A/N: Alright, I now I'm late, but I going to try to catch up today. My part of the world has bee quite hectic. Any ways, this is my first attempt at a romance so I hope it goes well. Also it is all ONE story as said in the summary. I want to see how I can weave it. Also, the theme's are underlining parts, the story is going to use them as key elements and plot tools but not as actual things. I hope that makes sense... I apologize for any OCC-ness but I want to grow a bond between the two. Also I've made it so Link only stalks Allen on missions for plot sake. Please enjoy my yullen week fic~
Disclaimer: Don't own -Man in any way, shape or form. Yullen Week's idea belongs to Celetial Moonshine~
Reading Legend
Normal
"Speaking"
"SHOUTING"
Thoughts
Sarcastic Exaggeration
You and Me, That's All We Need
Chapter 1: From Rain to Snow; A Pat on the Head
The weather outside was furious. Roaring winds and smashing rain like ice pelted the black church of the head quarters. Allen sat on one of the many windows sills, his back against the freezing glass. The old cloak that they had given him when they had headed out gave little heat to the boy. Sighing, he pulled at it harder, bringing his knees up to his chest. He buried his face into them, seeking more warmth. The shadow that loomed over his mirror self remained unmoving, immune to the coldness of the world.
"What the hell are you doing Bean sprout?" It was Kanda. He was the only one who called him that name with such hatred and disgust.
"What do you care?" Allen didn't want to talk with anyone, let alone Kanda. He just wanted to be alone, alone with this thing that would one day consume him whole.
"Don't flatter yourself Bean, I'm only here because Koumi is looking for you." Allen nodded absently at the other exorcist's words. He wasn't really listening, the harsh pitter-patters of the rain outside distracting.
Stretching his sore legs out from their position, Allen looked Kanda in the eye. He could feel the shadow behind him smirk and he did to. Kanda had taken a small, barely noticeable step back. Everyone knew, everyone knew about the being inside him. The thought of Allen being a Noah, being an enemy must have been harsh to see and accept.
Kanda glared at him, suppressing the erg to flee or attack. The way the light fell over Allen was terrifying and beautiful. When lighting would stream across the sky, the remains would colour Allen in blacks and whites. The way the smirk seemed to withhold promises, how his silver eyes gleamed with hidden truths. It was an exotic look to the boy, only witnessed once. And even that was only when he was playing poker, when he knew how it would end and how to perfectly execute it. But this one, this look of terrifying beauty held more malice than any akuma Kanda had ever faced. It seemed to rival that of a Noah.
Allen did a smooth turn around, facing the glass window. His smile had faded to the plain look he wore when confused, passion only showing in his silver eyes. The white orbs of the shadow stared back at him. Resting his hand on the glass, he could feel the being's hand lightly touching the glass as well, as if he was standing outside of the building.
"But sadly, this is the third floor and it's raining quite hard." The words seemed to echo of the walls. Kandaheld a shuttering breath. "Sometimes I wish my hopes could wash over you like everything else... But it can't." The black-haired exorcist wanted to disappear. He felt as if he was diving into the bean's personal business. "Oh well, soon it will snow, with the season's change." Allen turned back around, his face a wisping sadness. No smiles, no frowns, no indication of emotion. Except for his eyes, brimming to sadness that Kanda was surprised the boy had not cried.
"What are you waiting for Kanda? Aren't you taking me to see Koumi?" The samurai growled lowly, but lead the way back to the center of the building.
In the end, it appeared that Koumi had just wanted Allen to open two more doors. The scientist apologized, saying that he had forgotten. The teen didn't really mind, it felt really good opening the portals, a rush of pleasant energy filling him every time. But he could never let anyone know. Not now, not ever. They would probably think that it was something to do with the Noah and alert higher ups right away.
And then... The poor teen thought I would be locked up again...He didn't know how, but he knew about cages and the loneliness of them. He didn't know why he felt like he had already been in them. Had he? Nothing seemed to make any sense, and Allen shook the unwanted thoughts from his mind as he opened up the second gate that Koumi had asked for. The pleasant feeling washed over him again, enveloping him in a pleasant feeling of peace and sincerity before it was over.
I wonder, if this feeling is from the Noah... For some odd reason, the answer that sounded so obvious sounded wrong. Like it was indeed him feeling the cooling sensation of stream water over his boiling skin. That it was him who summoned the images of places he had never been before into his mind as the gate opened to a place he had so often been too.
Perhaps I am already losing? Another plaguing thought entered his mind as the hall ways began to blur together. There was only black walls and fire lit torches. His feet wandered with his mind, not truly knowing where to go.
What happens, if I do lose? Will anyone be there for me? Allen turned towards the outside wall, having ended up where he had been resting earlier. The wind had calmed, the lightning had faded and all that was left was the rain.
Will I be left behind after the storm?
"Got to bed." The words snapped Allen out of his depressive mind as he blinked slowly. Turning around, he saw Kanda once more. He was gazing at him, his eyes level and body appearing strong. Allen briefly wondered what it would be like to see the boy cry. "Didn't you hear me?" To see him break. "Got to bed." To see it die. His black smirk appeared across his face again.
"Why?" Kanda stiffened at the cold voice that had ghosted out of the pale boy's mouth.
"Because we have a mission tomorrow and I don't want to bring a useless bean along."
"Of course Kanda." Allen purred out, walking towards the direction that the other had come from.
"Bean sprout." The foot steps halted, the small echo dying. "Don't loose." Allen wiped around, his eyes wide with shock, surprise, and perhaps something else. "The rain" he thumbed to the window, not facing the boy. "Will be snow soon anyways." And then the black haired figure slowly disappeared into the dark hallways.
