The unknown

Some say the world will end in fire.

Some say in ice.

From what I've tasted of desire,

I hold with those who favor fire.

But if I had to perish twice,

I think I know enough of hate

To say that for destruction of ice,

Is also great and would suffice.

~ Robert Frost

Bella's p.o.v

Death is easy. But living, that's another story. It is cold wet and dark, in Washington. Great… But I've come to like it. It is like my heart. I've become just nobody. And I could really care less. But I know that one things for sure. You will never ever see me fall for anyone ever again.

The first day I saw him I admit that I fell for him hard. I loved him, to death and I got to know him and his family, and I loved them too, especially Alice, Jasper, and Emmett. But I'm not so sure about Rosalie; I don't think she liked me much. The feeling is mutual. But after we were together for a while, I loved him. But he left a few days ago; he said, " It will be as if I never existed". He was wrong.

I think about when everything wasn't a living nightmare. I can't remember. My heart is gone; now in its place is a big black hole in my chest, threatening to tear me apart.

It hurts to cry, let alone feel anything I miss the Cullens excluding him. But the days pass me by in a blur… and I can't really forget them. His family didn't want him to leave because that meant that they would go to, to comfort him.

School, huh, it seems isn't going by fast enough. I've talked to Jacob here and there, but nothing helps. I'm just a body, a helpless being, that doesn't care what she looks like anymore, because she has nothing to look forward to anymore. Life seems boring, no reason to live, when there's nothing keeping you alive. And what are you supposed to do when the one who broke your heart, is the only one who can fix it?