was out like a light. Ivan sighed and moved to the door. He walked out and past the Zak and Ben who were making out in a corner, very painfully aroused obviously...
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Harry gripped the bed sheets, "You've been a bad boy Harry, I'll have to spank you." Ben slapped Harry's ass causing Harry to scream out. "You like it when I smack your ass?" Harry moaned a yes in response, "Good." Ben began to laugh, but abruptly ended and started to smack Harry's ass again. "You want me to fuck you like the animal you are?" Harry nodded. Ben took in a breath of air, as he again roughly inserted 2 fingers. He grined as Harry cried out his name, "So you want more? You want my fingers to fuck you more?"
Harry moaned, "No, I want to feel your... ooh... big cock come in my ass..." Ben began to move his finger in and out of Harry, but soon replaced it with his manhood. "Ooh... Ben..."
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"Harry, now remember they always have to come, no way in hell are you suppose to let them not come. If they don't want you to touch them, that's good. If all they want is to jerk off to you then great, but if your in pain remember you can stop them." Zak reminded him while doing Harry's makeup; they had decided to go with the 'I'm a sexy virgin' look for tonight, he was sure they would change it soon. "Now we have you booked all this week, tomorrow you have an all nighter... Some boy's wanted to hook their friend up, they say he's hot." Ben shrugged, but continued, "Tonight is good though, you have 4 people. The first one is Justin; now remember what I said... Ooh, and always use condoms." Zak looked pointedly at Harry, but then grinned and winked, "Go get them tiger." Zak walked out of the room after giving Harry a slap on his ass and growling in his ear; they were in the dressing room. The same room they had been debating on what Harry should look like earlier. Harry took in a few deep breaths and check over his makeup in the mirror. He did as Ben had told him to and that was to make sure his cloths weren't to tight because other wise they wouldn't be able to come off easily.
Harry walked into the doorway, sliding in he locked the door- just as Zak had told him to do. Harry smiled as he saw the boy laying on his bed already half naked. He walked over and saw the boy had curious eyes and then as Harry started to undo his clothing Justin walked over and took off the rest of Harry's clothes. Harry was now standing naked in front of a total stranger, but he felt at ease- after all the last day he was forced to walk around the house nude...
Harry reached over hoping it was ok, and undid the man's pants, he noticed the man's eyes were glued on him and Harry pulled down Justin's boxers. Justin gave a soft laugh, and Harry blushed, Harry was smaller then the man, and the man knew that Harry was probably still going through puberty. Justin broke the silence, "Are you a virgin?" Harry smiled and took this as a cue, "Do you want me to be?" Justin gave Harry a soft giggle as a response. "Get on your knees." Harry mentally winced, this was not his cup of tea. Harry was smacked on his ass every time he let his teeth ever so much as graze his member, at first it had surprised Harry and he had received another smack.
Soon Harry was getting dressed and then he winked at the man before walking into the other room, he got ready for the next person. He wasn't sure if he was proud of what he was doing. Hell he wasn't proud at all. Harry finished his work for the day with a sore ass. His last guy went crazy on him, that it was a lot rougher then he thought possible... Harry felt soar and when he let tears fall from his face did Zak come in.
"Ooh god... I think it was to much for him..." Harry looked up and wiped his tears, "My ass is soar..." Ben started to laugh, "I... I don't think this is working..." Ivan sighed and yelled, "I told you! I TOLD YOU! But no one listens to me!" Harry felt tears in his eyes, he looked away and soon Harry was closing his eyes to the sounds of yelling and arguing.
"Harry?" The voice was sweet, "Dear, please wake up..." Harry opened his eyes, his arse was still sore and he groaned as light enticed his vision. Then the memories of last night came into view, he cursed several times and tried to sit up only to cry out in pain. "Harry what's wrong?" Harry slid on his glasses, and felt a blush creep over his face. "Ooh, your ass hurts?"
