(a/N: here's another little dark fic. I just was toying with this idea one night and it all came together. This story started as a more comically tale about PMSing but it turned into a Relena/ Heero fic when I had the urge for death. Yeah call me crazy. Hope you enjoy and r& r! )
Mark of Love
By deathsflame
I hate you.
Relena sat by her bedside table and scribbled the words in her diary. Barley three minutes ago she had been talking to Dorothy and writing the beginning entry in her dairy. Needless to say the conversation hadn't gone well. She started to scribble more words down from the conversation.
Self-centered
Egotistical
Evangelist...(where had that one come from?!?!)
Flirtatious whore
Piece of sh-...
Blue ink spread all over the page and Relena was left with another pen snapped in half. She sighed and tossed it to the floor, on to the pile of already broken leaking pens she had broken in the short span of time she had been writing. Picking up a piece of chocolate from a delicately wrapped box she popped it into her mouth. Flinging the weight from one arm to another Relena stared at the wall and gave up writing the day's events.
"I need some one to talk to... I miss how we could talk to each other...Heero..." she mused scanning a magazine that had been left on the floor. Along with the magazine was a pizza slice, a ticket stub, some shoes, and a teddy bear. Relena's blue eyes opened wide as she recognized the red ribbon around it's stuffed neck.
Cradling the doll she cooed "oh Heero...my Heero..." She closed her eyes and rocked the bear like a baby and held it tight to her. "Why did you die?" she asked the empty room. A room decorated with posters of men, bands, and, movie screen shots. From the bright blue comforter on her bed to the light yellow carpet that could barely be seen, the entire room screamed life! It screamed excitement, and laughter. But the inhabitant of that room no longer was filled with that life.
After Heero and Relena had started to date half a year ago, she had been walking on cloud nine. He always teased about how she kept the stuffed bear he had given to her during the war, but it was so dear to her. Heero had even helped her move into this room...this apartment when she had insisted on going to college. He had painted the walls, had rolled the carpet out, he was the life behind the room. And he didn't mind a bit when Dorothy moved in with her to attend the same college. Dorothy, who at the time had been her best friend. School had gone well for the most part, and she saw Heero enough, though he did not go to school any more, not since the eve wars.
"A waste of time" he had said once " before I was a gundam pilot, I received all forms of schooling."
Relena could only sigh and shake her head. "As long as you keep coming back for me." she teased every time he left. Heero had been employed in the Preventors Corp. not long after the end of the wars. He seemed happy enough to have the job and was glad to continue his former profession.
Life was reaching an all time high. School was going so well, Dorothy had stopped coming home at 3 in the morning and Heero was going to visit next week. Relena had to hug herself to stop herself from shaking with joy.
Two days before Heero was to arrive from his latest mission, Relena received a call. The phone had rung for 5 minutes as Relena burst thru the door with groceries.
"Get that Dot?" she asked Dorothy who was watching television and incessivly chomping on gum.
"Sure, sure." She said only half listening. Picking up the receiver and blowing a bubble said.
"Make it short."
"DOROTHY!" Relena yelled from the other room. Dorothy sighed and started to listen to the voice on the other end.
"Hmm..Duo! He did what?!" she almost yelled, then lowering her voice down to a whisper she asked. " When did this happen? I see..."
She glanced up to see if Relena was around or in ear shot.
" This isn't going to go over well." She whispered " and I'm not going to be the one who does it."
"Does what?" Relena asked walking in the room with a can of pineapple slices. Dorothy held the phone for a moment longer then handed it to Relena. She kept her face away from Relena's sight afraid her expression would give it all away.
Relena heard the familiar voice of Duo. He sounded downtrodden.
"I'm sorry, Relena. It's my fault." Duo said his voice cracking slightly. Relena's heart froze in presumption.
"What is it Duo?" she asked hoping with all her heart that her thoughts where wrong.
"I didn't turn fast enough, maybe if I had flown higher or lower or I'd been able to reverse the nose dive..."Duo rambled on in one breathe. Relena cut him off with her quite voice.
"Duo, what happened?"
"He, he's dead, Relena...Heero's dead." Duo choked out. Relena went numb for a minute. She just stood holding then phone by her ear not hearing, not feeling, just a mass of nothing. Duo continued to ramble on as if the sound of his voice was comforting.
