Cold

Chapter 1

The put the casket under. Piles of dirt and flowers come raining down.

People say their goodbyes and leave.

It's just me and him after a while.

I crouch down.

2 months. 2 months since he's been gone, he left me with two little ones inside me.

"Peeta? Why did you leave?" I whisper.

"I'm so cold, there's nothing left for me, your dead, Prim's gone, everyone else is out there doing who knows what, and my mother is arranging a marriage for me, I don't want to get married, I want you Peeta, only you, but she doesn't get it, I'm so cold" I say.

There's a knock on the door downstairs. I'll let my mother get it, it's probably one of her many friends who have a son.

"Annie! Clove! How nice to see you! Come in, come in! Katniss is upstairs in her room, as usual" I hear my mother say. Bitch.

I quickly put away Peeta's picture and stare out the window. It's raining. I love the rain. I feel like god knows how I feel. Like he's crying with me. Because there's no longer a person so kind and loving, as Peeta.

"Katniss" Annie says.

I don't turn.

"C'mon get up! We have to get something for the babies" Clove whines.

"Clove, he's gone" I whisper.

"I know Katniss, I know, but hey, e wouldn't want to see you like this, he would want you to be happy" She says hugging me.

I nod and get up.

"Johanna said she would meet us at the mall" Annie says.

Annie, Clove, Johanna, and Madge are my best friends.

Annie is a young woman with flowing brown hair and green eyes.

Clove has dark hair, dark eyes, and some freckles.

Johanna has wide-set brown eyes and short, brown, spiky hair.

Madge blond hair, usually worn down, and light blue eyes.

"Ok" I whisper.

"I brought you some clothes. Figure they'd fit you since your not exactly huge" Clove says.

She takes out black jeans, a red tan top, a black oversized sweater, and a red beanie.

"You have shoes" Clove says. It kinda makes me smile. Kinda.

"Before we came here Jo heard these girls were talking about some stupid band that they said was going to play at the mall. Stupid really. But Annie seemed to get excited about it" Clove says.

"Eek!" Annie squeals.

"See?" Clove points to her.

I laugh.

They both smile. As if its an accomplishment to make me laugh.

Well it kind of is.

I put on my combat boots and put the beanie on.

"Let's go!" Annie squeals.

"Meh" Clove says.

20 minutes later, we're at the mall, shopping for baby clothes.

On a way out of a baby store, I notice a group of 5 boys walking with sunglasses and hats. Creepy.

We notice Jo sipping a smoothie and talking to a boy who's wearing sunglasses and a hat. Weird.

"Jo!" Clove yells. Causing some heads to turn.

"Hi Clove!" She yells back. She waves is over. The boy immediately leaves.

We walk over there and immediately Clove takes Jo's smoothie away.

"So who was that?"Clove points to the guy while sipping Jo's smoothie.

"A guy" Jo says snatching her smoothie back.

Clove glares at her and goes to buy her own smoothie.

"Katniss" Jo says relieved and hugs me.

"Hi" I whisper.

"I missed you" Jo says.

"Me too" I say.

"So you wanna smoothie?" She asks.

I laugh.

"Nah I'm ok" I say.

I don't want to tell her that I'm already colder on both the outside and inside, than ice.

"Ok, Madge, please don't be like 'Oh my gawd!' When I tell you who the band is, you too Annie" Jo warns them.

"Ok" They both say.

"One direction" Jo whispers.

"Oh my god! No way! Eek!" They both squeal.

I frown.

"Kidding, that was a test" Jo laughs.

"Awww" They both whine.

I laugh.

"Te band is called Cold" Jo says.

I laugh. Cold. Like me.

"What's so funny Katniss?" Clove asks.

"Nothing" I say.

"Ok then, lets get food!" Clove whines.

We get up and order some Chinese food at the cafeteria.

"So how many months are you? Clove asks.

"Two" I say.

"Wow, you need to start eying if you want them to be healthy" She advices. I nod.

We get out food and sit down.

"Jo? You still haven't told us who that guy was" Madge says.

"Oh right! It was Gale Hawthorne, he's in the band" She explains.

"Meh, those guys are dicks" Clove says eating a noodle.

I ignore their conversation and stare off into space.

I wish Peeta was here. He would hug me and kiss me. He would make me feel warm again. He would make me laugh and force me to eat my food, and he would be rubbing my belly when I turn 7 months. He would kiss me, and love me. And then when the babies would be born. He would hold them and love hem until the day they leave, not even until then.

I take my iPod out and take my earphones out too. Unfortunately, they fall and since I can't exactly bend down, I nudge Clove. She turns and notices.

"Get them yourself" She jokes.

I chuckle.

"Jo! Can you pick up my earphones?" I ask.

"Hmm idk can I?" She replies.

I glare at her.

