Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note nor its characters. If I did, you probably wouldn't want to watch it... XD
grief /grēf/ n.
1. Deep mental anguish, as that arising from bereavement.
2. Trouble or frustration.
I am aware of the word "grief." I know how to pronounce it, the definition of the term, and numerous synonyms. Yes, there is no skepticism on that particular subject.
But I cannot comprehend.
How can I, a connoisseur of emotions, have such an irrational feeling? The liquid cascading down my ashen cheeks will not resurrect you, nor will the pathetic twinge and constrictions in my chest. That is the verity of this situation, and yet I cannot help but to clutch at my bedding. My fragile body is wracked with a sob despite my greatest efforts. I am silently convulsing, gagging, heaving.
As time wears on, my reflection becomes increasingly ghastly. I am almost unable to bear it. The shadows beneath my unreflecting eyes have manifested and are now evident even from across the cemetery. I know this because when I visit you, the sign - which mimics me from 5.62 meters away - offers me a rather defined view of them. If my small and simple smile had seemed amiss before, it must seem otherworldly now.
I am becoming increasingly unstable as well. I have even acquired a dreadful habit of writing letters to you. They are compressed into their own specialized drawer, unread but unforgotten. When paper and pencil are not available to me, I simulate conversation with you, imagining all the acrid things you would say as I bit back those three sacred words I did not dare to speak.
It is not enough.
Are you content, Mello? You tried so desperately to break me, relinquishing your morals and transforming into something that you and I both know you are not. And you have finally executed your desire. I cannot win the game, and I cannot solve the puzzle. I am nothing but a loser.
You win, Mello.
A/N: I was trying something new with this, so constructive criticism would be greatly appreciated! :3 I was listening to Sadness & Sorrow when this little idea just popped into my head...& so here it is. XD Not much of a story, but I hope you enjoyed anyway. Thanks so much for reading. c: