PROLOGUE
Dear Diary,
Have you ever forgiven someone? Have you ever forgiven someone that nearly ruined your life? Have you ever thought of forgetting your past and start a new life with the new found source of happiness? I didn't know. I didn't know what to feel. Anger? Sadness? Happiness? What emotion should I portray? What feelings should I let to flow off my body? What if I'll suddenly feel a spark on my heart and do things that's not according to my plans and let my life and my heart get destroyed again? I'm scared. So scared. Did I really want this? Did I really want revenge? It's true that he hurt me long time ago but...that feelings had been blown by the wind ages ago. I'm sure I didn't love him anymore, I'm sure that my attention and heart was just only for Amie. I'm sure I already moved on...
But what is this? What the hell am I feeling right now? Why am I feeling ...nervous? I'm sure I love Amie and she's the only one I'll love till death but... what's wrong with me? I wanted to see him sorry and accept it and hug him and... Continue what we'd started. But no, of course I can't do that. I hate him, really hate him, he ruined my life! He already left me! He... he... He doesn't want me anymore...
Yet...
I wanted him...
-M.
Dear stupid Diary,
I'm good. That Spanish bastard was stupid as hell! He's stupid! So stupid! He's so dumb! So dumb that he could leave someone like me...I HATE HIM! I HATE THAT SPANISH BASTARD WITH ALL OF MY GUTS! NO MATTER WHAT I'LL NEVER FORGIVE HIM!
But why do I keep on dreaming about you? Why do I keep on having episodes about you and me, happy, happy like we have no time thinking about future, smiling brightly in each other's arms?
Happily in love with each other?
FFFFFUUUUUCCCCCKKKKK! I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE YOU! SPANISH BASTRAD!
-R.
Dear Diary,
Today, I'm sure you'll be sorry for what you've done. Frog.
-A.
I'm not a native American speaker that's why I'm so sorry for Grammar mistakes and misspelled words!
