This is me


Hello Boys, girls and everyone in-between. Tamashi here with another fanfic for you. Before we get on with the story I wanted to give thanks to anyone who reads and comments on my stories. You guys are great

I also wanted to say thanks to fellow author and friend Zep19 for his support and friendship

I also want to thank my fiancé for putting up with me

This fic is rated T as it covers Sexuality and Gender identity. It will probably contain some coarse language. Enjoy


Chapter 1

Alvin sat on the beach overlooking a small cove, the warm sand shifting beneath him. The wind kissed his face, blowing gently against his body. The clouds passed him in a sleepy haze, the sun peaking from behind them. He felt safe, free from the shackles of fame. Alvin can be who he himself, who he chooses to be.

Secrets tend to eat you up inside. A fact that Alvin knew all too well, He lived with one himself. No one ever thought that he had a secret that surpassed his supposed shallow personality.

Why would they, He's a rock star and the lead singer of a famous band. Being an arrogant jerk comes with the territory, it's what people assume anyway

That's why Alvin is sitting on this beach alone, resting beneath the warm spring sun. He wanted a break from the rock star mentality, all the stuff that he hates. IT gives him time to be who he truly wants to be

Alvin admitted what he was to himself a long time again, after years of denial and self-hatred. He final feels free to say it, to himself for now. He wasn't ready to share his revelation with others

He is transgender, a boy wanting to be a girl. He had never felt right as a guy, not for a long time anyway.

Alvin knew he'd have to tell his family at some point, thus why he had come to the beach to think

Alvin let out a sigh; He didn't want to face possible rejection. The beach didn't do much to boost his spirits but he didn't know where else to go.

"Look out" A voice called out behind him

He turned in time to see a soccer ball sail past his head, hitting the surf with a loud splash. He could swear his heart skipped a beat.

"Are you ok?" The voice said, sounding familiar

Alvin turned to see Eleanor standing before him in her soccer gear

"I'm fine, just a little startled" He said in a soft voice, keeping his head bent

"I'm so sorry but I'm glad you're ok" Eleanor said, wiping her brow "I'm Eleanor by the way, and you are?"

"I'm …" Alvin begins, suddenly remembering that he's not in his normal outfit. He was currently wearing girl's clothes, with his now longish hair. He looked like a girl

"I'm Charlie" Alvin said, bitting his lip nervously

She smiles at him, quickly retrieves her ball from the surf

"So are you new to town?" Eleanor asks, sitting down next to Alvin

"No, I've been here for a while. Just haven't gotten out much" He explains, noting a hint of the truth behind those words

"Oh Cool, We should hangout some time. If you want" Eleanor said, making Alvin smile

"I'd like that, Thanks Eleanor." Alvin says,

"Call me El, Most of my friends do"

"Ok, Thanks El"

"No Probs"

Hours pass as the two sit on the beach, just chatting at the edge of the water. Alvin felt relaxed, like he belonged. Alvin watched as the sun began to set, a truly wondrous site. He was grateful to have Eleanor as a friend, someone who'd not judge but he couldn't bring himself to tell her his secret

"I should get home, it's getting pretty late" Alvin Stated, standing up from the sand

"I guess I'll see you around then Charlie, It was nice meeting you"

"You too El"

They parted ways, taking the back ways to get home so as not to run into Eleanor. Alvin knew my way around the neighbourhood pretty easily, He also knew a few weak spots in the fences should he want to slip into anyone's property. He learnt these little facts through his numerous romantic exploits with many of the neighbourhood girls

Alvin slipped through the fence surrounding his backyard, climbing up into the tree house that Dave had built for him and his brothers. He didn't want to risk entering the house dressed in his current clothing. He was about to start changing when he heard somebody come up the ladder

"Alvin?" Simon's voice asked, making Alvin freeze stock still

He hoped it was too dark to be seen, a hope that was quickly dashed away from him when a bright light blinded. He shield his face from what he assumed was the beam of a flashlight

"Who are you?" Simon asked, confused as hell

"It's me Si" Alvin said, still trying to hide his face

Simon turned off the flashlight, plunging the tree house into semi-darkness. There was an awkward silence in the air; it felt almost suffocating to Alvin. He cleared his throat to break the silence.

"Si, I wanted to tell you but… I was scared how you guys would react. I thought you'd hate me" Alvin began to explain

"Alvin … I don't like that you lied to me but I'd never hate you. Not for something like this" Simon responded

"Thanks but I guess I wasn't really ready to come forward, I mean… I'm still scared"

"I'll support you Al and I know Dave would too, I'm not sure about Theo or the girls" Simon gave Alvin a sort of side hug

"So what do I call you now?" Simon asked

"Charlie" Alvin responded

"My sister Charlie" Simon said with a bemused look

"I know it sounds weird" Alvin said with a smile

"I'll get used to it" Simon said "Let's get inside before Dave kills us"

"Gimmie a sec to change"

Simon climbs down from the tree house, leaving Alvin to his thoughts. He already had too people in his corner, well one doesn't know yet. Alvin still felt good, like he has the courage to come out.

Alvin changed back into his normal attire, tucking his other clothing away before climbing down from the tree house. He looks towards the house, a sigh escaping him. He'd have to face his fears eventually, something he really wasn't looking forward to.