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The Angst Challenge of Epic Proportions: Percy/Oliver
Dragons and Monsters
I wanna hide the truth
I wanna shelter you
But with the beast inside
There's nowhere we can hide
-Demons, imagine dragons
It had been difficult to stay away from him but he feared his nature and his history with people he cared about. He always ended up harming them in the end so he was forced to push them away.
For their own good and for the sake of his own conscience.
He was the monster, the beast from fairytales, the one parents warned their children away from. The dragon the knight in shining armour fought to save the princess from.
There was no knight in shining armour this time. He had to learn control, learn not to harm the people he cared about.
He had tried to fight it for so long. Ever since fifth year when he had gone out with that girl from Ravenclaw that he had thought he had liked. He had lasted a week before she had broken up with him in tears because of something he had unwittingly said.
This time he knew for sure that he was the one, the one he never wanted to see hurt. Percy knew though that if he and Oliver did get together, he would end up hurting Oliver as he had done with everyone before him and was sure he would do with everyone after him as well.
He doubted Oliver ever even noticed him. It was better that way. Oliver never needed to know.
His eyes passed over his favourite quote once again.
'Fairy tales are more than true: not because they tell us dragons exist but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten.'
Percy snorted lightly to himself. That quote had kept him going for years but it never mentioned exactly how difficult it was to fight that dragon nor how much worse it was to fight that dragon when the dragon was you.
A glance around the Common Room told him that Oliver wasn't there and was probably having Quidditch practice with the rest of the Gryffindor team. He did not know whether to feel relieved at his lack of presence or not. Relieved that Oliver was not there to torment him with the fact that he would never be his or pained by the fact that he could not see the other boy.
He had hoped that Oliver would have been able to heal him and tame the monster he held with in him but he was scared, scared that he would end up harming the one he sought to protect. Sometimes he wished that Oliver would simply notice him and take his choice away from him but there were times like now when he was glad Oliver barely knew he existed.
He feared the damage he would do to the one he admired from afar.
He would continue living with this monster inside of him and do his best to fight it himself even if it meant he would only ever be able to watch Oliver from afar.
Until that day when the monster was finally defeated and the dragon lay slain.