"We where on a standard mission... and the guerilla's started to shoot rpg's at the plane. I rolled to miss two but that left me with a blind spot and one hit. Once the plane was hit I couldn't control the plane enough to dodge another or the third...our plane crashed into the coast. It landed on a low out crop of rocks. Heero woke me up, there was the smell of blood in the cockpit, and I couldn't see out of one eye, he, Heero pushed the glass up. I had to cut my straps to get out of the seat. Heero helped to push me out of the top before the waves took the plane down... it kept rocking Relena, and when I jumped out it started to tip. Heero grabbed for the edge to lift himself out but a strap caught his boot. It fell over into the water, and he ...Couldn't get out...I tried to swim to him but the blood it was swirling in the water...I don't know if it was mine or his I couldn't see..or swim, and I was thrown onto the rocks again. He sank with the Plane, he saved my life, but he died..."Duo gasped the story out. His voice was choked up and Relena could almost see Him crying, him a now grown man, crying.
Relena broke down into sobs. Her body shook and quivered and Dorothy thanked Duo and hung up the phone.
"Relena, I'm so sorry, Relena..."
For days after Relena wouldn't leave the house, her room became messier and messier until it was the trash heap it was now. Only for the funeral would she come out. Duo was at the door to meet her.
He just couldn't look her straight in the eye. But he stayed by her. The only time he left her side was to give a speech for Heero.
The funeral was beautiful, and dozens of people came. Heero was even awarded the purple heart. But Relena could only stare at the empty casket that lay on the alter.
"Never found his body..." she whispered to herself as if it meant Heero could come back, as if it meant he was not really dead.
Duo held her tight and said sorry one last time.
In Relena's apartment fights kept breaking out between Dorothy and herself.
"You can't keep this house like trash! I live here too!" Dorothy shouted
"So? I don't think it's messy. And if it bugs you so much stay in your room!" she shouted back.
Dorothy bit her lip and yelled finally " Heero wouldn't want you to trash this house!! He worked so hard on it for you!"
Staring at her friend with steely eyes she asked " How would you know what Heero wanted?"
Dorothy had stormed out of the house and Relena hadn't seen her for almost 2 weeks. She was starting to worry and spent nights awake waiting. Finally another call came, this one from Dorothy.
"I can't stand you any more. You've changed Relena... I hate you now..." Dorothy had said over the phone and hung up ending all conversation.
Relena sat with the bear hugging it close. She opened her eyes for a brief moment and walked over to the window. Out side she could almost imagine Heero standing in all the city lights, high above the streets. He smiled at her and all she wanted in the world was to hold him, it didn't matter how. Slowly transfixed on the image of her mind she opened the window of her 4th story apartment, and stepped out the window still clutching the bear.
"Heero..."
Mark of Love
By deathsflame
I hate you.
Relena sat by her bedside table and scribbled the words in her diary. Barley three minutes ago she had been talking to Dorothy and writing the beginning entry in her dairy. Needless to say the conversation hadn't gone well. She started to scribble more words down from the conversation.
Self-centered
Egotistical
Evangelist...(where had that one come from?!?!)
Flirtatious whore
Piece of sh-...
Blue ink spread all over the page and Relena was left with another pen snapped in half. She sighed and tossed it to the floor, on to the pile of already broken leaking pens she had broken in the short span of time she had been writing. Picking up a piece of chocolate from a delicately wrapped box she popped it into her mouth. Flinging the weight from one arm to another Relena stared at the wall and gave up writing the day's events.
"I need some one to talk to... I miss how we could talk to each other...Heero..." she mused scanning a magazine that had been left on the floor. Along with the magazine was a pizza slice, a ticket stub, some shoes, and a teddy bear. Relena's blue eyes opened wide as she recognized the red ribbon around it's stuffed neck.
Cradling the doll she cooed "oh Heero...my Heero..." She closed her eyes and rocked the bear like a baby and held it tight to her. "Why did you die?" she asked the empty room. A room decorated with posters of men, bands, and, movie screen shots. From the bright blue comforter on her bed to the light yellow carpet that could barely be seen, the entire room screamed life! It screamed excitement, and laughter. But the inhabitant of that room no longer was filled with that life.
After Heero and Relena had started to date half a year ago, she had been walking on cloud nine. He always teased about how she kept the stuffed bear he had given to her during the war, but it was so dear to her. Heero had even helped her move into this room...this apartment when she had insisted on going to college. He had painted the walls, had rolled the carpet out, he was the life behind the room. And he didn't mind a bit when Dorothy moved in with her to attend the same college. Dorothy, who at the time had been her best friend. School had gone well for the most part, and she saw Heero enough, though he did not go to school any more, not since the eve wars.
"A waste of time" he had said once " before I was a gundam pilot, I received all forms of schooling."
Relena could only sigh and shake her head. "As long as you keep coming back for me." she teased every time he left. Heero had been employed in the Preventors Corp. not long after the end of the wars. He seemed happy enough to have the job and was glad to continue his former profession.
