September 24, 2003 "It's just good to know we're not all made of marble like Adonis over there" Did I say that? Yes, yes I think I must have...Courfeyrac is late again today because of some grisette, and Enjolras is upset. In short, everything is proceeding normally at the Cafe Musain.

Something wasn't right with what I said though, what was it? Ah, I remember now, Adonis. That's what Enjolras isn't; he's more of a Hypolitus. Beauty that inflames women with that unreasonable illness they call love. But if he ever were to know of it he would be surprised. Aphrodite is missing a devotee Phaeton and you had best beware her terrible wrath, lest she topple you from your chariot of triumph.

You won't though, just like the Amazon's son, and your blindness, like his, will lead to your demise by that evil star that takes it's part in every mans destiny. You are no exception to the rule- no matter what you may believe. Your monster Government will triumph in the end, it won't matter what they say about you after your gone. Does what happens matter after you're dead? I don't think so but neither does my failure at the Barrier du Main, and I was ashamed of that.

Perhaps you know something I don't, or perhaps you're just a fool. I am inclined to believe the latter, but there are those moments when I wonder. When you have an incredible expression on your face. Like now.... it's as if the sun were shining through you. Hrmph, I'm the worse fool, to see what will happen and not run from it. Well, we can live but once! "Maitelotte, bring me another glass of absinth!" My fate is to follow him, the one thing I believe in.

Could someone tell me what I'm doing wrong? Nothing seems to turn out well. And yes, I have an obsession with monologs.