So this is the first story I have ever written so please give me feedback do you think it is worth continuing? All that good stuff

Obviously I don't own glee or any of its characters.

I hope you like it

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Rachel opened her eyes and took a deep breath, today was the day. Finally, after five years she was going back to face her fears, but a lot had happened in five years. She had been from Broadway, to the big screen, to a music tour across the country. Yes a lot had changed.

But the one thing that hadn't changed was the past. Rachel knew it sounded stupid but she figured that maybe if she understood the reasons behind the names, the hate, and the slushes she really could let it be, not avoid it like she has been for the past five years.

Maybe avoid wasn't a strong enough word, Rachel more or less ran away when ever high school was mentioned. A fact that most of her cast mates found interesting but they quickly learned not to ask about.

That was why she was doing this, she reminded herself, also the anti-bullying message that she was always trying to get across helped motivate her but no, the real reason was for herself. So she could finally fall asleep without that constant question in her head of just why.

Why had the most beautiful girl that she had ever seen decided that she, little Rachel Berry was so intolerable. Ok so some time she was annoying, Rachel acknowledged that, but so was everyone else! So why had Quinn singled her out?

Quinn that was a name she had not let herself think about in a long time. Well until about four months ago that was true. Four months ago she had gotten that fateful phone call about the new show and how, with her no bullying agenda and known past of being bullied, she would be the perfect one for the premiere of the show.
At the time it had sounded like a good idea. She got to finally let go and no one got hurt because it was filmed in front of a live studio audience with Ellen as host so no chance for Quinn to slushy her right?

Now as she laid in her bed thinking about the day to come and what it had in store for her, Rachel had to wonder if she had been a little high when she accepted the proposal and told them Quinn's name. Ok sure she had never been high that she had known of but that doesn't mean she wasn't high then because right now she didn't think there was any other way she would have agreed to it.

Rachel closed her eyes and let out a groan, what had she been thinking! If only she had said no four months ago she could be sleeping this gloomy Monday morning away in her soft queen sized bed. Rachel loved her room with its soft blue walls that she expertly matched her light green comforter. The dark brown wood of her bed stuck out from the rest of her room and she loved it. She even had accents of pink and yellow everywhere to remind her of her childhood but at the moment Rachel avoided those splashes of color. She chose instead to look out her tall windows to the Pacific Ocean that made up her back yard. It calmed her to know that something has stayed the same on a day that she felt could change so much. And with thoughts of the ocean and the sound of its gentle rocking filling her head Rachel finally got up and made her way to the bathroom to start her day.