He was gone. And by the looks of he wasn't coming back. How was I going to live without him. I love him and I think I always will love him. I'll never forget him. I can't understand how he thinks that by taking everything that reminded me him I'll forget about him. Did he think when I said I loved him that it was actually some type of game. How could he even think of me to be as shallow as to forget about him because the gifts he gave me and the pictures of us aren't here. He holds my heart. And he took them all with him. He took my best friends with him. How am I going to get through this? We made it through being attacked by James. We made it through our initial meeting. And it was my fault anyways. I feel so guilty that he made them leave because of me it was their home to stay. I want to go stay with my mother but what if he come back and I'm not here? Then he'll really think that I forgot about him. He thinks that he is doing it to protect me but I wonder if he realizes he is hurting me more by leaving me. I have no one now it seems. I go out and drive around to make Charlie think I'm not the lifeless shell I'm slowly becoming. I wonder if Edward know how much pain I'm in and that I'll never heal because he's wrong time doesn't heal all wounds. It doesn't matter whether you are a human or a vampire you still feel emotions and they will always leave scars that will never heal. I hope he realizes that before I lose myself to my grief. Because I fear that soon there will be nothing left of the Bella Swan he left in the woods all those weeks ago. I hope he realizes this before its too late.