"It hurts like hell... feels like someone stabbed my arse." At that Ivan gave a low chuckle. "Ivan... when you started did it feel like... like... it was wrong...?" Ivan was startled by this question, but answered it none the less, "Yes it did, I was a virgin like you... I was 15, and well I stumbled into this place, drunk and abused... my father always had a temper... and well I ended up working that following week..."
Harry looked up, and Ivan continued his story, "At first I was greatly embarrassed... you see... I was what you call a 'late bloomer' and well with all these naked guys around I felt intimidated, like they would laugh at me if they saw... However that was not the case, the people were friendly. They showed me around, told me secrets, and hell I had fun. But then it was my first night to work, I was so scared I would screw it up, after all I had very low self-esteem. What can I say my father always told me I was a fuck up, and that I screwed everything up. So I did it, I was soon feeling horrible, as if I could cry. I of course did that next night. Night two right in the middle of intercourse I started to sob."
Harry saw Ivan look at his hands, "I felt like I was dirt... but I knew I could do nothing else, hell who would ever want the abused boy?" Harry felt loathing for Ivan's father, for Ivan was one of the nicest people he had ever met, but yet he had been corrupted by his father, to think less of himself. Harry wanted to cry for him, but knew he wouldn't. "So, yes I did feel like it was wrong, but in the second week the hate for what I was doing evaporated and I looked at the bright side of things. So don't worry you'll be fine, soon enogh you'll be walking around naked like Zak does freely without any embarrassment or thought that what your doing is wrong."
Harry beamed at Ivan, "Thanks I needed that." Ivan nodded and smile in return. "No problem Harry, I'm sure you'll be just fine."
Later that night
"Tonight's you're all nighter!" Harry nodded, feeling a lot better after his talk with Ivan. Ben grinned and felt Zak wrap his arms around him, he leaned into the embrace. Soon they were kissing, "Ooh... Zak we haven't been on a date in over a month... I wish we could go on one soon." Ben felt Zak kiss him, "Maybe if we ask Ryan for next week off..." Zak nodded.
"Hem-hem..." Ben and Zak shot their heads up, both looking slightly embarrassed. They were all fully clothed or they probably would have been slightly more embarrassed. Harry couldn't help a suppressed giggle that escaped his throat, but it sounded like a moan, then they all looked at him oddly. "Sorry... err... I was trying not to laugh..."
Zak went and picked Harry up by his legs, he flung him over his shoulders and brought him into the dressing room. Ben grabbed Harry who was giggling and placed him in the chair, he began tickling him. Ivan was in the doorway he sighed and shook his head, but he was grinning like an idiot. Harry was laughing hysterically now, and when he finally got control over himself it was time to get his makeup on. Harry put on his eyeliner and made himself look ravishing before leaving for his all nighter.
Harry was sure he would keep this look, he loved it. He had a red shirt that was sleeveless, it was read and came just bellow his belly button. His pants rested on his hips, a big cut was on the left leg revealing tanned skin. The tear was from his middle thigh to a few inches bellow his knee. The black straps that went across the lighter black of his pants. He had a torn black fabric sleeve that came from his elbow to his wrist it was loose, unlike a wrist band. His shoes were red with spikes sticking out of the top, his pants hung loosely off his hips. He liked these pants the best out of all the ones he had. He had several pairs of tight leather pants, and several other loose fitting pants, but these were one of a kind. And his favorite by far. (A/N Can't imagine this outfit? Go here: this outfit was so no my idea... just the shirt in my version is longer and his hair is not long...)
Harry slid into the door, he had his new contacts in, and as he turned around what he saw made him gasp. There was a very grim looking person on his bed, he seemed angry and upset, but what surprised him the most was who the person was. None other than, Draco Malfoy.
A/N Evil? No, I doubt that... to graphic for you... I'm sorry I got carried away... this chapter is 6 pages long... that's long in my book... well happy reading, and tell me if I should edit the parts of the story first before removing it... And please tell me what parts...
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