Disclaimer:
Me: I do not own Twilight or any of the characters associated with it... blah, blah...
Edward: Well, I wrote it, and I think I have sufficient rights-
Me: -You know what, I wrote it, and you're a fictional character, so you COULD have a very tough past, if I wanted...
Edward: Okay, she does not own the rights to Twilight, and I'm getting hungry, and you smell to appetizing, bye!
Me: I'll hang around Jake next time, that should clear it right up!
Okay, a lot has happened in my life recently, and you know most of it. I mean my life hasn't been totally boring or anything, most of you humans would perhaps find it exciting, but it WAS rather repetitive, to say the least. I really envy humans most of the time, you get one life, and every thing's new and exciting. I, on the other hand, move around, from place to place, repeating high school over and over. The only good thing is to listen to peoples thoughts every once and a while, like some soap opera. I have graduated so many times I don't even learn anything new anymore. And Bella wonders why we took up an interest in cars, not as much as some, but it's one thing that is constantly changing, new things they come up with, and to find out about every day.
On top of that, I don't really know if it's possible for me to go to heaven, so I'm doomed to burn in hell when my second death comes. Okay, so that's how I feel about being a vampire, and now I've doomed Bella to the same fate, and, even worse, I'm enjoying it. Hell, my life has got so much better I don't know what to do with it. Anyway, you know everything that has happened since I met Bella, or from your point of view, when Bella met me.
I was seventeen years old and dying of Spanish influenza in 1918, that was when Carlisle found me, he came to save me as my mother had wished, but he gave a whole new meaning to death for me. I remember being shocked at first when he bit me. He was a doctor and I had no idea what to think. It was excruciatingly painful as I writhed and screamed, and I feel it was really hard on Carlisle too. He was so hurt by what he had done, by watching me suffer. I can't describe it in enough detail for you to understand the intensity of the pain I went through, the venom that seared through my veins, threatening to consume every inch of my being in the scorching flames that racked my body, that changed me, and my life forever. The thing is, I know that Bella felt just like that when I changed her, she says that the morphine worked, but I know her well enough by now to know when she's lying. Yeah, I know I'm supposed to talk about before Bella, but it's been on my chest too long. I just hate the fact I could hurt her and enjoy the results...
Technically, I died then, my heart stopped beating, and I stopped breathing, but I'm still here. With a difference, I am exceptionally appealing to the human eye, glitter in sunlight, have a thirst for blood (especially human), and incredible strength, senses, and speed. Oh, and I can read minds.
So I'm not what you'd call an average 'person'. Okay, I said I'd explain my 'life' as a vampire, I'll get to that now, every one needs an introduction. It's not very easy to start writing about your life, I wonder at the fact so many people can do it, even in diaries.
Firstly, it's incredibly surprising how much I remember of my life since the change, while I have to strain to remember my own mother's face. If you've been curious to know what I did when I wasn't around Bella (as a human), I've tried numerous times to remember my own mother's face. Being so close to a human brought a few memories back, but they had no substance, so I've tried hard to remember her. A few cloudy memories came back when I'd seen Renee, but still not enough...
Hmm... I guess I'm going off the subject a little, yet again, but if I'm telling you my death story, you have to know about my self as a person, it makes it easier for me too...
Author's notes:
Okay, the next chapter WILL be about his life, but he needed an introduction, and I wasn't going to deny him his rambles... PLEASE COMMENT... I want to know what everyone thinks of it. 8^)
