a cold wind soars
through vacant halls
thats how i feel inside
i look at you
i look at her
why do i feel so angry
why do i feel so jealous
i feel so guilty
she took my life away from me
pulled the carpet
from under me
left me floating in a void
all alone
i see her get closer to you each day
and i see me being pushed farther away
i lashed out once
and i was scorned
what am i supposed to do
keep my feelings locked inside
and drive myself to suicide
or let it out and scream
and drive you both away
what do i do now
where am i supposed to stand
why cant you see it
im waiting for you to realize
that her love's not evergreen
it wont last
and as i write this
i open every door of my heart
so if this seems slightly selfish
its only because i was torn
apart in all the confusion
not knowing how you feel
or if you care
and if these words will form
a message and if the message
will form a thought and if the thought
will spark an action that will fix things
inside my heart
what if it just passes by
as a fictional tale
or what if you read this
and you don't seem to care
what if you get angry
what if you become sad
what if you dont want to talk to me anymore..
im scared now
and i regret that i've let you read this
because I don't know
if you'll realize
how I feel
inside..
