1I can't seem to understand what's going on. There is a new girl in Konoha. Sasuke has fallen in love with her at first sight. She has light blue hair, wears a gray dress, and has golden eyes and pale skin. Her name is Lani. I still love Sasuke so much, I can't bear it if he loves another person. I feel as though my heart is breaking in two pieces, and I'm falling in the gap right through the middle. I feel very unloved. I mean, Rock Lee and Naruto USED to like me, but that brings me no consolation now. Rock Lee is trying desperately to win Gai's approval and Tenten's love, and Naruto is dating Hinata.
Oh my dearest Sasuke! I am scared these days. I cannot say I know who to trust or why to trust them. I can't even trust you these days...and I want to trust you so desperately, but I can't. You had said you would love me forever a long time ago, but now you have broken that promise that has bound me to you. Now I am cut off. I feel only pain, nothing more. Not even Naruto with all his lame jokes can make me smile anymore. I used to think you would keep your promises, being an Uchiha and all, but I can see now that I was wrong. I don't mean to be this way, but you have hurt me so badly, I cannot help it. That is why I look like this these days.
My pink hair is all stringy and uncombed. My emerald eyes are dull and red, from nights of endless crying. I have grown thinner these days, so thin I cannot even wear my red dress anymore. The shuriken holster just slips off my leg when I try to put it on. I do not wear the Leaf headband anymore, just a black piece of cloth to hold my hair back. I do not even know what the word laughter means anymore. My eyebrows are usually furrowed in a look of pain and anxiety and not happiness like they used to be. I am a loner now, not a social butterfly like I used to be. I am like you Sasuke, like you were before, which is the exact opposite of what I want to be.
I can't stand you and Lani being together. It just pains me. I do not want any help from other Konohans right now, especially you. I am not saying that I hate you, Sasuke, in fact, it's the very opposite. But you can't seem to realize that. People say that the Uchiha clan was nicknamed the Genius Clan. Well...right now, I don't think you're such a genius. You were my idol when we were Genin. You still are now. But if I can't make you realize that I truly love you like nobody else, then what else can I do? I'd rather die than be alive and watch you and Lani kiss each other and caress each other so caringly. And you seem to forget that ever since the great tragedy when my mother died that I started to live with you. You don't even look at me anymore when I greet you when you get home. You don't talk to me anymore, and when you do, it's in a cold voice, like I'm interrupting your thoughts about Lani.
I can't say that I like you anymore, but I still love you. Loving you is the only joy I get out of this cold, cruel world. But if you love Lani, I wouldn't want to spoil your fun. And besides, before you made the broken promise, you always said I was annoying all the time. Am I still that way now? I've changed a lot Sasuke. We all know that. Even Kakashi can tell. You may have said that Naruto was an oblivious fool back when we were fighting Orochimaru and the team from Sound during the Chuunin exams, but that isn't true anymore. These days, it's you who's the oblivious fool.
Most of the people in Konoha are very concerned about me, all except you and Lani. Even Ino Yamanaka, my rival forever, has come to see me and tried to cheer me up. And Kakashi-sensei has even shown up on time these days, or earlier, to try to cheer me up. Do you know why this is happening to me, Sasuke Uchiha? This is happening to me because of you. I love you, but now...I don't know what to say.
