Tears roll down my face.

Burning as they make their way.

I know who these tears are for.

But they will never know how many tears I have cried.

For them.

The pillow stains

With the tears from the sleepless nights.

The thoughts they held washed away.

But only so long before they come back.

Then the tears come again.

Neverending I cry.

Like my sun I have my moon.

Its not as bright but it will do.

M y moon is like me in everyway.

While my sun is my oppiste and thats okay.

I love both but in diffrent ways.

I need both to get through my day.

What you dont see its all inside.

Its the cry of my heart as it slowly dies.

It screams for you but you just walk on through.

You smile at me and you dont see...

the pain behind my mystery.

You can try to push pain away.

Like dancing away your problems in the pouring rain.

But its all the same.

The rain goes away then you dry.

And your still left with this empty feeling inside.

I want to scream out.

Its feels like there is a hand holding them in.

Suficating me.

Taking my breathe away...

My voice, my mind.

The pain, it screams for me.

The pain it fills my empty heart.

All love there swept away.

Black cold dead heart, needing a reason to start.

Pain.

Makes me alive, makes me thrive.

Chases fears away.

But makes things gray.

No sunshine.

No moon.

Nothing.

I can not see.

There is no back.

I want to run, but there is no track.

Lost in my own mind.

Screaming to leave.

The taste of my tears is bitter sweet.

It means im still alive, but neverending i cry.

The darkness of this room...

it comforts me but it is also sufficating.

Will I ever find relief?

Or will everything simply keep on killing me?