A/N: this is my first story so don't be too harsh......heres chappy one!
Disclaimer: Yay!! Woot!! Wahoo!! it's a disclaimer!!! Since this is a disclaimer I'm just gonna go ahead and say I don't own Twilight or Bella or Edward or Alice or "Thats what you get" or "Helena" blah blah blah........
Claimer: I do own plot.
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On the Brite Side
1. What you get
Bella's POV
Sometimes I just sit down and think, "What if he never left?", "What if he still loved me?", and then I think "Well that's life for you; get everything you ever wanted then have it all ripped away". Well I had more than all I ever wanted; it was all I'll ever have. I was depressed, but time heals wounds and it has been a long time. I'm not crying as often, and the screaming in my sleep has faded. That day when I realized that I was a zombie, I woke up inside. It made me realize how I centered my life around him and it left me, well crushed and dead-inside. I learned my lesson and I have forbid myself to think of what happened. I forbid myself to be like him. When I saw what I had become I changed myself. I threw out everything that reminded me of him, and changed anything that made me like him. Somehow my life seemed to get better, in a way.
I was truly changed inside and until today I never quite new how much I truly hate him now….….
------------------------Earlier that day--------------------------------
As usual I went to all my morning classes, today was actually a good day so far if I say so myself. After he left I turned into a zombie, but eventually snapped out of it. Most of my friends welcomed me back except Jessica and Lauren; they never forgave me for those zombie days. Angela is still my friend, my best friend. Now we have almost every class together and are inseparable.
I saw Angela down the hall.
"Hey, Ange"
"Hi, Bella"
"So what's up?"
"Uhh, nothing really"
Angela isn't a very convincing liar…..
"Nothing. Really? Come on, something's up"
"Oh okay, fine. Well…"
"Well?" I said teasingly.
"Ben asked me out"
"Oh, good for you"
"Yeah I know!!"
"Tell me everything!!!!" Cue the little school girl giggling.
"Well, when he asked me out he was nervous, but in a cute kind of way and,"
Then, I noticed something, weird was I having a nightmare? No, I wasn't, but it can't be real I don't want it to be real.
"Bella? Bella? What are you-oh, my, god"
He was there, in my class sitting in the seat behind mine. Well, I am not going to put up with him.
"Bella are you okay?"
"Yeah I'm fine"
So, I walked in and sat down not saying a word.
"Hello, Bella"
"I don't want to hear it" I said without moving.
If he says one more word to me I'll, well I don't know what I'll do.
"Bella" Now he's done it. I turned around.
"WHAT???????"
"Can we talk?"
Now I'm really pissed off.
"No!"
"Why not?"
"Ok, fine. What do you want Edward?!?! Do you want me to say I have been waiting for you to come back? Do you want me to say I still love you?" The teacher interrupted us.
"Okay, class today we'll be doing an experiment on….."
Well I wasn't paying attention to the teacher or whatever experiment we were doing. I quietly turned on my I-pod, and put on my favorite playlist.
Long ago
Just like the hearse
You die to get in again
We are so far from you
Burning on get like a match
You strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take
From every heart you break
And like the blade you stain
Well I've been holding on tonight……..
--------------------------------After Class-------------------------------------
"Bella"
"Look Edward-" he cut me off.
"No, I get it. You shouldn't love me, I deserve this"
"No, Edward you don't get it. I have suffered because of you-"
He cringed.
"And, I don't intend on suffering any longer"
"Bella, you don't understand me, though I left-" I cut him off.
"Edward you left because you though it was safer well, now I'm safe.
"Well, I realize how irrational I was and-"
I tried again.
"Irrational?!?!? No it was absurd, specious, and well STUPID! You say you were thinking of me and you left for my protection, well by doing that you left me entirely unprotected! You say that you did it for me and you love me well now I don't want you, anymore. And, I don't feel bad for you, you get what you deserve" With that said I left him speechless in the hallway. I could see the hurt in his eyes and he deserved it.
I heard the mumbling of everyone around me.
"Oh my god,"
"Whoa,"
And the classic, "ZOMG"
I suddenly felt so much better; my good day just became a great day. I turned on my I-pod; I heard the familiar song from Paramore "That's what you get". So I walked with a huge smile on my face to my next class.
No sir
Well I don't want to be the blame, not anymore
It's your turn, so take a seat
We're settling the final score
And why do we like to hurt so much?
I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why?
All the possibilities…….
Well I was wrong
"You okay?"
"Oh, yeah I'm fine"
"You sure?"
"Yes"
"That was, quite a show….."
"Sorry I had to get my point across"
"Okay, well see you later"
"Bye"
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa!
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa…….
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa!
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The songs used in this chappy: "That's what you get" by Paramore and "Helena" by My Chemical Romance
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