Leaving you behind

By: Grey Wolf

Dedicated: Ice Crystal and Damien, the two people I love more than anything in the world.

Disclaimer: Everyone belongs to Squaresoft. I never have and never will own anyone named here or on any of my other fan fictions, except Drake but he's special, he's my boy =^-^=

Note: Mmm, lets make it interesting. If anyone can tell me who's POV this is and I'll write you a fanfiction. Only the first three who give me the correct name will get one though. It you are totally stumped email me and I'll tell you  or if you're wrong I'll send you an email with the right answer.

I laid looking out of the window. The night was filled with stars and the moon shone in, emulating the bed room in an eerie white glow. It was so bright that I had no trouble seeing everything and everyone in the room.

Rinoa was curled up next to me with her head resting on my chest. She was caught in slumber's dear embrace and knew nothing of what I was planning to do. Oh how sweet she looked as she laid there, so angelic. I picked up a strand of her hair between my fingers and rolled it slowly between them. Her hair was so fine and soft.

That's what I love about her really; her softness, her innocents, her kindness, her eyes, her beauty, her smile. I love every part of her and that is why this is so hard, that's why it's so hard to leave her.

I wish I didn't have to leave her, really I do but I can't stay. We are not meant to be I just know that there is someone out there who will make her happier than I ever could: Our adventure ends tonight, tonight the magic we have dies. It's better I leave her tonight for I'll only hurt her in the long run, like I hurt everyone that gets too near me and I don't want to hurt her, not her. Not the one I love. I refuse to hurt the one person that means more to me than live itself.

So instead I'm leaving her in the middle of the night like some common whore sneaking out after the job is completed. It makes me feel so dirty and cheap to do this to Rinoa. She'll probably hate me for leaving her like this but it will be better and easier on us both, she'll get over it. If Rinoa is anything she's strong, she'll survive this.

I carefully untangle myself from Rinoa and gently place her head onto a pillow. She shifts herself but she doesn't awake. I untangle myself from the bedding and look back at her angelic face feeling another pang of guilt for leaving her. -It is better that she doesn't know I'm leaving, she'll only beg me to stay and I can't- I tell myself but it brings no rest to my conscience.

Blessedly she didn't wake as I got out of bed. I was thankful for the moonlight, the room light might have woke her and I couldn't explain to her. How do you tell someone you're leaving them because you love them? I pull a note out of my pocket and place it on the dresser. It was only a simple letter telling her that I'm sorry.

I walk to the door and pull it open silently. I turn back to look and Rinoa one last time, she looks so small and alone in the bed that my heart aches for her. For a moment I consider to go back to her and leave all my responsibilities and dreams behind to be with her but I can't, my hopes are to important to me.

I close the door behind me, tears in my eyes and I walk away from my only love. I only hope I did the right thing as I walk away to face my destiny alone…