My Poems
The Daze
Sometimes, it's just the daze I get into when I look at the flame.
It draws me inside, and takes out all the anger, deminishing it within itself.
Or maybe, it's just the way the flame dances.
That as I watch it, it reaches in and touches my soul.
Taking all the pain away again..
Sometimes it could just the be way the heat is against my fingertips.
As I hold it close, it burns away my sins.
Vanishing them into pure, black, smoke..
Either way..
I'm addicted.
Addicted to the sense of completion.
The release.
An outlet to the world which is untouched by mortal hands.
But only open unto the willing soul..
This is the life... of a Pyromaniac
Be Who You Are
No one §eem§ to want you, becau§e
you are not who they want you to
be. They will §hape you like clay
until they find you are their way.
You are their doll. You live a lie.
Fear
Fear cannot touch me. . .
It can only taunt me,
it cannot take me,
just tell me
where to go. . .
I can either follow,
or stay in my bed. . .
I can hold on to the
things that I know. . .
The dead stay dead,
they cannot walk.
The shadows are the darkness.
And darkness can't talk.
~This goes to my story Puppet Strings~
*The entire world is dangling by one string...a puppet string*
Falling, I'm falling..
into this brief yet never-ending eternity
Looking into the pure, bitter-sweet darkness
My new home, and I'm here to stay
Wishing I was gone
Into the blankness of nothing
yearning to be cut from the puppet strings
that bound me for ever after
knowing more is out there
so close yet so very far away
innocent angelic whispers
only above me and nothing more
blinding white that surrounds me
just on the walls
but walking over this black ground
when it's never forever
nor here to stay
looking for the light
at the end of the tunnel
that's not really there..
cut me free and let me see
just what this desolate new world
will bring to me..
Alone, I'm alone..
and the walls are closing in..
but what you don't see..
is what will never truly end..
Never really alone..
but no-one is around..
this is my sanctuary..
this is where I'm bound.
from this dream
I'll never wake
from this life..
I put at stake..
It felt so real like..
you were really there
but knowing you're far away
touching you, holding you
but only you're the reason
that I'm lost inside myself
now when everything is dark
and I'm not to be found
drifting in the darkness
land of no sight nor sound
chasing after something that
I could have only imagined
but when you wake up
I'll be gone.. because..
Falling, I'm falling..
into this darkened doorway
one not of my own and
never it will be again
there was no light at the end..
just darkness..
eternal..
darkness..
If Only You Could See
I might give it all away just to have a moment with you. To be able to tell you how I truly feel without there being any judgement, or any other words but the truth. But always being caught up in the actions of others, we cannot detect the way we really feel about ourselves, or possibly, one another. The world is a foolish place full of love and hate, we are stuck in the middle. If only I could give everything away, to make you blind to reality, but be able to see what is in front of you.
Colours
Mystifying colours of the celestial.
Pull me into the spinning vortex
of this undenying shame. Pull
me under, but do not let me drown. -::-£-::-
Friend-Ship
Friends will always be with you, friends will always care,
friends will always think about you even if your not there.
They always make my heart feal warm even when i'm sad.
And sometimes it will take my mind off things so i wont be
that mad. Sometimes we go see movies or even go tot he
Mall! But she said if theres eva anyting you need 2 talk 2me
about dont be afriad to call. Sometimes i'm confused about
my life and dont know what to do. They say what do you
think i'm stupid and dont have a clue? So we sat down and
talked about it and then we finally knew (friends will always
be with you, friends will always care, friends will think of you even if your not there).
Take any of my shit i will hunt you down and cope you into pieces and send it to your family on tape. Got it? Alright.
Can you see for real,
that this is how I feel?
The walls are closing in,
but it's just another sin.
Like you can't see,
through the mask of me.
But downward I will fall,
even then you'll still stall.
I can't look you in the eye,
yeah, I still want to die.
You think you know,
then how's it all go?
Tell me how's it feel to bleed?
Is this your so called good deed?
To save me from myself once more?
Could you really know what's in store..
But through my eyes, you'll never see,
Just what it's like to be me.
But before you choose to go get slayed..
was it really me that needed to be saved..?
Hope
Looking for hope.. That's about how I can sum up everything right now.
I'm looking for hope
Looking for it all
Looking for a place
So I can fall.
Leaving you all behind
Nothing here to find
A sense of frustration
My State of mind
Maybe you could help
Maybe I wouldn't leave
You were the one
That made me believe.
Fearing you're not there
Knowing this isn't real
You made it disappear
Changed how I feel.
Now I'm looking away
Because this is fake
You left me alone
With life at stake
Maybe I'd forgive you
Maybe I'd still care
Maybe I would laugh
Or maybe just stare.
Now it's the truth
I just can't hear
maybe it's losing you
that's my only fear..
