I'm not afraid anymore
(YURI WARNING)
It hurts, you know. You wouldn't understand having to see the only person who you've ever love die so many times over and over. I couldn't protect her. So that's why…
That's why I go on this time cycle so many times over. Because I love her; I would never…I would never let her make that contract; Even if I had to sacrifice myself for her.
I watched her from afar talking to Kyuubey. It hurts. I want to run to her and hold her tight; I wouldn't let anyone else do that. It was another hurtful day, like any other. Madoka walked around and talked to her best friend Sayaka, the only person she seemed close to. I was so jealous; so full of hate. I keep these feelings inside me bottled up. "Do you want to go to the CD store near the station again Madoka?" The blue haired girl smiled big as usual. "Of course I always love going there with you?" The pink haired girl smiled big like she always does. This would be the first step. The first step to her death all over again.
A sudden explosion; just like last time. I came in and saved Madoka. She screamed and told me to let go of her, to leave her alone. She knew nothing. After letting her down she ran home. "Your so creepy!" Sayaka yelled at me. I am creepy. I'm in love with a girl when I'm already female, there's something weird about that isn't there? I didn't plan this out, I just wanted to save her but she's done so much for me but she has no idea. "You'll thank me later." I ran. After I got home I flopped myself onto my bed. I cried. I cried for hours. Am I just too over emotional? Questions spiraled through my thoughts. I'll save her this time. I will.
I went back outside where I watched Kyouko fight. She's my only friend around here, since everyone else is suspicious of me. Her past was much worse than mine, she had it worse than me. I saw her spinning a grief seed around. "Bored again aren't you?" She took a bite out of an apple she was holding. "You know that blue haired one? She's probably going to become a magical girl isn't she?" Kyouko guessed right. "She might." I already knew the answer though. "You know there's something mysterious about you. I mean I've known you for awhile but you're a weird one. What was your wish?" She looked at me seriously. "I…" This hadn't happened in any of the other time loops. For the first time, I didn't know if I should tell her the truth or just put on my mysterious act. I decided. "I wished for time travel."
Hi everyone! It's been a SUPER long time since I've written a fanfic (Like two years!) I'm alive! I will not continue my other fanfics unless there is demand for it (which I'm not expecting) This story will be pretty short (about each this long and like 5 chapters unless my brain goes crazy and I decide to make it longer) Please review if you want to, I LOVE hearing feedback!