"Ba-Kanda!" Allen half shouted half cried as tears smothered his cheeks. "I already know that." He sniffed rubbing the water off his face with his hands. "But I'm afraid..." He looked so much like a child. "I'm afraid of what the snow will bring." And then the wind picked up, howling and the lightning flashed. The rain was once more slamming against the window.
Allen walked into the cafeteria slowly, his body sluggish from lack of sleep. Upon looking up, he instantly caught the eyes of Kanda as he began eating his soba. Ordering normal sized orders of several different kinds of muffins and bagels, Allen found himself sitting across from the other. Said other gave no indication that he had even saw the boy.
Allen gazed down at his breakfast and slowly started eating some English muffins. They were crusty and delicious as always, but...
"If you're going to say something, say it bean sprout!" The voice was quite but demanding. Allen gazed down at his food sadly.
"Kanda... Do you hate me now, now that you know about-"
"I've always hated you idiot. This changes nothing." And all of a sudden Allen was beaming, a small laugh escaping his lips.
"So you're not afraid?" Like you were last night
"Who could be afraid of you?"
"Hmm..." Everyone here "Who do you think?" His voice sounded light hearted, but Kanda knew that Allen was being torn from the inside. But why did he have to come to him?
"I don't know." The one person who couldn't bare to see such change in the boy.
"Really?" I know you're lying
"Really." The one that had to keep it in, had to show everyone that Allen was still Allen.
"Really?" Stop lying!
"Che." Kanda spat out, not knowing what to do anymore. But he had to stay calm, he couldn't let the boy see how he was effected
"You're afraid of me, aren't you..." We know you are. His voice was sad and quite, shaking like the leaves outside.
"Didn't I tell you that I'm not." Kanda held sarcasm in his voice, trying so hard to protect the boy from himself.
"..." Liar. Allen remained silent, his body freezing in place.
"..." Kanda resumed eating, trying to keep an air of indifference. Everyone else had been so stupid! Showing Allen how badly they had taken the news, how afraid they were.
"You're lying~" The voice sound hauntingly playful. It was filled with teasing malice.
"Am I?" Kanda had to show him that he believed that he would win, that he would win over the Noah.
"Yup." The teen looked up, small tear streaks evident on his face.
"Why is that." Kanda tried to distract himself with his food. Allen picked up his large tray and smiled down at him like a mother would a child.
"Because soon the snow will come, replacing the rain." And then Allen parted from the cafeteria, small tower of food with him. "And soon I will be in complete isolation.
"Grah!" Allen screamed as he smashed another plate in his room. He was losing it, he had to have been. Ever since everyone had found out, it was hard for him to stay normal. But know, he was acting so strangely to everything. His sense of self fading. He hated it.
Another plate smashed against the wall. Allen wanted to be able to speak nicely with Lenalee, to joke with Lavi, and to argue with Kanda, but everything was so fucking messed up in his mind.
"I just don't know what's going on anymore!" He held himself, crying. Leaning against the window that he kept arriving at he cried out more, the porcelain dish's laid scattered around him.
"Really Bean spout, don't tell me that you're losing it." And Allen turned around, spotting a smug looking Kanda who shook his head playfully at the mess. "Really, throwing a tantrum? What are you five?"
"I'm fifteen Ba-Kanda!" Allen shouted, a sudden feeling of happiness mixed with anger filling him. "And it's Allen!" Kanda che-ed, looking outside through another window. Allen growled at Kanda and stomped over to him, the porcelain breaking beneath him.
Breathing heavily, Allen stood beside Kanda, trying his best not to scream or to cry. Why was Kanda being so nice? He was scared of him, and yet he still tried to make Allen feel at home.
"Why...?" Why do you stay with me?Kanda turned his head towards him, a sincere look underlined his static features.
"Does it really matter?" And then he reached out and ruffled the boys white hair. It was comforting. Kanda stopped letting his hand rest on the shorter one's head. "As far as I see, you're still the annoying bean sprout." He turned and started walking down the corridor. "Let's go, we have a mission." Allen nodded slowly, glancing at the broken dishes.
"Hey Kanda?" He didn't turn around but he did stop. "Thanks."
"Che. Don't thank me idiot. I just don't want an invalid." Allen wasn't sure, but those words sounded so much more different then what they actually meant. His face let up into a small smile of warmth that he wanted only Kanda to see.
"Don't worry Kanda. After all, I'll make sure to protect you." Kanda glared back at him, seething.
"You may be a critical but you're still nothing more than a brat!" He shouted, storming off. Allen chased after him, a smile on his face. The outside was silent and he turned to glance outside the window. It was snowing. The season's had changed and the first step had been taken. The hallway suddenly seemed darker.
"Wait up Ba-Kanda!" he shouted out as he raced after the flowing black hair. Please don't leave me.Kanda had stopped and waited for him to catch up before he continued his way to the new control room. "Thanks!"
"Che. I know you'll just get lost without me." Allen stuck his tongue out and looked away from him. But then he smiled suddenly, the same small, warm smile from before.
You don't know how true you are... Allen thought as they neared the room. Because without you, Kanda, I think I would have been the rain. Kanda glared at him from the corner of the eye, not understanding the sincere smile. But now I think I'm the snow. Or perhaps both. Allen just smiled bigger. Perhaps I change from snow to rain, just like the seasons. He gazed softly at the older man, causing a small blush to form on his face before he quickly scowled and looked away. Because without you, Kanda, I would have lost so long ago. I would have been stuck in the season of "fall".
There, I hoped you like it. Please review so that I can get a better insight on my story. I hope to place the other two chapter up here today as well (or early tomorrow...).
Till then, please enjoy Yullen Week~!
