a cold wind soars

through vacant halls

thats how i feel inside

i look at you

i look at her

why do i feel so angry

why do i feel so jealous

i feel so guilty

she took my life away from me

pulled the carpet

from under me

left me floating in a void

all alone

i see her get closer to you each day

and i see me being pushed farther away

i lashed out once

and i was scorned

what am i supposed to do

keep my feelings locked inside

and drive myself to suicide

or let it out and scream

and drive you both away

what do i do now

where am i supposed to stand

why cant you see it

im waiting for you to realize

that her love's not evergreen

it wont last

and as i write this

i open every door of my heart

so if this seems slightly selfish

its only because i was torn

apart in all the confusion

not knowing how you feel

or if you care

and if these words will form

a message and if the message

will form a thought and if the thought

will spark an action that will fix things

inside my heart

what if it just passes by

as a fictional tale

or what if you read this

and you don't seem to care

what if you get angry

what if you become sad

what if you dont want to talk to me anymore..

im scared now

and i regret that i've let you read this

because I don't know

if you'll realize

how I feel

inside..