Summary: Edward left Bella in new moon but before he left he gave her a special present by dropping his boundaries. A few days after the party he and his family leave.

Prologue

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible… It passes unevenly in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me.

Days began to pass as of my heart. My body seems to be here but mind isn't, it's with him. Sometimes when I look around I see only white walls, that's when I remember where I was and why I was here. It's been 2 weeks since the Cullen's left and nothing is the same. Ever since Sam found me in the forest I've been unresponsive. This room with white walls is a psychiatric ward. I look towards the door and saw my name engraved on the door showing it my room, but it isn't. No memories are here, no laughter, no closets and no window; his window. I closed my eyes causing myself to remember why I'm here.

2 weeks ago

Tonight's sky was utterly black. Perhaps there was no moon tonight- a lunar eclipse. A new moon. I shivered though I wasn't cold. Something was wrong I could feel it, I snap out of my trance when I heard a knock on the door. I answered it and too my surprise it was Edward but its like it wasn't. There before did not stand my love instead a real vampire. His eyes were black, which held no gentleness. His clothing was the same as always godlike. His appearance showed danger but I knew nothing about him is. We stayed there staring at each other until he opened his mouth.

"Walk with me"

I followed him to the edge of the forest by my house where he stopped. My heartbeat frantically in my chest, I tried calming down but anxiety kept creeping on me. I opened my mouth to speak but nothing came out. He then began talking again.

"We need to leave Forks," he replied coldly.

" What?" " Why?"

"It's time. Carlisle's supposed to be ten years older than he looks; people will starting noticing."

"But… When?"

I tried thinking through different scenarios to tell Charlie and Renee bye but I couldn't think of anything that moment but I still needed to say something.

"I'll have to think of something to tell Charlie, but I can be ready—"

" Not you. Us."

I stared at him stunned and in silence trying to figure out what he was saying then it all came clear; The party.

"What – no – Edward, what happen with Jasper—that was nothing."

"Nothing compared to what could happen. You don't belong in my world."

"I belong with you."

"You don't, he said indifferently"

" I'm coming—"

"I don't want you to come, he said fiercely."

I felt like I've just been slap, my heart began breaking in two. I could feel it as the other part holding me together waited for him to confirm my fears.

" You don't want me."

"No."

I took couple steps back as my heart tore. I began heaving as my now black heart pound erratically in my chest.

" I'll ask one favor though."

I looked up emotionless and I spoke before I could stop myself.

" Anything."

" Don't do anything stupid or reckless. Do you understand? For Charlie sake. Just. Take care of yourself."

" I—Yes – I will."

His face softened as a flash of emotion crossed his face but he covered it quickly.

"Don't worry your human time heals all wounds for you kind. Particularly if your not reminded."

" Don't do this - please."

"Try to understand. Every second with you is about restraint. You're too fragile. I'm tired of pretending to be something I'm not. Reining myself in so I can be with a human."

"Then take my soul. I don't care! I don't want it without you—"

"Then take my soul. I don't care! I don't want it without you –"

"I've let it go on too long. I'm sorry."

Tears began to sting in my eyes as I realized that there before me was my first before, my last forever leaving me.

"I promise, it will be like I never existed. Goodbye, Bella."

He kissed my forest and left speeding through the forest like a lightening bolt.

Back to the Present

I sat up quickly and notices standing there are at the door was Charlie. He still looks the same as the last time I saw him. He walked over to me cautiously. I notice bags under his eyes, which looked like he hadn't sleep in weeks. He sat on the bed and I laid my head on his shoulders sighing deeply.

" I'm ready to go home daddy," I said quietly knowing he would hear due to how close we were.

He looked at me for a while considering and the spoke.

" Honey If I let you come home you have to promise me a few things. No more moping around, you're going back to school. Spend some time with your friends. Be a better person for me Bells because you're not the first person to get their heart break and you surely wont be the last. But there is a time when you have to look in the mirror and ask one question. Was it ever worth it? Sometimes love come and goes but sometimes it stays here forever. You have to see the inner good in yourself and when you look at your reflection see what you could learn from the pain that you go through so you wouldn't make that same mistake, because baby girl no matter how much pain you go through you will always found a way to repair what was once broken."

I raised my hand to his cheeks as I felt the tears from his eyes. I realized that everything doesn't have to end because he left everything can be better.

Questions started forming in my head. Did he really love me or was I just a maar distraction o him? Was Alice really the best friend she said she was because friends don't leave without saying goodbye. Did Carlisle, Esme, Emmett or even Jasper? I don't even have to count Rosalie because she never liked me. From here and now on I locked the Cullen family out of my and kept them in a personal box in my heart which I never want to open again.

" I will daddy I love you, I'll do everything I have to-, please lets just go home."