Life was reaching an all time high. School was going so well, Dorothy had stopped coming home at 3 in the morning and Heero was going to visit next week. Relena had to hug herself to stop herself from shaking with joy.
Two days before Heero was to arrive from his latest mission, Relena received a call. The phone had rung for 5 minutes as Relena burst thru the door with groceries.
"Get that Dot?" she asked Dorothy who was watching television and incessivly chomping on gum.
"Sure, sure." She said only half listening. Picking up the receiver and blowing a bubble said.
"Make it short."
"DOROTHY!" Relena yelled from the other room. Dorothy sighed and started to listen to the voice on the other end.
"Hmm..Duo! He did what?!" she almost yelled, then lowering her voice down to a whisper she asked. " When did this happen? I see..."
She glanced up to see if Relena was around or in ear shot.
" This isn't going to go over well." She whispered " and I'm not going to be the one who does it."
"Does what?" Relena asked walking in the room with a can of pineapple slices. Dorothy held the phone for a moment longer then handed it to Relena. She kept her face away from Relena's sight afraid her expression would give it all away.
Relena heard the familiar voice of Duo. He sounded downtrodden.
"I'm sorry, Relena. It's my fault." Duo said his voice cracking slightly. Relena's heart froze in presumption.
"What is it Duo?" she asked hoping with all her heart that her thoughts where wrong.
"I didn't turn fast enough, maybe if I had flown higher or lower or I'd been able to reverse the nose dive..."Duo rambled on in one breathe. Relena cut him off with her quite voice.
"Duo, what happened?"
"He, he's dead, Relena...Heero's dead." Duo choked out. Relena went numb for a minute. She just stood holding then phone by her ear not hearing, not feeling, just a mass of nothing. Duo continued to ramble on as if the sound of his voice was comforting.
"We where on a standard mission... and the guerilla's started to shoot rpg's at the plane. I rolled to miss two but that left me with a blind spot and one hit. Once the plane was hit I couldn't control the plane enough to dodge another or the third...our plane crashed into the coast. It landed on a low out crop of rocks. Heero woke me up, there was the smell of blood in the cockpit, and I couldn't see out of one eye, he, Heero pushed the glass up. I had to cut my straps to get out of the seat. Heero helped to push me out of the top before the waves took the plane down... it kept rocking Relena, and when I jumped out it started to tip. Heero grabbed for the edge to lift himself out but a strap caught his boot. It fell over into the water, and he ...Couldn't get out...I tried to swim to him but the blood it was swirling in the water...I don't know if it was mine or his I couldn't see..or swim, and I was thrown onto the rocks again. He sank with the Plane, he saved my life, but he died..."Duo gasped the story out. His voice was choked up and Relena could almost see Him crying, him a now grown man, crying.
Relena broke down into sobs. Her body shook and quivered and Dorothy thanked Duo and hung up the phone.
"Relena, I'm so sorry, Relena..."
For days after Relena wouldn't leave the house, her room became messier and messier until it was the trash heap it was now. Only for the funeral would she come out. Duo was at the door to meet her.
He just couldn't look her straight in the eye. But he stayed by her. The only time he left her side was to give a speech for Heero.
The funeral was beautiful, and dozens of people came. Heero was even awarded the purple heart. But Relena could only stare at the empty casket that lay on the alter.
"Never found his body..." she whispered to herself as if it meant Heero could come back, as if it meant he was not really dead.
Duo held her tight and said sorry one last time.
In Relena's apartment fights kept breaking out between Dorothy and herself.
"You can't keep this house like trash! I live here too!" Dorothy shouted
"So? I don't think it's messy. And if it bugs you so much stay in your room!" she shouted back.
Dorothy bit her lip and yelled finally " Heero wouldn't want you to trash this house!! He worked so hard on it for you!"
Staring at her friend with steely eyes she asked " How would you know what Heero wanted?"
Dorothy had stormed out of the house and Relena hadn't seen her for almost 2 weeks. She was starting to worry and spent nights awake waiting. Finally another call came, this one from Dorothy.
"I can't stand you any more. You've changed Relena... I hate you now..." Dorothy had said over the phone and hung up ending all conversation.
Relena sat with the bear hugging it close. She opened her eyes for a brief moment and walked over to the window. Out side she could almost imagine Heero standing in all the city lights, high above the streets. He smiled at her and all she wanted in the world was to hold him, it didn't matter how. Slowly transfixed on the image of her mind she opened the window of her 4th story apartment, and stepped out the window still clutching the bear.
"Heero..."