• "A maiden in love become brave without knowing it" Madame de Stael
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Chapter I
ONE HEART'S MATURITY
I just wanted to scream. Scream until my lungs forced me to gasp for air. A problem like this is huge, and more when your dearest lives 500 years in the past. I couldn't believe what i was going to do, but there was nothing more I could think about as a solution. And besides, it was the right thing.
Three months have been passed, and I'm such a coward. I can't take it anymore. The bump between my hips is going to be visible in no time.
C'mon Kagome, you can do it!!, I told to myself. "It's so easy to just say it!" I hissed to my own conscience to hush it. I shuted my eyes, my hands went to my belly.
Inside my wondering mind were a lot of memories. The memories of that night, when I realized that this half demon wasn't the only man on Earth. I replayed in my head his kisses and touches in my body, in my heart. The rage I felt for InuYasha's rejection disappeared. "Who is InuYasha?" I heard my heart saying while his perfect lips found mine.
"Love him, love him, love him. Just this night. Your last night"
Voices in my head repeated every time when I touched his bare, unbelievable chest. And then, his lusting lips kissed my neck...
A shiver ran through my spine. I opened my eyes. My cheeks went crimson red.
What a problem, isn't it? What I, a 15 years-old wench, is going to do with a baby? Yes, a baby. Piece of cake. First, take it to the place it belongs. I sat on my bed and sighed. Love is an incredible thing. A big, cruel thing. I gritted my teeth.
The time has come. I heard my mother's steps in the hallway, coming directly to my room. Did she figured out my problem? Dang! it's now, or never. A dreadful sound broke my throat. This time, I gasped in horror.
"May I come in, Kagome?" My mother asked in her sweet and worried tone. This was like a stab in my heart.
"Of course mother-" I said, trying to correct my face. It was like I was going to shoot myself in any minute. Mom tried to meet my gaze but I couldn't, I couldn't. I failed her, how could I dare to even look at her?
Mom placed both warm on my pale face. I sobbed, this was to much for me.
"Is there something wrong?" She asked in her tone again. And again, she killed me.
"Yes!!-" I managed to say between sobs. "Mom I'm--"
I stopped. At least, I looked at her face. She was very serious, but kind. Mom kissed my forehead. "C'mon dear, tell me"
I took a deep breath and whispered:
"Forgive me-" My dull voice broke, but she waited. Silence. I had no voice, no guts. I breathed again and said: "I'm pregnant"
Pregnant, pregnant, pregnant... an echo in my head stunned me.
Mother's face went blank. Mine was covered with killing tears. And my hands went to my belly, stroking it.
The room was in complete silence, despiting my childish sobs. I just wanted to hear her, to hear her advice! Why she didn't talk?!
"Momma" I said and I took her hand. I was willing her to release from my touch, but she didn't.
"I got to go from here..." I whispered, my tears ran over my face. It angried me. I swept the silly tears with my free hand. I was going to talk again, but her even and silent breathing distracted me, I waited. Finally, mother opened her mouth.
"Since when?" momma said, but she was staring at nothing.
"That doesn't matter, what matter is what it-- " I told her, she shook her head.
"Who is the father?" she whispered. This time she met my eyes."It's I-InuYasha??" she asked bewildered.
"NO! .No." I almost yelled. InuYasha would never see me again. Never. I made a frown.
"So...?" My confused mom mumbled. I made a pause. I found no words to explain. What should I say?
Mother, the father of my baby is a demon, a full fledged demon, awesome isn't it?. Even though of his nature, he's very kind and powerful. I know he loves me, and I know I love him.
Yeah, so easy. Just as another boy next-door.
I cleared my throat and muttered: "My baby's father is a d-demon" I closed my eyes...
"Kagome?! what on Ear--!!" Momma yelled with an uneven respiration. I placed both hands on my ears.
"Because of that I have to go!!, I'm bearing a half-demon!! He or she have no chance to be happy here and--" I cried. Stupid, hot tears wept my cheeks.
I started to cry so hard, and mother surrounded me with her arms.
"I'm sorry." I sobbed in her ear. I hugged her so hard, I needed to fell her support, her mother love. My farewell.
"I love you, I love you no matter what." She told me with her chin resting on my head. I felt a warm drop in my head. A tear. My voice broke. "Mom!"
"I know you're so mature Kagome. I know you really love this being you gave your love." Momma said hugging me tightly to her chest. Little puppy complained, and I smiled at his little kick. "I'll miss you." Mother said.
"Oh mom!! I'll miss you too!" I cried. "I love you so much. But I know is the right thing."I said wrapping my arms around little puppy.
"It is." she ended and I nodded.
I took a nap and a shower before leaving. I packed the basics and a lot of comfortable clothes. Maternity isn't that great, and I really wonder if bearing a hybrid is the same as a human. I doubt it. More power, more pain. Ouch.
Sota took my packs and other useful things (like shampoo) to the shrine and placed them next to the bone eater's well. Mom brought food and other supplies to the shrine too. I just prayed underneath the Sacred Tree for my baby's sake. I want him or her to be really happy. To be accepted, starting from his father. What a wish, I sighed.
"If there is any way you can return..." Mom started."Please come, we want to meet our new baby." Mom smiled and kissed my cheek. I kissed back.
"Farewell, my dear Kagome." Said grandpa and hugged me. I turned to Sota, who was very sad to meet my gaze.
"I'll miss you sis, bye nephew or niece." and he glomped me carefully, petting my belly.
"I love you bro." I said and kissed his head.
"Farewell family, pray for our happiness" I took my stuff and threw them inside the well. I turned to face mom. she kissed my forehead and said "We will."
I nodded and turned to the well, staring at it several minutes. There's no other thing I can do. Hello Feudal Era. Then I closed my eyes, while throwing myself inside the deep, ravenous well...
