Howdy Duckies,
I hope everyone is doing well with life, and I apologize again for my spotty appearances. I've been doing a lot of thinking over the last few years and have recently come to the realization that may upset some of you. And I apologize for that as well. However, I have made up my mind and I cannot go back on this decision for many, many reasons.
I've made a lot of promises that I haven't kept as far as my writing goes, both in and out of fanfiction. I've tried my best to meet expectations and have literally crumpled into hysterical tears when I wasn't able to. All I ever wanted was for people to enjoy my writing as much as I enjoyed writing it. As all of you are aware, I basically fell off the grid a few years ago from the fanfiction world. I had too many things going on in my life to continue; too many things that were far more important to deal with than silly, smutty stories for the online crowd. Most of you know that I am a single mother, struggling to make ends meet, and that is certainly a contributing factor in why I had to take a step back.
But now I find myself in a completely different place than I was when I was writing nearly every day; posting nearly every day. I have a job, and a teeny tiny social life, and I'm still a struggling single mom. And I have dreams. So many freakin' dreams that always seem just out of my reach.
So here's the thing: I don't want to write fanfiction anymore. I'm not into it. I'm not into using other people's characters even if I do modify them and put them in "AU" settings. The stories I've left hanging, I have no real urge to finish. The only reason I've even attempted to recently was to make all of you happy, but my heart is no longer in it. I've fallen in love with too many of my own creations; too many of my own stories.
I struggled daily with the fact that the majority of you will turn away from me if I officially come out and say this, and that deeply pains me. And it's pain I don't have the time to deal with right now. Only some of you will understand what it feels like to have people beating down your proverbial door over fanfiction, but completely ignore you when it comes to something you wrote from the deepest recesses of your soul.
The time of Mistress Penny's smutty fanfiction is long over, and it's time for the final chapter to close. Again, I'm sorry if this upsets all of you but it's something that I need to do. I will be closing the fanpage on dA to new requests unless someone wishes to take over control. There's not much happening on this page anymore, so whatever works will have to work. If anyone is interested in following any original work I decide to share online, I will be adding a link to the bottom of this page, and you are welcome to send a friend request to my FB page, just PM me for a link.
I hope you all can understand where I'm coming from and respect my decision. Thank you all for the fantastic ride those years were together, and I truly wish all of you the very best life has to offer.
Much Love and a Heavy Heart,
~Penelopye
mistress penelopye . wordpress . com
