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I held up the rumpled, smoke-stained papers directly in front of Clancy, high enough for the ring of Psi and agents around us to see them, too. And I don't know what was more powerful and gratifying to me-the look of terror that swept across his face, or the exhilaration of knowing I finally had my future back in my own hands.

"You mean this research?"

I wake up inside a stationary car parked at the side of a gas station with beads of sweat on my forehead. This definitely doesn't look like blown up HQ. I unfasten my seat belt and grasp my head. I have an excruciating headache. Everything looks so familiar, especially this car. I look out the window and see a tan SUV coming ahead. Before I could see who is coming out the door I feel someone poking my shoulder from the opened car door in the backseat to the left.

"Hey, you okay?" I see that it's Cate. Thank heavens I was starting to think Clancy drugged or mind raped me. She lowers her hand to my forehead and says, "That medicine must've really gotten to you. You fell asleep for almost three hours after you had woken from another nap."

What? My body jerks and I feel a different fabric of clothing.I slip my hands into my coat pocket and realize I'm not wearing mine. The cure.Then reality strikes me. I glance down and see that I'm in my old Thurmond uniform. Oh My God. It's as if horror is written all over my expression.

"Where am I? Why am I in a uniform? Is everyone safe? Is Jude okay?" My throat tightens. Jude. He was my responsibility. Cate looks at me dumbfounded.

"What are you talking about? I just got you out of camp. You're safe now and Jude? What?" Cate regards me with confusion, but also a hint of suspicion. This is some dirty trick Clancy did. I slip into Cate's mind without touching her and only seem to locate her old memories. I try finding more recent ones...and nothing. She barely knows me. All I see is her and Rob together, the fire at a house where Vida must've been, more childhood memories, her speaking with Alban, and….. wait. Did Clancy clear her memories? But, that's not possible! He's not able to! Or I thought he couldn't.

I start hyperventilating, clenching my eyes, imagining a range of scenarios where Clancy possibly wiped everyone's memories and took the cure, taking away the country's chance of healing itself, and the many children's lives at stake.

Until Cate pats my arm and sighs, "You must've had some dream kid. Well, come on we gotta get you cleaned up," She hands me the exact backpack and continues, "Martin is in the station's bathroom right now so let's just hope he left you some water," she smiles. "Oh and I have a friend you need to meet." What in blazes is going on? Martin? I haven't seen the little pervert since I escaped Cate the first time. And Cate is acting like we first met…...Wait. Oh wow this is just rich.

I follow Cate outside and notice that she's jogging towards someone. And I tremble. No, this is a dream, I'm unconscious, and this is my worst nightmare. She affectionally hugs Rob and kisses him. I sort of suspect where I am now because of all the deja vu, but frankly, I'd rather run with the fact that I must be going mad. I pinch my neck with brute force to wake myself up, and feel the tingle as a drop of blood trickles down. Yep, I can feel pain, and I'm bleeding. Just great. I also smell dirty and probably look dirty. Though that's the least of my problems now. I see Cate and Rob exchange sad glances, but I already know what they're talking about. At this time I never knew why Cate was with Rob, but she told me she was with him to know what was going on in the League and him. Cate calls my name.

I shyly walk up to them and say "Hi." Rob grins and puts out his hand to shake mine. I can't choose between slapping him across the face or profusely beg for his forgiveness for intentionally torturing him to death. I still feel guilty. I am. But what he did to those kids, and possibly more, is unforgivable. I warily accept it and keep my gaze on his eyes. I truly wish this were a dream, because I don't think I could cope.

"Hi Ruby, my name is Rob. I see that Thurmond has been hiding all the pretty ones." He smiles and I can't help but feel a shiver crawling up my spine.

"Total heart breaker right? She'll be perfect for inside jobs. Who could say no to that face? An Orange." This truly is a total case of deja vu. Before Rob has that chance to whistle (I don't bother asking if Norah's alright because it's pointless), I politely ask, "Can I go get ready? Martin probably used up the sink." I give him a small smile. Though not without appearing insecure. I need to keep that weak persona I had when I left camp. God, I was so vulnerable all the time. Even though the Children's League took her away from Liam, they taught her how to mask her feelings and be stronger.

Cate gives me a nod and leads me to the station's store. She opens the door wide and points to where the bathroom is placed for me to get situated. They really don't expect us to escape. Though, looking through a logical standpoint it would be foolish to do so since they were our saviors. I shake my head. I have more things to worry about. As soon as I enter the store, I look for the stationery section and find a couple post-it notes. I use a cracked pencil and write,

"Dear Cate,

I don't know how to explain anything since I don't know what's happening. Make sure Jude, Vida, and Nico are safe at HQ and keep them away from Rob. Always stay near Rob when he's near any psi kids. Also be wary of Alban's safety, some agents at the League don't like some of his views. I promise I'll be back soon.

See you later gator,

-Ruby"

It was pretty much all I can think of to write, considering I don't remember too much occurring when I escaped the first time. I had to write small on the front of the tiny blue post-it. I folded the post-it and wrote Cate's name on it. I sneak out the back door and stick it on the driver's door of the rear-view mirror, of the car Cate drove me in. I know she would find it there.

When I scurry back to the trail I went, I almost cry when I see her. It's Zu. She's rummaging through the snacks for bags of chips. "Zu," I thought. More like accidentally said out loud.

Author: I'm sorry I abandoned this story. I edited it a bit and right now it will go on a slight hiatus because I'd like to reread the series and reevaluate what I plan to write. I also want to further continue my Divergent story. I know I said I would update before, but I had a lot going on in my life and didn't have the time or mindset to do so. Thank you, and I hope you'll still follow this.

:D Sammiemarie