Hi, this is my first story. So go easy on my. Sorry if the spelling is crappy. :P
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I lied in my room, just starring out the window. I closed my eyes. A tear leaked trough and made its way down my chin. I didn't bother to whip it away. It hurt so much. My breat hitched. I knew what was comming. I wrapped my hands around myself. It feelt like it was a hole inside myself. Why did Edward leav? I coulden't hold myself togeter anny longer. I stambel myself to the toilet. Charlie was fast asleep in his room. I let go of myself whit one hand and found the sicor. I prayed the other hand from my chest and pressed the sicor agenst my wrist. My blood flowed out, it was a realis. My breathing went back to normal. Funny that i didn't past out. Maby it was that I had done it so many times now. I didn't know. I don't know anything anymore. I began to shred silens tears. I couldn't live like this anymore. I looked down on all the scars I had on my arm. I ran one finger over them. It was comterbal. I pressed my finger to my cut. I leand back to the wall and glide down. It was now 12 months since Edward left. Jacob had inprinted and left me. Everyone at school saw me as a freak, maybe I was. Renèe had died in a car acsident 4 months ago. The only reason I lived now was Charlise. But after Henry had died, he and Suse had began deating. Sierlusy, I don't see way I still live. My breathing picked up agein. But my mind was sett.
I was going to kill myself.
My tears began to roll agein, but this time it was from happines, happines for that the pain would soon stop. I walked in to my room and found a paper and a pen. Then I wrote;
Dear dad.
I love you, never dubb that. To com here was the best thing that have happend to me. But I can't live like this anymore. I'm going to kill myself. Don't look after me, I don't want you to see me like that. Remember: I love you. Look after Suse, she is good for you.
Godbay dad
Lots of love
Isabella.
I coulden't see anymore. But I got up and made my way to the door. Downstears I found Charlie's gunn. I took it and made my way to my just before I started it, I changed my mind. I walked out in the wood instead. I walked and walked.
When it had gone 6 hours I stopped. I sat against a big stone. I looked up in the sky and thought of Edward. Let every thought in my head fill whit Edward. After a while I lifted the gun up to my head and shoot.
Home, Charlie let a piece of paper fly to the floor.
