Chapter One (Bella's POV)

"I have to go for a hunt now love," Edward whispered to me as he trailed kisses along my bare neck. I smile as I go to turn around and kiss his lips gently. "Are you going to be fine while I'm gone?"

It's been about a month since Edward and I've been married. We had just returned from Isle Esme, and it wouldn't be too long before I would change. I put the change on hold for a bit to enjoy some of my human pleasures before they would be all gone. But I couldn't have been happier, I guess. I mean I should be extremely happy? Right? But for some reason I feel like something isn't right about this whole thing. It seems perfect doesn't it? My relationship? I am lucky to have a man to care for me as much as Edward does, but for some reason I wasn't happy. Maybe it had to do the fact Jacob and I got into an argument. I feel terrible. At our wedding Jake came after weeks of traveling around Canada to get over the fact that I was marrying Edward. When I saw him, I just couldn't help but run over to hug him. He was my best friend, and I don't know what I'd do without him. Edward had left us alone to dance for a bit, and as I talked to Jake I let it slip out that I was planning to have sex with Edward. This really pissed Jake off and he almost went full wolf on me if the others didn't stop him. The last memory I have of him is stalking off into the woods like an angry madman.

"I'll be fine, I think I was going to visit Jake today," I admit to him. I learned from my father and Billy that Jake had returned to the rez after another month of running around the Canadian forest.

"Bella are you sure?" Edward questioned, raising an eyebrow at me. "Last time he saw you he flipped out at our wedding."

"I'm sure. I need to talk to him Edward. I'll be fine. Please. I love you, but he's my best friend. You know how devastated he is about this whole situation, I just need to talk him. Please," I beg my husband. He sighs as he goes to kiss my temple.

"Alright. I promise I'll be home as soon as I can Mrs. Cullen." he grinned at me. I smiled back at him.

"Look, take your time. I promise I'll be right here when you get back," I say. He smiles at me once more before kissing my lips softly.

"Soon we'll have the rest of eternity," I tell him. He gives me a weak smiles before heading out of our small cottage and into the never ending forest of Forks with the rest of his, or should I say our family now.

I decided to put my brown jacket and sneakers on before I headed out to the car Edward gave to me as a wedding present. The car was literally a bomb shelter in it's self. It gives security against bullets, explosions, poisonous gases, ect. That's what happens when you have an over protective husband like myself.

I go speed through Forks and over to the reservation where I pull up to the Black house. I smile seeing the old garage I use to spend time with Jacob in. So many memories where in that garage, even if they were of me trying to see Edward again after he left me. Looks like Jacob was the one who did the leaving this time.

I go to slam my door shut and head over to the garage. Sure enough I heard the clanking of tools and the sound of a roaring engine. I peak inside to see Jacob working on his old rabbit.

"I know you're their Bells," Jacob mumbled as he kept himself fixated on working with the truck.

"Where the heck did you go?" I ask as I stepped into the garage.

"Why is that any of your business?" Jacob snapped all of a sudden.

"Because maybe I want to know where you went. Jake you know you'll always be my best friend, what don't you get about that. Whatever will happen to me your always going to be my best friend," I say as I lean against the wall.

"I know that Bella." he chuckled slightly. "It's just that- I can't stand to see that your going to become a monster."

"Jacob look it's my life. I can make my own choices and I'll be the one to judge if they hurt me or not. The Cullen's aren't monsters, and you know that...so I won't be either," I retort.

"I know just- look, shouldn't you be with your husband right now... I'm sure the married life has been wonderful for you two," he mumbled as he went to tighten one of the bolts on the car's engine.

"He went to go hunting with the others for the weekend," I tell him.

"Nice husband. You're not even married for a month and he ditches you," Jacob snorted.

"Jake don't insult Edward like that. He's a very good husband as a matter of fact and he didn't ditch me. He has to hunt if he doesn't want to hurt me," I snap.

"Yeah well you are marrying the leach that left you heartbroken for months. Why Bella? Why him?" Jacob asked me looking at me straight in the eye. When he did that a part of me felt a small pull towards Jacob, but I stood my ground. I am a married woman now. I can't be doing this. But I urged to be near him. I needed him to hold me...to kiss me. NO! I can't. I just can't. I do not want to betray Edward, I love him.

"Jake, I love him. What he did was for me to live a normal human life..but I just couldn't anymore. He couldn't anymore. I wanted this Jake, okay. I know it hurts, but I wanted it," I said. I felt myself slowly approach Jacob and go to gently touch his arm.

"Hey, why are you even here?" He asked. "To torture me some more? Or to rub your married life some more in my face?" He said, growling a bit.

"I came to see you," I admit. "I needed to know you were okay," I whisper sadly. I go rub his arm. He sighs as he goes to touch the hand I have on his shoulder.

"Bella didn't you ever feel a connection with me?" He whispered gripping to my hand. "Any? Because I do feel something," He said, going to grab my hand. I look at him and sigh.

"Maybe I do. I mean did. Maybe I did, but I'm married woman. I can't," I whisper.

"Bella you know it's me who you belong with," Jake said. He goes to brush a strand of my hair out of the way, tucking it behind my ear. I let a tear fall and he slowly goes to brush it away.

"I can't," I say with pure emotion coming through my voice. "I can't!"

"Bells-"

"No! Look Jacob I just. I just can't. I need to go. It's getting late," I said to him as I storm out of the garage. Even though that pull was there again I forced myself to get into my bomb shelter of a car.

"Bella!" Jacob yelled, trying to get me to come. I just ignore him as I drive my way out of La Push. The whole time I felt the tears trickle down my fact as I tried to get as fast as I could away from that place. I can't believe I wanted him to kiss me. I loved Edward, not Jacob. I couldn't keep torturing myself like this. It's Edward I was meant to be with...even though I do admit I love Jacob still. I can't explain it but there's a part of me that loves him and I can't control it anymore.