I couldn't sleep and my laptop was downstairs so I typed this on my phone. Write what you know I guess. Hope you enjoy it.
She had always been there for me. She helped me realize what I could become, a warrior like my ancestors. That's all I ever wanted and with her help I wasn't some cheat who lied about his abilities. I still am but now I can prove them wrong and say I belong here. But, where is here. Ever since the fall we've all lost the closest thing we had to a home and now it's starting to become more of a memory with each passing day.
I tried to be strong, not just for the group but for me and for her. She would have wanted me to. I just wish I could have talked with her one last time. A kiss followed by a free locker ride is not the greatest of goodbyes. Oh great I'm crying again. Let's hope the paper doesn't crumple like last time.
I'm no leader. I'm getting better but I'm far from it. I just... I just need her help. I need to hear her voice again. The videos are starting to lose their touch. I've heard her say she cares so many times but... all I want. All I've ever wanted was for her to be happy. I realize that now. But now all I can do is honor her memory and keep her close.
The new shield and armor helps. Sometimes... wether I'm training or I'm in a battle... it feels likes she's there with me. Guiding my hand. Raising my shield.
But some days she feels so far away. Sometimes it's almost like it's been a lifetime.
Oh I hope I made her happy during her time here.
I love you Pyyrha
