"Jase, please!" I pleaded as he turned his back to me.

"Clary, no! I can't okay?" he murmured; his voice lowering with each word.

"Please..." I whispered, reaching out and gently placing my hand on his shoulder which made him shiver involuntarily.

I heard him inhale sharply before turning around and firmly placing a hand on either side of my face. Inching his face closer to mine he said,

"I can't take this Clary. We can't do this. I can't be around you without... shit. You're my sister Clary!"

In this position the butterflies in my stomach were going crazy and I couldn't help but reach out my hands to hold his face closer to mine.

"Clary? Are you in there?" Isablel asked, rushing into the room.

"Um, yeah I'm here..." I replied as Jase dropped his hands and walked away from me.

"I'm not interrupting any brother sister bonding am I? It's just that your mundane is here" she said grinning at me.

"Why do you still call him that Iz?" I asked her.

"I don't know" she shrugged. "I guess it just sounds better than blood sucking downworlder... don't you agree?"

"Just call him Simon for once will you Izzy?" I smiled, too used to her attitude by now to take offence.

"Just go see him yeah? I sent him to your room. I need to talk to your brother" she said seriously so I nodded and walked past her and out of the room.

Taking a deep breath, I sighed and opened the door to my room. Don't get me wrong, I loved Simon. Really, I did but I didn't know how deal with his cheerfulness right now. Not after everything that had happened in the past few days.

Yes, he is my best friend and we've known each other since before we could walk but there was no way for him to possibly know how I was feeling. Finding out that the boy I love is my brother, that my father is this evil villain and that his army caused my beloved mother to be killed!

So forgive me for not being all happy and excited to see him, okay?

"Clary! How are you?" Simon said, wrapping his arms around me.

Backing away from him, I shrugged my shoulder and slid down the wall until I was sitting on the floor.

"I understand if you don't want to talk about it... I know you have a lot going on but we've been best friends forever and I-"

Cutting him off with a kiss was beyond stupid but I wasn't thinking and like he said I have a lot going on...