Uh, hey there! I'm super new to the Half Bad fandom. As in, I found the books by fluke at the library and read them in under a week. And I bawled my eyes out at the end of Half Lost, because how can you do that to someone who deserves to be happy? Geez.. Anyway, I dont feel I do these guys any justice, but I had to contribute. So, here you go! Takes place while they're going to see Ledger and spend the night in Mercury's bunker.

I don't own the characters, I wish I did because Nathan would be happy at the end.

One-shot. Some not so graphic boyxboy sex. You've been warned.


Maybe bringing Nathan to the bedroom and undressing him was not one of my best ideas. We're both pretty messed up right now. But it feels so good. Lips, teeth, tongue. Body against body. Nathan isn't fighting me anymore.

Slowly, clothes fall away, and we're naked, and still kissing, still body against body. As I place kisses against Nathan's neck, and push closer against him, I realize that Nathan has never been with a boy. I have, but not like this. Everywhere that Nathan touches feels like it's burning. And it's good. So, so good.

I shift, move to enter Nathan, do enter him. And it's amazing. I glance up, to kiss him again, and see tears on his cheeks. Of pain? Happiness? Sadness? My poor, beautiful Nathan. I kiss the tears away, and Nathan hides his face against my neck, placing soft kisses there. We move in sync with each other, and Nathan says my name quietly against my skin.

He tries half heartily to leave marks, and probably doesn't, but it feels good, and I can't even mange to get his name out.

Afterwards, we're both covered in each other's sweat, Nathan lays curled in my arms. It's hot and sweaty, but it's so, so, good, and eventually I fall asleep. My Nathan held tightly in my arms, finally.

I wake suddenly. Nathan is still wrapped securely in my arms. The blanket and sheet and pillows are covered in sweat. I'm not sure what woke me, but then Nathan says my name in his sleep again. I kiss his shoulder, his neck, his arm, his cheek. Eventually he wakes, and our lips meet, and we kiss, and kiss and kiss, until Nathan wants more, and I give in to him willingly.

After, I kiss his cheek, the scar there. And I move down, and I kiss each scar in turn, because they make Nathan who he is, and he is beautiful and I love him. I kiss, and kiss, and kiss until Nathan falls asleep again.

I wrap him in my arms, and hold him close, not wanting right now to end. Right now we are almost happy, and it would be nice if things would just stay like that for awhile. For forever. Because Nathan deserves to be happy.

I feel a flutter, and I wake but don't open my eyes. Nathan kisses my shoulder. Then he moves and kisses along my chest before laying his head down. Listening to my heart. He lets out a soft sigh, and I know he's happy.

At least for now, instead of half lost, we're half found.