Bella had always wanted to become a mother, it was hard for her to see other mothers with their young walking the streets or getting ice cream at the local diner. She was currently in the middle of a divorce after anger laced arguments and threats of physical violence her and Edward decided to call it off. They had been married for 6 years, high school sweethearts who thought they had the world at their fingertips but they wanted a baby, something to call their own.

Negative pregnancy test after negative pregnancy test sent them both into a spiraling depression. Every time that little stick had those offensive words "not pregnant", she wanted to scream and cry. How could the world be so cruel to her? Rounds and rounds of IVF treatments failed also and one resulted in a heartbreaking miscarriage. She had pretty much given up on hopes of becoming a mother, especially when Edward had decided enough was enough and she woke up to bags packed and returned keys. Bella knew she should have seen it coming, it was only a matter of time before he would have left her, she wondered why he had not done it sooner? After all, the appointment was last Monday, the appointment where she learned that her body was not able to hold a child and her chances of an actual pregnancy lasting were 1 in 10,000.

Monday, another day for Bella. She worked at Lears corporation a top notch bitch in the industry. Her co workers all respected her and she was always down to business when there, it was a manufacturing and printing company and they often sponsored other businesses.

Arriving to work Bella threw her keys on top of her desk muttering to herself that she needed a life. She was interrupted by a knock at the door and an over hyper pixie danced into the room.

"Good morning Bella!" She sang, way too cheerful for 8 in the morning.

"Hi Alice"

"Here are today's schedule along with the folders you need to fill out before the meeting."

"Alright, I will get right on that," Bella muttered trying to get a raging migraine she was having away for the time being

"Bella are you alright? You haven't seemed yourself lately" Alice observed earning a glare from the brunette

"Alice, work and private are separate."

"I know that but you need to let some things out, I know it hasn't been easy since he left. Tell you what, 12 o'clock, martyrs on Baker."

"If you want Alice" Bella muttered. She loved Alice but sometimes she got into peoples business that wasn't hers. She didn't really want to meet up for lunch with Alice but she decided to humor her. The rest of the morning went by slowly, four hours and 2 cups of coffee later Bella was on her way to meet up with Alice. She punched the address of the restaurant into her GPS, not having been there before. She pulled into one of the parking stalls and shut the car off, thinking back to the day of her miscarriage. She wasn't sure why she was thinking of it but it plagued her mind time and time again.

Flashback

Laying on the bed she was nuzzled into Edwards' chest, her hand naturally was rested on her still flat stomach. She was only 5 weeks along and to her, this was her miracle baby. She alternated fingers, skimming up and down her stomach still trying to digest that there was something actually there growing inside of her.

"I love you" Edward murmured in her ear, brushing his fingers through her hair as he hummed her lullaby.

The next morning, she wasn't feeling well and her heart told her what was happening. She stayed in the bathroom watching as the blood spilled out of her. She cried for this little life that was never going to be, that would never take its first breaths or see the sunlight. A pounding on the door brought her out of her thoughts and hesitantly she opened it. Edward soon had her in his arms as he sighed, no words were spoken and none were needed. Bella felt more empty that she had with the other fails. Maybe it was because she actually held this life inside of her for a little while, gotten an attachment, a bond that could never and would never be broken,

Secretly she had named the baby Angela, convinced it was a girl. She had gone into shutdown mode and not even Edward could bring her out of it. She became an alcoholic so to speak with her work and was barely home. Home reminded her of all her losses and the life she had just gotten to know.

End of flashback

"Alice!" Bella greeted as she entered the restaurant. Alice was leaning against the wall, putting her phone into her pocket as she saw Bella approach. They took a seat at a table positioned against the far wall by the bay window.

"So what did you want to talk about?" Bella asked trying to sound like she couldn't already guess.

"Bella, whats going on? I can see right through your tough act." Alice said cutting right to the chase

"Alice, I don't see how this concerns you any" Bellas tone harsh

Alice reached across the table, taking Bella's hand in hers. "Bella" she started, "you are my friend and I know something isn't right. Please just tell me"

Bella sighed. Maybe this was her chance to get it all out, not to hide anything. For the past 6 months since the miscarriage she had shut everyone out and hardened up and it got worse after Edward left, 3 months later.

"It's been very hard, Edward and I had been trying for a baby and it just never happened even after numerous IVF treatments" she paused. "And then I got pregnant, held onto the baby for 5 precious weeks that I will always cherish."

"I'm so sorry Bella"

"My marriage went downhill from there, Edward left me 3 months later. I don't know what to do."

"Work has been your escape I presume?"

"Yes, very much so."

"Bella, I know this would sound crazy but I could carry a baby for you. No, I want to"

"Alice, I-"

"I've done it before Bella"

"You have?"

"Yeah before I started working for you, I carried a baby for my cousin. I still have contact with them."

"I would let you have contact, I mean I see you all the times anyway."

"Would you let me do this for you?"

"Let me think about it alright?"

Leaving the restaurant, Bella had a lot to think about. Maybe it was time for her to let someone help her with this journey. She felt like a failure, she couldn't even do the one thing a woman was made to do. But she wanted a baby more than anything and she was going to do whatever it took.