Who really knows what happens to you after you die? I do not know but, my brothers and aunt do. I have felt each on die. Anakin long and painful, it is what made me turn, to feel pain like that. With aunt Mara, I almost did not feel it. With Jacen, my twin I felt close to nothing. It was not until after he died did I feel something. Then I felt my own pain.

Jacen's death hit harder than anyone else's. I felt Anakin and Mara's but, it is a different type of pain one you could have actually felt. Jacen's death hit hard because I did not feel anything. My twin, who I shared a greater bond than with anyone had to die by my hand and I didn't feel a thing.

I have felt guilty about that for a long time but, now it is time for me too move on. I am just thankful I have little Allana who looks so much like Jacen that it hurts. I have been taken care of her for awhile and I feel less guilty everyday.

That is until recently when I have had nightmares about my brothers' death. I have told Uncle Luke and he said it is nothing to be afraid of but, I know someone is out there to get me. I am sure it is to get revenge.