"But Jo, there right -" My hand smacks against something. I look at and see a Tall, strong, muscular, and good-looking guy with blonde hair, and cerulean eyes.

For a moment he looks like Peeta. Snap out of it Katniss! Peeta's dead.

"Sorry!" I say.

"It's ok" He says. Damn he has a nice voice.

"I am sorry, I'm just out of it today" I say.

"Today? Your out of it everyday"Jo mumbles. Clove laughs.

"Cato, dude, were on in like 10 minutes" An extremely handsome, tall, muscular, bronze hair, tan skin with the most incredible sea green eyes talks to who's name is now Cato.

"Alright Finn, I got it, I just came here to help this beautiful girl" Cato says which makes me blush.

Katniss! Concentrate!

I stare off into space. Until l see Annie staring dreamily at who Cato was talking to. I look at him.

"Why hello there" He purrs at Annie. Causing her to blush.

"I'm Finnick Odair, who might you be?" Finnick purrs.

"Annie Cresta" Annie says.

"Well, why don't you give me a call later on" Finnick slides his number towards Annie.

"So dude, lets go" Finnick says.

"Wait" Cato says.

"Fine" He winks at Annie.

"Here you go" Cato grabs my hand causing electricity to go through me. He puts my earphones in my hand. Then slyly winks at me. It's not until he leaves that I notice he gave me his number.

This causes warmth to spread all through me. Only something Peeta could do.

I get up and head to the restroom. Madge on my heels.

I open a stall door and lock it.

Then I puke.

"Katniss? Are you ok?" I hear Madge ask.

"Mhm" I hum.

"Do you need a breath mint?" She asks.

"Yes please" I say wiping my moth with a paper towel.

I flush and step outside.

Madge gives me a water bottle for my mouth. I rinse with it. She gives me the mint.

"Thanks Madge" I say.

"No problem Kat" She says.

We head outside.

"Did he give you his number?, don't lie, I saw his wink" Madge says.

"Yes" I say.

"Oh my god, you should text him! Or call him! He's totally into you" She squeals.

"Yeah because he doesn't know that I'm carrying someone's buns in the oven" I say.

"True but Kat, didn't you see the stars in his eyes?" She asks me.

Honestly, no, I didn't. It's not like I'm interested. Sure he's good looking but it doesn't matter. I mean c'mon the only reason he would give me his number is because he wants to bang someone. Right?

"Guys ready to go to the no doubt shitty concert?" Clove asks.

"Sure" Madge says.

"Lets go" Jo says.

We make our way to the auditorium they have and find some seats.

"So what kind of music does the band do?" I ask Jo.

"Tons of things, love songs, sad songs, happy songs, shit like that" She explains.

"What are they going to do right now?" I ask.

"I don't know but since they're not that big of stars they're starting off with songs from artists" She says.

"Oh" I say.

I stare off into space. I didn't notice Cato and Finnick were on stage until they were checking the microphones.

He waves at us. I just put my hand up.

Ha calls for Cato and the boy Johanna was talking to earlier. Finnick points at us. Oh joy.

"Hey girls, can you come over here for a sec" Finnick says.

Clove groans not wanting to get up.

Eventually Cato, Finnick and the boy make their way over with two others.

"Jo, I'd like you to meet, Marvel, Gloss, Cato and Finnick" The boy says.

"We know who those two are" she grumbles. Cato and Finnick laugh.

"Oh" The boy sighs.

"Guys, this is Gale" Jo points to him.

"Hey" we say.

"These are Katniss, Annie, Clove an Madge" Jo points to all of us by name.

"So Katniss, I've heard a lot about you" Gale says.

"You have?" I ask.

"Yup, Jo wouldn't stop worrying about you" He says.

"Oh, stupid Jo, I told you I'm perfectly fine" I scold Jo.

She mumbles something Gale.

"Are you?" She asks.

"Yes" I say.

"Really?" She asks again.

"Yes" I say.

"Hmm" she looks at me suspiciously.

I just stand there.

"Peeta" She says.

I feel like I'm crumbling. Like i'm falling apart, and maybe I am. Tears brim my eyes as I stare at the floor.

"Johanna! What the fuck!?" Clove screams.

A pair of arms try to comfort me, but nothing can, only Peeta could.

"What?" Johanna says.

"You know very well what! We're not suppose to talk about him! You promised!" Clove screams.

"Sorry!" She screams back.

Try argue back and forth.

I can't take it anymore. I cover my ears and run away.

I make my way to the top if a building not so far from the mall have. It's pouring now. I feel so hollow. Like a paper being blown back and forth by the wind. Only no one can catch me. I'm way to high for them. For anyone.

I make my way to the edge and look down. Should I do it? No, what about my babies? They'll follow you.

No. Yes. No. Yes. No. Yes. No. Yes.

What do I do? I'm so cold.