I am Ruby. Sometimes, I wonder what it would be like to open up my wrists and leave the pain in my life. Would I go to heaven? Is there really a heaven or would I just not exist anymore? Thats what has kept me on this earth for 18 years. The uncertainty. If I knew that I would go to heaven, I would go without any hesitation. But here I am now, in my empty house without parents that care and with a knife slowly cutting into my bicep. I wake up early every day to cut myself. It offers me an escape from the countless bullies and beatings. I ponder skipping school for what seams to be the hundredth time but my mom would have a fit and next thing you know, I would have a hand slamming into my cheek. Sometimes it would be a fist but that was reserved for when I did something really bad.

I groan as the alarm on my phone indicates I have to go to school. I walk down the hallway I must have walked thousands of times to the bathroom to wash out the blood as well as to take a shower. I always hoped that one day if I showed up to school one day smelling and looking nice that the bullying would stop. If only it was that easy. I laughed to myself. Something I rarely did.

The warm water runs through my curly hair and my open wounds stinging a little but I had grown use to it. I get out slowly, retreating from the warmth to put on a towel. I walk back to my room to put on my best clothes. I look at the pair of clothes that had always been my favorite. Then I saw the blood all over them from previous cuttings. I had to settle for something else. I put on my converse along with skinny jeans and a jacket that was from my freshman year when I played basketball. That was the benefit of being short. You dont grow a lot so you can wear clothes for a long ass time without having to buy new ones. Sure this one was a little small in length but it worked. I slowly made my way down stairs to the front door to hop into my red jeep. I check my phone and see Amethyst had texted me asking where I was. I was supposed to pick her up but sometimes I could really not care less. Amethyst was my friend sure but we had started to grow apart after she learned about what I did to myself. I thought real friends were supposed to stick with you through thick and thin but I didnt care.

I quickly drove over to Amethyst's house and parked outside her door. Before I could text her she was out the door and in my car. She looked straight forward not saying a word.

"What no hi?" I said trying to lighten the mood and make a conversation.

"Drive." Amethyst said looking straight at Me.

"Why we arent gonna be la-"

"Drive now!" Amethyst said as her dad came out and started running towards the car.

I wasted no time punching the gas and peeling down the street as her dad threw a bottle at our car hitting the metal just under my window. We were silent for a few minutes before I spoke again

"What the fuck was that?" I said in a quiet tone. I was still kinda in shock from what had just happened.

"I was just keeping to myself and the fucker comes into my room talking about how im so disrespectful to him because hes my step dad so I tell him to get out and he tries to get up in my face. Me having anger issues, I try to leave and he follows me I push him down the stairs and run outside." She said in such a nonchalant tone. This had happened probably once a week for the past few years. It was no secret that Amethyst hated her step dad but this was a little over the top even for her.

"Thats surprising even for you Amethyst." I said almost in a mom like tone

"Not as surprising as you actually picking me up for once. Like whats with that?" She said. Yes it had been probably over a month since I even picked her up.

"I dont know. Maybe just a spur of the moment thing. Just be glad that I did though." I said with a little chuckle. She better be grateful.

"Yes! Thank god you showed up when you did. I ran out and saw your car and thought the angels had blessed me." Both of us shared a little laugh as we pulled into the school parking lot.

I noticed something at that moment. I was in a good mood for the first time in months at school. Usually I would sit around lifeless with my ear buds in. The teachers had given up on me months ago. But as I got out of my jeep, I walked into school with a smile on my face and a new flame lit in my friendship with Amethyst.

"Hey, I know we havent talked in a while but have you started seeing anyone?" Amethyst asked me. Typical of her. She always wanted to know about who was with who. Sure I had my crushes but I hadnt been in a relationship with anyone she 9th grade and the only reason she had dated Lapis is so they could fuck over and over. They had done it too many times to count over the summer. Lapis breaking up with her was what had started this huge stage of depression in her life.

"No Im not actually. You know what I have been doing to myself. No girl would stick with me after they found out about my past." I chucked thinking Amethyst would laugh with me but she looked directly at me with a serious look.

"Then you dont know what a true relationship is Ruby. I think there is a girl who would love to get to know you better."

"Amethyst the master of love advice." That got a laugh out of the purple girl.

"Hell yeah I am." She said after a fit of laughter "But seriously, can you at least talk to her?"

"Yeah I will talk to her." Amethyst seemed to have a little victory after that.

"Great lets go see her." I froze, surely she didn't mean right now did she?

"Wait right now?

"Yes lets go shes waiting for you."

We walked down to the library and when we walked in, I saw her. Sitting at a table towards the back. Bangs covering her eyes but the rest of her face in a concentrated look as she was studying from a big textbook laid out on the table.

"Alright go get her tiger." Amethyst said as she turned to leave. I grabbed her arm.

"Wait arent you staying with me while I talk to her?" Hoping I had changed her mind

"No I dont want to ruin chemistry by being a third wheel. Have Fun." She said leaving my grasp.

"Wait Amethyst!" I hissed through my teeth as she left. I gulped as I turned to the girl whos head was now tilted up from her book and though I couldn't see her eyes I knew she was staring right at me. I walked to where she was sitting and took a seat across from her.

Here I was sitting with a random girl I didnt know but my friend thought we could go well together. We honestly looked completely different. I was red and she was blue. She looked happy and quiet while I was sad and depressed. She gave me a smile and spoke with the softest sweetest voice I had ever heard.

"Hello, my name is Sapphire. Whats yours?"

A/N: Hey this is my first story ever. Hope you enjoyed it. Feel free to tell me what you think should happen later in the story or give me advice. Any constructive criticism is welcome. Have a wonderful day and see you next time.